I posted in a legal advice subreddit about what I did and these people are like yea you’re probably going to jail even tho I did it like a little less than a year ago I’m so scared I’m so scared I wish I never posted there I’m so flipping Nd scared I think I blackmailed someone through findom and I’m so worried about jail my life is ruined

How do I do that When I really did something wrong like how can I just move on from that like ik findom like I had multiple people want to be blackmailed and exposed but what if someone didn’t and I did it anyway

Like ik I exposed people who didn’t want it I feel like but if they asked me to take it down I would always take it down

@tella4 I can’t talk to the people who did it because I deleted my acc and I don’t know them at all

@tella4 They were IN THE FINDOM COMMUNITY and I got a lot of people who came to be and asked to be exposed/ blackmailed and I’m really worried I did it to someone who didnt want it I feel like I did I cannot talk to a lawyer

@tella4 How do I own up to it if I can’t turn myself in or apologize to the people

@tella4 But I FEEL like I blackmailed someone without consent!!! and kept going even tho yes a lot of people came to me asking for it I’m worried I did it to someone that didn’t ask for it and Ik I posted embarrassing pics of people on there because that’s what I thought I was supposed to do but what if one of them didn’t want that

@tella4 I don’t have insurance for a therapist

@tella4 But I think I know it’s so hard I don’t think these are false memories I’m almost positive I exposed people who didn’t want to be exposed because I just thought it was apart of findom and maybe blackmailed someone who didn’t want it

@tella4 thank you!!! I’ll look into that!

@tella4 okay do u think something would’ve happened already my thing is idk if this is even OCD because I feel like a normal person would flip about this too

@tella4 I’m really don’t know if this is even OCD

@tella4 unrelated but that journalling script looked really helpful. Do you have suggestions for journalling scripts for contamination ocd? I struggle with constant fears I have contracted covid 19 and will die on a ventilator. I want to use journalling to process my thoughts and your prompts looked helpful but I'd like some more ideas around contamination and death.

@tella4 That's amazing thank you! You're so good at those!

@tella4 It's so very hard when the obsessions are strong. Sometimes my obsessions are just absolutely impossible to avoid. But when I have the easier ones, I want to slam down some ERP and crush it. I'm also hoping that even if I do my compulsions, I can add journalling after to help as a stepping stone. Even if i wasnt successful in avoiding compulsions, journalling will be a way to get something or some work out of the event.

but I would prob go to jail if the cops knew and I feel really badly

Dude I’m really freaking out I’m shaking

@tella4 Idk to get it over with I can’t go tell the people I’m sorry and how was it a long time ago only less than a year agai

@tella4 But this is the thing is this even OCD like this is a crime anyone would be worried about