Hello, im mark from philippines. Sorry for my bad english. I just have a question, is anyone here has suffered from hocd?? I am sure that im straight. I want to marry a woman. Im not attracted to same sex. I dont want to be a gay. (No offense) Sorry for the rudeness. Im just so tired. In the morning everything is ok. When it starts to feel lonely because of the Quarantine/ lockdown. My brain keeps putting a thoughts. Are you sure? And it bothers me. I cried every time. Cause i dont know what to do. It destroys my mood. And i always just want to laydown allday long. Cause i know for a fact/ myself i am a Man. I want to have my own family when i finish my college degree. I idolized my father. Why is this happening to me? T-T Im straight. Even when im a kid. Im sure for myself that i am a man. Real man. Im a kid who got bullied when i was a kid always feel alone. When i turned 18 i met a girl and i am So in LOVE with her. And i want to fight for who i am. She is the one that gives me strength to fight through this. She believes in me. I want to be a father and a husband. Please help me. I am just a kid. I dont know what to do. I want to be back. Please help me. I feel like if i tell this to anyone they will think that im a gay but im not. I want to be strong. But im still just a kid. I need a help. Please. Somebody. We dont know what to do. I am a open minded guy. I have a cousin that is gay. And its ok. Why? Why me? Please. Help. I need some advice and help.

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@Jamark you’re so early!! that’s good. the thoughts might not stop because you’re paying tons of attention to it:( try not take them seriously. it takes practice, but it’ll be worth it. also, try to get professional help!

@val ʚĭɞ Thanks for the advice po i really appreciate it. I will try to do what you said. This will clear my mind to know im not the only one that suffer from this. Ms? Can i contact you for more info? Im just so scared hahaha and i dont know what to really do.

@Jamark do you have any social media? we could talk through there! also, there’s tons of us that are going through w this:)

@val ʚĭɞ I have a facebook

@Jamark i don’t have it:((

@val ʚĭɞ Uhmm...what app do you guys use??i can create one for myself.

@Jamark we usually use snapchat!! but maybe check out if you have reddit!

@val ʚĭɞ Snapchat ok

@val ʚĭɞ Uhm...i just got an snapchat acc, what do i do next?

I dont know how to i dont have that kind of money am i in trouble? Am i gonna lost my self. The real me? If i dont got to consult my self to prof.?

@Jamark Many therapists will provide a sliding scale for people who can’t afford it. In the mean time, get yourself an OCD workbook and some other readings: https://ocdla.com/ocdreadings You are not going to lose yourself. But you are going to need to put in some work to understand the disorder you have and how to manage it. Everything you’ve described is very common for this disorder, and luckily we have very effective treatments (namely CBT, ERP, and mindfulness.) the first step is to educate yourself on each of these. The next is to start practicing them. The final is to get really good at them so you can choose the best tools for you when OCD hits.

@pureolife Thanks

Any of them. The theme of your OCD actually doesn’t matter. All OCD themes are the same OCD and are treated the same way.

Hahaha hi...wait? Do i know you?

@Jamark I don't think so.

@Dark I know you hahahaha XD

Hahahaha dinga?

Wait...uhmm you have messenger?

@Jamark Hey men @JMbernantes in messenger so we can share a lot of stuff.

@Jamark I have. Just give me your name I'll add you.

@Dark In fb what's your name?

@Dark Thats it just search it @JMbernantes

@Dark Give me ur fb name i will messages you.

@Jamark Messages? Ow that's a lot of message

@Dark Is it wrong? Arent we going to talk about ocd?

@Jamark Ok

This is my first...and i hate it so much.