getwellsoon
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- 4y
GabyGaby
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- 4y
Aw guys thanks for your responses I was tempted to delete this. It’s just really hard for me to be kind to myself and be patient because before this hit me I thought I was doing well mentally. And now it’s like I’m a completely different person.
FreemeofocdFreemeofocd
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- 4y
I’m struggling with pocd for the first time in years. I read a really triggering child abuse story at work and it completely triggered my ocd and latched on to the person I love the most, my daughter. I’m struggling really hard with my obsession, which is harming her. Every move I make I am analyzing what the motive is behind it, checking my feelings and thoughts every time I’m affectionate with her. It’s very draining and upsetting. I’m slowly getting better, and I am starting my meds this week. But this has been the worst episode yet. 😔 I really hate having these thoughts and feelings surrounding the love of my life. I share her 50/50 with her father and I hate that my time with her is spent filled with so much anxiety and stress and worry and I feel like she can pick up on that. I already have so much anxiety about her growing up so fast and I feel like I’m wasting what’s left of her fleeting precious baby years being in my head obsessing over these horrible intrusive thoughts and feelings. It is horrible.
getwellsoon getwellsoon
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- 4y
i’m sorry to hear this ): i also suffered with this theme. sometimes it still pops up and makes me terribly anxious. my advice would be to not look into it much. enjoy the moments with her. don’t label whatever you’re feeling it’s so easy to stress about that. you know your daughter is the person you love the most. don’t let ocd or the thoughts change that! push through!! you’re a great mother and you deserve this time with your daughter (: wishing you all the well 🤍🌈🌤🌸
YesYouYesYou
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- 4y
This sounds terrifying and exhausting. Just remember that brushing off the thoughts or ignoring them doesn't mean you care any less.
AlyoshaAlyosha
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- 4y
Haha! I love this post. I’m worried my five year old niece with muscular dystrophy will catch COVID because her dad was exposed. I don’t like my job. I went on a date today, but the guy seems to like the *idea* of me more than the actual me. I’m mad at myself for struggling with some behavioral addictions. I blew my monthly budget. My family is awesome but crazy. Ha! Thanks. Thanks for letting me vent!
getwellsoon getwellsoon
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- 4y
glad you could just get say what was on your mind. wishing you all the well with it all 🤍
GabyGaby
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- 4y
I’m struggling with feelings of hopelessness; my sexuality was never something I needed certainty of but now it is so important for me that I don’t lose my identity out of nowhere and now I feel like I’ll never be able to fall in love with these doubts in my head one day I know this is stupid, for me at least because relationships were never a priority for me it was always the very last thing on my mind since I was always afraid to date men but deep down I was always a hopeless romantic in denial ik that’s embarrassing so yeah Idk where I’m going with this but that’s where I’m at ugh
GabyGaby
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- 4y
This feels so dumb to talk about Idk why I commented lol
AlyoshaAlyosha
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- 4y
@gaby. Aw, Gaby! Probably you would never tell someone “That sounds so dumb” if they’d written what you just wrote. I hope you can find it in yourself to be as kind to yourself as you would somebody else.
YesYouYesYou
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- 4y
@gaby. Your feelings,thoughts and emotions are not dumb.
getwellsoon getwellsoon
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- 4y
@gaby. this is in no way dumb. i’m also struggling feelings of hopelessness and fear of things i was certain of ): just take each day ... day by day. if you fall in love you fall in love... it’s okay to be a hopeless romantic and have these worries. please don’t judge yourself. i promise you that you don’t sound dumb. and if you ever need a friend you can always talk to me (:
GabyGaby
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- 4y
@getwellsoon Feelings of hopelessness are so rough. I’m so sorry you’re going through the same. My concerns are more so that one day I’ll never be able to experience that because of these doubts in my head and I don’t want to live like this forever. I know I need to accept the uncertainty that I might have to but I just cant.
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