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Are you able to phone the hotline?
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No
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Keep focusing on working on you ocd and recovering. The depression and suicidal thoughts are from the unmanaged ocd. They will subside as you get better. If you can’t manage the depression, reach out to the psychiatrist that prescribed the cipralex ssri medication.
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I have been trying to contact a therapy but i am not in united states and u dont give me a call
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How long have you been doing this? When did it start.
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like it increased my compulsion and these rituals
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2 years
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Please someone response i am on the urge of killing my self
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I’m not a doctor, but you might be describing sensorimotor ocd. It’s not the “faces “ but the swallowing. Compulsions in response to sensorimotor obsessions are usually limited to repeated attempts to use distraction to interrupt the fixation on sensory phenomena. ***Trigger Warning *** https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/when-automatic-bodily-processes-become-conscious-how-to-disengage-from-sensorimotor-obsessions/
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Swallowing while thinking of a face makes me think that my face is changing
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“Obsessing” over beautiful face versus ugly face. “Compulsion” when it matches beautiful then “ok” to swallow.
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Yes thats what exactly the thing that is bothering me
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Thanks for the link it made me informed about a new condition of ocd thankyou
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Ok. Realize it’s the way you are reacting to the content of your thoughts. You have conditioned yourself to react to these intrusive thoughts.
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Oh my god how do u know this
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I have to react or else i can not eat talk nor sleep i tried ignoring but it just gave me a headace
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I wantes to talk to a therapist but there are none in my country
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You have to relearn to accept the thoughts coming in and acknowledge them. Something like “My ocd keeps telling me that I have to see perfect faces before I swallow. I’m ok it’s just my ocd doing this. It’s not me and I’ll let the thoughts pass right now”
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I tried doing that but some ugly faces just keep popping inside my head for no reason
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Remember don’t beat yourself up over the ocd. It’s the way the brain is processing the content of the thoughts.
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Can u tell me how to do erp on my own
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I am going now to perform one i am going to wash my face and try to ignore my thoughts
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Its the only way i believe
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When the ugly faces pop up, say to yourself “their they are again, those ugly faces, I like how my ocd is trying to distract me from swallowing normally”. You must recondition yourself.
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Can u also tell me will this ever stop the random pop faces in my head
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We focus on the “content” of intrusive thoughts, when we should really be focusing on the way we process the thoughts. Those thoughts scare us and activate the flight, fight or freeze response in our bodies. We react by doing some type of compulsive behavior to get relief. So, it’s not the “content” of your thoughts that mean anything at all but how you process and react to them. If you process them as true thoughts and spend energy on the reactions, you will perpetuate the vicious cycle of OCD.
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Thankyou so much mike u made my whole way of thinking all over i will try to ignore these thoughts
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Even if u dont believe in god may he bless u with the greatest gift he can ever give to anyone
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As you work on managing the intrusive thoughts: “random faces appearing” then you will “slowly” reduce them from causing the anxiety.
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Start studying about “sensorimotir ocd”. Learn as much as you can about it. Ask a therapist if they understand it and can help you with a treatment plan. You’re doing good and the more you understand it the better you will feel.
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Keep going forward 👍❤️
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Hi Taha. Please look after yourself and don’t ever consider suicide as an option. Ocd is so painful I know, but overwhelming feelings pass, and you can get better from this!! Please keep reaching out for help. Is there a suicide hotline you can call or an online chat in case you have these feelings again? Maybe keep researching online for websites that may assist you. I googled ‘suicide chatline international’ and a few results came up. Please reach out for help because you deserve support :)
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But i cant take it anymore my whole teenage years are destroyed and my country freaking sucks it does not care about such problem
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@tahahussain0 I’m sorry to hear that Taha. Is there a suicide hotline or chatline that you have access to that you can talk to someone right now?
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@Anonymous No i tried everything i have been searching
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@tahahussain0 What country are you in?
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Pakistan
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I found a website called ‘suicide stop’ that lists the suicide hotlines for many countries. Can you have a look at that? Have you got a friend you can talk to?
