Another nausea, panic attack and meltdown. Just spent three hours “stuck” in the bathroom.

Sending all my love give yourself grace at this time

@crazy.cat.lady yes it’s always hard to be compassionate and loving to others than yourself. I sometimes think I give myself love and grace but when I really think about it I really treat myself and am disappointed in myself more than I am any other person in my life. Theres a website called getselfhelp.co.uk and there’s some good things for OCD but also self compassion and compassionate thinking. I’d really recommend it xxx

Always happens to me during this time of year. I’m always missing family dinners or skipping the food because I can’t stop throwing up from stress and anxiety.

Thank you ❤️ I feel better now. It’s kind of silly when I imagine myself crying and still doing compulsions. It’s like I’m Cinderella slaving away to stepmother ocd and the nasty anxiety sisters. @ocddreams. My ex said the same thing that it’s seasonal. I tend to be the worst in winter and nighttime. I’m sorry and I know it’s really frustrating. It’s like double guilt right? Guilt from your ocd and anxiety and guilt of not being able to enjoy time with your family. I know it hurts. I had to skip out on a lot of the events too. I hope you can somehow manage it so you can at least be with your family. @em2695 thank you for your kind words. I don’t know if it’s just me but after struggling with my meltdowns and get kind words I feel a stab in my heart, almost hurts to read kind empathetic words. but I know it’s positive. I don’t know why I feel that way. Do you ever feel that way?

@Em2695 I didn’t realize that was the reason. Thank you. It’s really hard to be nice to yourself when your brain pretty much tells you you’re a terrible person and then you see it’s true how people you care the most are affected negatively by your illnesses.

@Em2695 thank you for the link. I will look at it.