Makki23
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Ben84Ben84
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I can relate to how you feel. This disorder, combined, with depression, left me feeling way "behind" in life. Try not to pin your self-worth on those things. You still have the choice to work toward being a person who does good things. I know that feels difficult for you right now, but I suspect you're more successful at it than you realize ☺.
Makki23Makki23
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Sometimes it feels like I'll never get there, I feel stuck
Ben84Ben84
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@Makki23 I hear ya. Hopefully, therapy will work out for you. Regardless, we'll be here for you ☺!
Makki23Makki23
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@Ben84 Thank you Ben :)
FathomableFathomable
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I'm the same, I'm 6 years behind my peers in terms of education, as I dropped out of traditional schooling at 15 due to anxiety symptoms, and I can't hold down a low-demand job. I have a higher IQ than friends who are geneticists and a wider knowledge base than friends who are policy advisers. I am so *bored* with my life, I don't even have the vocabulary to describe it, yet I'm terrified of success and doubt my own ability to cope with the sudden cliff which inevitably comes at the end of this degree.
Ben84Ben84
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I felt this.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y ago
So one thing I’ve realized is that there is no set timeline on how life should go. There are people who get married young and then divorce. There are people who marry later and they never get divorced. People switch careers in their 30s and 40s. I think social media makes this worse. It feels like you are falling behind from your peers but if you look at the bigger picture there’s so many different life stories going on and they aren’t the same. Be kind to yourself. I went to a prestigious university and 5 years after graduation I’m barely keeping my job and not making as much money as I should be making. I see people from my alma mater who are really successful and then I see others who aren’t even using their degree and working at McDonald’s.
Makki23Makki23
- Date posted
- 4y ago
You definitely have a point :) thank you
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@Makki23 Another thing is a lot of my friends partied too hard or had unresolved mental health issues and ended up failing or dropping out and starting again at another school when they were ready years later. I had too much pressure from my parents who didn’t take my ocd seriously and it made me party as well. The only reason I got through is because I bought adderall off of people and abused it to study and concentrate. I would’ve felt better going to college in a better mindset, even if that meant another school at an older age. I know people now who had the same kind of pressure as me and they are still struggling with alcohol and drug issues while trying to be high functioning. These are the same people that appear to have it all together on social media. The grass isn’t always greener on the other side.
AlyoshaAlyosha
- Date posted
- 4y ago
❤️ I know what it feels like to feel behind. Do you have any goals you’d like to work toward? Going from small to big? Stuff like: redecorate my room. Run a 5k. Learn to bake amazing chocolate chip cookies. Volunteer. Get a part time job. Go on a date.
Makki23Makki23
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Thank you, I'll try to start small :)
nicolas.ocdnicolas.ocd
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Sorry you're feeling that way! It's very hard to meet external standards for yourself, usually you're imagining them anyway. What's most important is what YOU want, YOUR dreams, and YOUR standard for yourself. As long as you're listening to those things, you'll be okay ♥️
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