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I dont want my friends to know this side of me it will make me so ashamed that i will just lose it and yes please it will be better if u send me the link
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If you scroll through there’s many different counties and I saw a number for Pakistan. I don’t know if it’s work but I’m just trying to help!
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Thank you for help
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You can also research suicide apps. Which I think you will be able to do because you found this app :)
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I just did found something
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No worries. Please make a promise to yourself to keep yourself safe. Keep reaching out for help. You can get help for your emotional pain, things will get better :)
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I will try my best but i am about to lose it any day
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Please reach out for help. Did you find the number to call? Do you have friends or family you can ask for help, you don’t have to disclose your ocd, but can just say you need help?
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They dont care my family know it and they dont do shit about it and i dont have friends i lied there is no one i can trust
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They wont pick it
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Ok keep looking for the apps and looking for websites to help you. Maybe someone else on here can procide suggestions. Please keep yourself safe. Please look after yourself whether that’s listening to music, watching a show, whatever you can do to relax. Take care
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Sorry I have to go now. Keep looking. Sorry I couldn’t be more help. Take care please!!!
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Work with your doctor that prescribed the medicine. Call them and let them know.
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Hey, have you heard of ERP? It’s how ocd is treated and there are ways to do it on your own if therapy isn’t an option. This app is one place that can help. Some articles about self help for ocd and doing ERP: https://iocdf.org/about-ocd/ocd-treatment/erp/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/what-exactly-is-exposure-and-response-prevention-erp/ https://www.get.gg/ocd.htm Some self help books: https://iocdf.org/books/ Here is an article about sensorimotor ocd which sounds like maybe what you have? https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/when-automatic-bodily-processes-become-conscious-how-to-disengage-from-sensorimotor-obsessions/
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I noticed that the other post you made got deleted so I wanted to second other people’s advice: call the doctor who prescribed your medication and tell them how your feeling. If that doesn’t work, reach out to emergency services in your area. I know things are hard now but they can get better. It won’t happen overnight, but if you take steps to make things better things will get better. I almost killed myself a year ago and I’m so glad I reached out to a friend instead, because things did improve dramatically. I hope you are alright.
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Fuxk it i cannot do it i just cant i am sick of threatening my self i felt that knife but was unable to move it my country sucks and no one care about me anymore u people have never seen poverty and illness at same time u cannot understand it and my doctor is a fucked up moron he just seen zoned my messages even tho i paid him a hell lot of moeny i tried the erp therapy on my own but the pain is just going to kill me i counldnt think straight all i had weres pictures ofugly faces i am damn gonna do something before i tried something else whixh is a painless death
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I know I’ve not been in your country or experienced poverty, you are right about that. But I do care what happens to you. You made an attempt to reach out here, so I assume you are looking for help of some sort and I will do my best. Let me know what kind of help you are looking for. I did some googling and found a few suicide prevention apps: Suicide Saftey Plan, Stay Alive, and releif link. I’m going to look and see if I can find any other resources.
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@Nikki1809 https://www.getselfhelp.co.uk/suicidal.htm Here is a list of coping strategies for suicidal thoughts.
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I found a reddit thread about a suicide line in Pakistan. https://www.reddit.com/r/pakistan/comments/9q02ol/pakistans_first_mental_health_helpline_talk2mepk/?utm_source=xpromo&utm_medium=amp&utm_name=amp_comment_iterations&utm_term=control_2&utm_content=post_body Keep in mind when calling suicide lines that sometimes they can be busy and you need to stay on the line and wait a while for an answer.
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I have actually been in Pakistan and lived in a neighboring very poor country. (Dont feel safe talking about that online). But I know the mental healthcare is bad and going to the hospital for an emergency is even worse, at least in some places. Is there anyone at all in your community who has mental health training? My therapist taught me a small visualization that helped me which is to imagine my upsetting thought as a leaf on a stream and let it float down the stream. It sounds simple but helped me a lot.
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@sierra nevada Also like someone else said, therapists in the US are under lots of regulations which is why they can't give therapy to people outside US. Try an app called InnerHour. I'm not sure if they would provide it outside US but it has many mindfulness practices too
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Work with everybody here. We all have ways to help you.
