I can’t stop fidgeting during my classes. any suggestions?

Hey I was just wondering if you had some advice to give? My ocd circled around a close friend and me not being good and me doing “compulsions” because of it.

@Coul.C I’m sorry if you read my other posts I didn’t mean to potentially trigger you which is why I’m asking now.

Struck me as very smiliar and I would love to know how you went about it

@Coul.C Can you explain a bit more about the thing about a close friend and you not being "good"?

@Alionessroar Basically i would feel like we would be bad if I didn’t do certain “compulsions” and felt this guilt or sickness not doing them it just felt wrong. I can’t get out of it because i feel like it could just be me not doing the compulsions correctly or enough or that because I was in denial about things working out (thinking they’d be ok without me doing the compulsions) they would turn out bad because i was being lazy and deserved it. My brain could have just been warning me and trying to protect me since it has been hard for us... but I’m not sure. Either way it felt like whenever I wouldn’t do the compulsions things would get worse and when I did things were fine. It’s breaking my heart and it’s consuming my mind. Any advice would be appreciated.

@Coul.C I see, Im know how you are feeling. Its basicly that when you do compulsions you are at ease which and works as a placebo (so that you think that everything is better because you rely on the feeling you avoomplished with your compulsion). Unfortunately this is just a face positive result.. And really the only thing that will make you feel better in the long run is to accept that you don't have that kind of magical power to influence something so complies as a relationship with abother person. I understand that you want everything to be good between you two. Ocd targets the things and person's that means the most to us so that we will have a hard time to refuse to do the compulsions. Stop to respond to your ocd, live in the unsertsinty, don't try to take the anxiety away, let it be, accept that maybe things will be bad, maybe they will be good. ❤️

@Alionessroar Ive tried but with my ocd is keeps telling me im in denial. That no matter what i still think deep down I still think things are going to work even without doing the compulsions. And I don’t want to be in denial

@Coul.C Then you have to accept the thought that you will be in denial for ever ?. You need to just accept your worst fear.

@Alionessroar Thank you... it’s gonna be hard haha

@Coul.C There is no quick fix unfortunately ?

@Alionessroar I feel you on that. Would you feel comfortable talking more about how you’ve dealt with OCD and magical thinking? It wold definitely help me out knowing soemeone suffered from it in the ways i have.

@Coul.C Sure we'll, hmm before I had like "If I don't do this and this, I will cause someone in my family to die, or if I don't do this something bad will happen." or as I mentioned with my bf I was questioning whether I was in love with him or what would I do if my ex bf would knock on the door, would I do back to him? And omg I needed so bad to know what I would do because 1. If I would go back, I didn't think that it was right for me to be with my bf because he deserves someone who loves only him. 2. I just could not bare with the thought of not knowing how I would react. So ocd made my obsess over it, think in 100 different ways och trying to understand my feelings. It was nerve wrecking, I could not eat, I was so low on energy and still every power I had went into thinking and trying to "solve" this problem. I did compulsions like deleting all the guys from my Facebook who I ever had a crush on, I could not start any conversation with any other guy because that made me question if I was attracted to him. So I compulsively made myself more unattractive. I really struggled with understanding why I felt different things (like you feeling denial). Now I just accept that I like attention, I think it's nice when other flirt with me, and it's okey! Maybe I do have feelings left for my ex, but hey that also okay! We are all humans, some people and things will make a greater impact in our life and will be a part of it somehow. I'm just trying to accept every fear, letting go of the control. This is a mixture of rocd and magical thinking ocd :p

@Alionessroar Haha yeah i have exactly the same! I also went through fearing my family would die if I didn’t do certain things! Do you have an insta or anything to talk on? The fact our ocd is similar really inspires me. Only if you’re comfortable of course.

@Coul.C You can add me on insta @alionessroar ?

Write out your fears if you do not move your hands in OCD's prescribed way. Then refuse to do it a few times. Then, for the rest of the day, check off all of the fears you listed that actually came true. This will let you know whether there is a cause-and-effect relationship between following OCD's commands and something bad happening. Let us know what happens tomorrow, OK?

@Fear Strikes Out thank you so much! this actually helped me so much