JH
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AnonymousAnonymous
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Yes. Just when I think I have closure on one issue I jump to another thing. I keep wanting to confront people from years ago for closure but I know it’s reassurance seeking and not the best. I can’t stop thinking about the past.
JHJH
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Same!
JHJH
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@JH Honestly can’t even remember what it’s like to not worry about things it’s actually so sad
AnonymousAnonymous
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@JH I constantly fear my past coming to haunt me and I have developed agoraphobia and worsening ocd because of this. Or if someone hurt me in the past I feel the need to lash out at them years later to reestablish my pride and dignity but that would be a compulsion if I do so. I just want to live life worry free it’s so hard.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@JH I made a post 3 hours ago if u can find it on here. It’s exactly about these kind of things and real event ocd.
AnonymoudAnonymoud
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I can definitely relate. When it seems like I have a handle on one thing, it finds something new. Can make it tricky to target through exposures but I’ve used headspace as they have a course called regrets which is pretty relevant to real event ocd. If you find anything else that is useful, please let me know!
JHJH
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Yes it never stops. I will certainly let you know if I find something! I’ll try headspace too thanks
AnonymoudAnonymoud
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Just to add on, things I try to remember is to NOT give into compulsions of rumination and mental review. I’ve read a little bit on self-compassion (I.e. thinking of what you have learned and how you have /grown changed since then). And above all, I just try to remember I have a life to live. It’s tough I know, I don’t remember these thoughts being so intense but I believe this pandemic + more internet time and scrolling, has brought them to its peak.
b2192b2192
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Yep I have this, its hell I always feel like I need to confess every bad thing I've done in order to start fresh. I'm talking to my therapist again today and again I feel like I have to confess stuff to check it not illegal or reportable
JHJH
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It’s just a constant loop isn’t it
b2192b2192
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Absoloutly! I think we actually make it a constant loop as the confession is giving into the ocd so it just continues this constant cycle but if I dont confess I just feel anxious for days.
b2192b2192
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So like I did stuff in past that I'm not proud of so she said to challenge the thoughts by asking Do i do these things now ? Do i enjoy thinking about what I did ? And the answer is no so i know i didnt take pleasure out of the situation and it's more about regretting what happened and that ocd is trying to make me feel like the event is important when it isnt
AnonymoudAnonymoud
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That’s super useful thanks for sharing, super helpful. Another fear I have is the fear of being “exposed” “cancelled” or these narratives somehow from the past coming back & ruining my life. 🙄
AnonymoudAnonymoud
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What has everyone tried that they feel is helpful?
AnonymoudAnonymoud
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Has anyone tried anything*
b2192b2192
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My therapist told me to just challenge the negative thoughts , for example, Do I enjoy these thoughts ? a paedophile wouldnt get anxious about these thoughts or seek help and I do get anxious therefor it's unlikely I am one Also a peadophile would seek to look at children or want to be alone with them, where as I dont seek. So its challenging them to help get a clear perspective rather than OCD perspective.
AnonymousAnonymous
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Im glad to hear I’m not the only one with these fears. I post about this all the time but didn’t realize how common it is.
AnonymoudAnonymoud
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Me neither, I always attributed this to being an over thinker or worrier but didn’t realize my need for reassurance was signaling OCD until this year. Of course my compulsions lead me to find out more about real event ocd. Diagnosis has provided a sense of clarity though.
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