I don't know if this is ocd related but I'm scared I'm not feeling emtions or thinking like a normal person. I've only lived life through my eyes and point of view, what if I'm not doing it right? What of I can't think or feeling anything right and I'll lose it and go crazy. I'm scared I'll never think right again...I really need help with this😣

breathe.relax

Date posted: 5y

you are concious of how you feel. that is the first indicator that you are normal and just experiencing an episode. your perspective is unique and tailored for you, you are doing everything correctly. even right in this moment you are where you need to be. these thoughts will pass and come to strengthen you.

Anonymously

Date posted: 5y

i feel like that makes sense when the mind runs out of things to analyze and pick a part and bully you about it starts analyzing the mind itself so that way everything that made sense to you no longer does and everything is confusing and scary ive definitely been in some weird thought spirals where i dont feel like anything makes sense hang in there i hope you can find some relief and know that this community is here for you 🙏

Makki23

Date posted: 5y

Thank you!!

frenchbadger

Date posted: 5y

Hi Makki! Anything could be an OCD obsession; I unfortunately cannot provide reassurance to you :( (and actually there's no way I could verbally prove to you that you and I are thinking "normally" ^^) Yet, OCD can be isolating and make us doubt our experiences and actions - that's something you probably experience with other themes (?) Is there anything you found particularly triggering with this fear?

Makki23

Date posted: 5y

I definitely agree, I get triggered that I'll never feel normal or will lose it and go crazy

frenchbadger

Date posted: 5y

@Makki23 I've been struggling pretty often with the same kind of thoughts and there's unfortunately no other option than sitting with uncertainty >< You cannot know for sure how different someone else's experience can be and even if someone would make you take a test that could prove you that you are not a psychopath for example, your mind would probably start make you doubt the result or your answers, always and forever looking for more certainty ^-^ I hope it'll get less intense, don't be too harsh with yourself :) Take care ♡

Makki23

Date posted: 5y

@frenchbadger Thank you♥️

Ocd=lame

Date posted: 5y

I think even these thoughts are thinking like a “normal person.” Not to get weirdly philosophical, but this reminds me of descarte’s “I think therefore I am.” The fact that you’re thinking about if you’re thinking normally shows that you’re aware of normal and abnormal thinking, so you’d notice if you were thinking weirdly, especially because you’re hyperaware of your thinking. Haha does that make any sense? It was kind of rambly. I also think if you were truly thinking abnormally, your friends/family/anyone would have said something or noticed

Makki23

Date posted: 5y

I think I get what you mean, it's normal ocd thinking?

Ocd=lame

Date posted: 5y

@Makki23 I even know people without ocd that fall into that weird existentialist hole, so I’d go as far as to say normal normal

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