I feel like I'm failing at life. The friends I do have left are already living their lives, going to college, getting good jobs. All I do is sit at home overthink constantly horrible things. I have a hard time suriving working at a small retail job. And I don't really have any passion for a career. I wish more than anything I thought normally so I could have a decent t least life....why did I have to be like this? I'm sorry for the random rant

I can relate to how you feel. This disorder, combined, with depression, left me feeling way "behind" in life. Try not to pin your self-worth on those things. You still have the choice to work toward being a person who does good things. I know that feels difficult for you right now, but I suspect you're more successful at it than you realize ☺.

I'm the same, I'm 6 years behind my peers in terms of education, as I dropped out of traditional schooling at 15 due to anxiety symptoms, and I can't hold down a low-demand job. I have a higher IQ than friends who are geneticists and a wider knowledge base than friends who are policy advisers. I am so *bored* with my life, I don't even have the vocabulary to describe it, yet I'm terrified of success and doubt my own ability to cope with the sudden cliff which inevitably comes at the end of this degree.

So one thing I’ve realized is that there is no set timeline on how life should go. There are people who get married young and then divorce. There are people who marry later and they never get divorced. People switch careers in their 30s and 40s. I think social media makes this worse. It feels like you are falling behind from your peers but if you look at the bigger picture there’s so many different life stories going on and they aren’t the same. Be kind to yourself. I went to a prestigious university and 5 years after graduation I’m barely keeping my job and not making as much money as I should be making. I see people from my alma mater who are really successful and then I see others who aren’t even using their degree and working at McDonald’s.

❤️ I know what it feels like to feel behind. Do you have any goals you’d like to work toward? Going from small to big? Stuff like: redecorate my room. Run a 5k. Learn to bake amazing chocolate chip cookies. Volunteer. Get a part time job. Go on a date.

Sorry you're feeling that way! It's very hard to meet external standards for yourself, usually you're imagining them anyway. What's most important is what YOU want, YOUR dreams, and YOUR standard for yourself. As long as you're listening to those things, you'll be okay ♥️