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Just how tell me the therapist didnt even gave me a call just because i am a outsider tell me will it make u poor or go broke to just attened a 15 min call from a person who is not a United state national
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Either this is some way of making money for doctors or such website or i have gone crazy and just wanted to get better
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They can’t practice therapy outside the US. It’s a licensing issue and US laws.
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Taha, take deep breaths. I am here to talk. We will get through this together and there are so many people here that can help you. Please let me know what I can do to help.
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You guys are amazing with your support. I gave nothing to add, but sending prayers for you tahahussain0. Dont give up.🙏
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I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???
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Hi, I'm 17,about to be 18. I've been struggling with these thoughts for the past 8 months. I was wondering if someone experienced ever the same because I feel im "different". BACKGROUND: (I'm not diagnosed with Ocd but seeing a local counselor) About 9 months ago I cheated on my boyfriend with this guy S (who blackmailed, manipulated and molested me). Since then when I realized that what i did was very WRONG and so I started ruminating picking apart every single interaction and telling my boyfriend, i tried to remember every single detail because otherwise I felt like i was being a fraud and hiding things to save myself, i had many crisis about it because I had also what i think was false memory ocd. My boyfriend forgave me idk how tbh I still wonder. CURRENT STRUGGLE: Months ago I was sure I didn't wanna S in any way and i was sure even when everything happened. For the past 2 months tho I've been having thoughts like " Do I love S?" "I love S" "S is hot" "Would S find me hot?" "What if I want S?" " What if I don't love my boyfriend enough?" "What if I secretly want S?" "What if I see my boyfriend as a friend only?Do I?" And I tried testing my reaction to intimate scenarios with S, I'm scared I like it i dont really wanna love S or have any secret attraction, I wish I didn't have any of this and I want to be sure of my feelings for my boyfriend because I know I wanna be with him and I see a future with him like he brings me comfort. But a part of me keeps trying to convince me otherwise. Sometimes I think I'd rather die than have these thoughts. Im so scared of not being able to control my feelings, im scared I can't resist S and its giving me anxiety and making me cry. Sometimes when i think of those sexual scenarios with S or I get those thoughts my mind tells me to smile because i like it because I find it funny. It makes me doubt myself all over again. Like I'm always like I need to test if I'd feel aroused to intimate scenarios with S, lately im trying to fight this urge to test and test but my mind is like "just do it this once so you can be sure. I can never watch anything romantic or sexual or whatever because my mind would be like "you and S" or sometimes I'm just enjoying time with my bf and im like " yes we can just have a sneaky cheating thing thats ok" and it makes me want to figure it out to find an answer a solution because idk it just does like I need to find the meaning of it if it means the truth and all. Im worried im just an awful person and these thoughts just ruin my quality of life . Today i had a crisis where i ended up doinf swlf harm, I'm so scared of finding someone that's not my boyfriend desirable or sexual appealing or whatever it is, I also have bodily reactions when I try to imagine and test my reaction to scenarios. Now i keep groing everytime and I dont know why but i have this sensation and I dont want to havebit especially when its something S related. Does someone experience the same thoughts? Am I alone in this? Is this ROCD? What should i do?
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I shouldn’t have done this (trigger trigger trigger!!) So about a month ago..maybe I watched this video (as a compulsion to prove to myself) The video was called “interview with a p3d0” And basically it was what it says, I watched or more like listened to half of it…after I was disgusted by the person, but now all I can think of is every little thing I do, I feel as if tho I’m monitoring every thought/moment and feeling I have it’s torturous and I hate it..I feel disgusting, the person in the video has empathy and sympathy and had those feelings yk, I can’t explain it you’d have to watch the video yourself but please don’t it will ruin your journey…I feel more hopeless then before, my OCD is telling me so many things trying to convince me things that Ik aren’t true, I’m just really scared I don’t want to be that person I want to be a good cousin and person to my family, I’m sick of my head and myself, I’m so tired that sometimes I can’t even think straight, my head is always in pain and idek how to help myself..compulsions have been becoming more and more exhausting… I need advice or even someone to relate to, I understand I shouldn’t have done what I did but idk how to forget it.. I had made this post already but when someone replied I couldn’t see it for some reason so I’m uploading it again
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