hi! so I have ocd (I thinks never been diagnosed). I keep thinking about something I might have/ might not have done in the past and Im worried I will go to jail in the future for it. I cannot do anything now because im obsessed with the thought of “why should he be happy if im just going to go to jail”I basically cannot watch any YouTube anymore, hang out with friends, do well in classes because im like “what’s the point if im just going to end up in jail and lose all of my riends anyway” Backstory: I was involved in findom which is where men feel submissive and decide to give money to others in return to be hurt, humiliated, blackmailed..etc. I also sold lots of feet pics. I stopped doing this 3 months ago. I was worried at first about hurting them even tho they’re the ones that hurt themselves. Then I got worried about blackmailing even though it was consensual and they asked for it. I have recently gotten into the scary thing of like “omg what if I blackmailed and it was not consensual” or “what if I threatened someone and they didn’t want it” I’ve been FLIPPING about this and can’t do anything with my life because im sooo flipping afraid. I’m almost positive I blackmailed someone for money and I was like “I’m gonna post ur real name and address if u don’t give me money” and they would give me money

my friend gave me the pass and told me to use the acc so this is like fr me haha but thats really hard

@sunnydays1013 I’m glad you’re posting, your doing great. :)

@Nikki1809 I don’t know because i think I really like no false memory and almost positive I blackmailed someone and posted someone personal details and that is 8 years in jail and I’m barely an adult

@Nikki1809 I have evidence where some asked to be blackmailed but I’m worried I did it to someone who didn’t want to be

@Nikki1809 And posted personal stuff online like name and address

@sunnydays1013 Even if you did you were under the impression you had consent and that matters in a court of law. Plus someone would have to decide to press charges in the first place. Now that I’ve told you that, remember that asking for reassurance over and over that you did nothing wrong and aren’t going to jail is part of the ocd cycle. It helps for a little, but in the long run makes things worse.

@Nikki1809 But idk I don’t know if sometimes they didn’t ask for it and I still did it

@sunnydays1013 The best thing you can do for ocd is to say, “maybe it was consensual, maybe it wasn’t,” and sit with the uncertainty and learn that you can handle that discomfort. The more you try to avoid the thoughts or obsessively analyze what did or did not happen, the more you feed the ocd. The best way to beat ocd is to look at it and say: maybe, maybe not.

@Nikki1809 but I really i don’t think it’s a maybe I think I did I’m almost positive I at least did it once

I have a similar situation about something I did. And I didn't even mean harm or to so Something bad. But i feel realy bad. I get it. It's tough. I hope you and me aswell can get through this.