So I scheduled an appointment with my therapist when I was suicidal and now I’m super embarrassed to tell her anything tomorrow

Being 300% honest with your therapist is the only way that they'll be able to get a complete picture of how you feel, and that will ultimately help you get better. I had a really rough night with my ocd and was very close to acting on something I knew I'd regret...I plan on telling my therapist tomorrow so she understands how I'm feeling and we can work together to help me through it. Remember, their job is to help you, not judge you, so dont feel ashamed or embarrassed to share anything.

If it makes you feel any better: she’s probably used to it. I’m sure she has many patients schedule appointments while they feel in crisis and then feel ambareassed seeing her after they come out the other side. Let her know what happened and use her as a resource to come up with some coping strategies for next time you feel that way. There’s nothing to be ashamed of and honestly in a moment of feeling that way you 100% did the right thing.

You did 100% the right thing scheduling an appointment, so pat on the back for that. Even if your through the moment now, I agree with the others, tell her what happened. She can help you figure out ways to cope next time.

Maybe write out a letter of what you want to say, and then if you are too afraid to talk about it in the moment you can share what you wrote? Just remember they are there to help!

i did a simmilar thing in which i scheduled a doctors appointment in the middle of a panic episode about my ssri and looking back i definitely think it is effecting me negatively so i was right to do so but then when it came to the phone call i immediately just said i was fine