Is there a therapist on here who can tell me what ERP’s to do on here? I have HOCD. But I also have weird thoughts that pop up for women now and that has gone on now for a little less than 2 yrs now. I caused it by overdoing my ERP for HOCD. My concern is that by doing ERP for women to quiet the weird thoughts that pop up will only make the HOCD thoughts louder and vice versa. Obviously quieting the HOCD thoughts means increasing the thoughts of women but since I get weird thoughts that pop up for women it’s not a great feeling either. For the record I already know some of you guys on here are therapist who act like a person who has OCD to make us feel better about ourselves and that we’re not alone. I don’t have money for therapy so please if someone can help me with this on what to do cuz I’m having sleepless nights and obsessing over this stuff too much.

What were your OCD themes?

@swolejaboy Order and symmetry, pure, and perfectionism ocd

@swolejaboy I used to have hocd, but it wasn’t focused on in treatment and it’s faded for me now

@Ocd=lame Ok makes sense.

@Ocd=lame Well I’ve done both cognitive and ERP. The first time I did cognitive and got better after 3 weeks but I couldn’t sustain it cuz I did it on my own with HOCD without getting any proper diagnosis so I was doomed to fail. I did ERP for pictures and got better after just 3 days of doing pictures for dudes but then I fucked before my therapist could help me. For almost 2 yrs now therapy hasn’t been the best. I’ve had more ups and downs since I can remember. My life was honestly better before I knew what type of mental disorder I had and just thinking I had anxiety. I can’t go back and change how I got here. I can only start with what I know I today. And what I stated on this post that pops up in my head and get better.

@swolejaboy I hope the therapists on here can try some new type of therapy with you or something, that really sucks. And I kind of understand, I’ve gotten no results from therapy, which is supposed to help everyone, so like now what, you know? It’s frustrating isn’t it

@swolejaboy Have you tried medication

@Ocd=lame I’ve tried medication but it just makes me not think of anything and just do but just do things that I know I have to do idk how to explain what the medication felt like for me. It never put me over the top. I honestly think medication shouldn’t be used for OCD cuz ok you feel like your on cloud 9 with the antidepressant then realize you still have thoughts that get you back down to cloud 1?... why not start from the bottom and then make your way up. I mean my therapist definitely tried her best to get me to have anxiety but I’ve been doing my own research before meeting her that anything she threw my way for like a day it would get me but I’d eventually get over it and just start back where I was before she got me to ruminate about myself and life. I have a stubborn mind. Like I get it having a level 10 of anxiety and getting treatment is actually better then having a 5 or lower amount of anxiety and having a level 10 of depression. Your levels of depression have to coincide with the anxiety and if ones different from the other then you’ll always end up with mix results.

@swolejaboy Medication didn’t do it for me either. And I get what you mean about a stubborn mind, that’s such an ocd thing, how our brains always insist that they’re right and we have to do x compulsion or think x thought. I hope if you keep chipping away at these thoughts and everything through whatever therapy these guys suggest it’ll have some permanent results. I see stories on here from people who used to be exactly where we are right now who are recovered or in a much better place; that gives me some hope that we’ll pop out of this eventually

I’m not in therapy anymore, when I was I was under 18 and my parents payed.

@Ocd=lame Well look I’m a be honest. My OCD impacts me from getting a good job and impacts me from keeping a job. I go to work and comeback home feeling the same. I go to therapy in hopes of getting better but I haven’t. Now I have to see another therapist to see whether or not they’re going to diagnose with psychosis or not. I’m not even sure how I can be diagnose with psychosis if a therapist isn’t monitoring me 24/7 to see if I have psychosis. I literally want to start some sort of petition to an OCD treatment facility granting me access without paying anything cuz my OCD is impacting my life to where I can’t get a high enough paying job to actually get the help I need. I’m not like the creator of this app who has a mom who would ask a family friend for money to get better. I have no one in my life but myself that wants to see me get better the way I want to get better. It isn’t fair that I have to suffer all because my OCD. Having 1hr sessions with a therapist isn’t going to cut it with me anymore. I need 24/7 care for how long I’m not sure but I do. I don’t know anymore. I’m just really frustrated with the way you have to get help. How can people with mental disorders actually get help if you have a mental disorder impacting your way of life. The funny thing is more than 15 therapist saw me at an OCD conference and saw me shaking like I was having a seizure. How can someone like that have a job? How can someone like that get somewhere in life without getting the help they fucking need. The only other fucked up person I saw at the meeting was some chick who had someone their with them to help cope with the anxiety cuz I could see she was kind of crying and looked like she was grasping for air at times but she had someone there to help her out. I am tired of all this bullshit. I need to get better now and need to start taking steps to get better so I can feel normal again. I know other people have issues too but I’ve been told by my therapist that I can’t worry about other people and what they’re going through and just focus on myself so yeah this is selfish but in order for me to get better I have to be selfish at this point.

@swolejaboy I completely agree with you. It’s such a stupid idea that only people with money can have access to good treatment for stuff like this! You deserve it as much as anyone! I’m so glad this app is free, cause now that I’m an adult I’ve got to pay for my own treatment and how can I do that with my salary and college right? Are the therapists on this app any help for you? I know it’s way different than in person therapy, but it’s better than nothing. It’s good you’re taking steps and are committed to getting better, by the way. Also is all this any harder during the pandemic?

@Ocd=lame I honestly don’t know. I don’t care to be honest. The pandemic is what it is. I’d still be impacted by my OCD regardless and still empty inside. I just want help and feel better about myself. I’m tired of sleepless nights im tired of feeling unwanted arousals. I’m just tired and want help. I literally want to quit my low paying job just cuz. Either I have a good job for 8 hrs or have a part time job I can do when I want too. I’m just depressed. I’m tired of living life. I just want to eat, workout, sleep and relax. Anything else is stupid at this point in my life. I’ll either get better or I won’t. I just want to try to get better first before I just give up about it and go about my day not giving a fuck about life anymore and just workout when I want to and not have to do anything else with my life.

@swolejaboy I wish I could offer tangible help but my situation is too close to yours, I feel the same way. It’s hard being stuck. If I find any tricks or anything that helps my symptoms I’ll comment them here so you can see if it would help you too. I think we can get better, again especially seeing people who have been at these points recover. But I know right now it just seems impossible, and being stuck in a cycle of relapsing certainly doesn’t help the morale

@Ocd=lame I never said I was stuck or relapsing?..

@swolejaboy Oh I meant “relapse” like when you think you’ve made progress in therapy but symptoms come back