Just a normal day, the sun is shining,the birds are chirping and my step mother just said she plans on leaving my dad and I because i wasn't interested in having a sibling. And now she thinks I hate her. I wish I had never been born. I can't help the feeling that I was a mistake. I feel useless. I'm nothing but a bad luck charm. I have no purpose and I never will I'll probably be homeless in the future. I have no reason to live and no reason to die. I'm just here I just exist. But I'm starting to doubt that I exist. I feel like every thing that is happening to me is all in my head. Like I'm imagining all my problems. I really hate myself. I hate the stupid way my mind works. Can't the ground swallow me Right now? Kinda need someone to talk to

Thanks guys 🙂 really helped. U don't know how I much appreciate everything. This is the best community ever!💕

You are not a mistake. You are meant to be born. And your future is not doomed. It is in your hand. Don't let the negative feelings get to you. It is wrong for your step mother to blame her problems on you. You are not alone. We care for you here.

Hey, I'm sorry you're struggling. Your step mother is acting pretty irresponsibly and is projecting her own problems onto you. This is abusive behaviour. You are not responsible for the feelings and decisions of others. Are you able to get some help? Therapy?

What you feel is completely valid and we've all been there for different reasons. I hope you find the clarity you need to see this situation for what it is. We see the world not as it is but as we ARE. What your feeling is just that a feeling and feelings do NOT equate to a person's beliefs and VALUE as a person. Read that again. You're not alone my friend. Sending love your way.

But instead of feeling nothing but negativity I feel oddly numb and unaffected by what happened. This is not normal. Is it?

Remember: you are not responsible for your step mothers actions!! Parents are responsible in a family. Sendung you hugs. There is always hope. Sometimes life is really dark, but the dont give up!

I care about you ☺! You're in a difficult situation, not having access to help. Even so, I think you're doing a great job! Feel your feelings, but try not to let your feelings run the show. You can do this ☺!

Ugh, your step mother’s comments are upsetting me too! But seriously, as you let those negative thoughts pass, I send you warm fuzzies and puppy snuggles if you like them. Peaceful, happy vibes your way. 💜

I understand you’re venting but be kind to yourself. Your inner dialogue is blaming yourself for everything. I hate myself I wish I wasn’t born I was a mistake I’m nothing I feel useless I have no purpose I just exist

To fix it you have to practice self-love and compassion for yourself. Self-doubt and blame is an endless cycle of finger pointing back at you, which is not fair to you as a person. You start with baby steps. Change you inner dialogue by saying good things to yourself and about yourself. Don’t get clouded in the negative talk. Start treating yourself better and doing things for you.