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Are you able to phone the hotline?
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No
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Keep focusing on working on you ocd and recovering. The depression and suicidal thoughts are from the unmanaged ocd. They will subside as you get better. If you can’t manage the depression, reach out to the psychiatrist that prescribed the cipralex ssri medication.
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I have been trying to contact a therapy but i am not in united states and u dont give me a call
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How long have you been doing this? When did it start.
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like it increased my compulsion and these rituals
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2 years
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Please someone response i am on the urge of killing my self
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I’m not a doctor, but you might be describing sensorimotor ocd. It’s not the “faces “ but the swallowing. Compulsions in response to sensorimotor obsessions are usually limited to repeated attempts to use distraction to interrupt the fixation on sensory phenomena. ***Trigger Warning *** https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/when-automatic-bodily-processes-become-conscious-how-to-disengage-from-sensorimotor-obsessions/
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Swallowing while thinking of a face makes me think that my face is changing
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“Obsessing” over beautiful face versus ugly face. “Compulsion” when it matches beautiful then “ok” to swallow.
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Yes thats what exactly the thing that is bothering me
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Thanks for the link it made me informed about a new condition of ocd thankyou
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Ok. Realize it’s the way you are reacting to the content of your thoughts. You have conditioned yourself to react to these intrusive thoughts.
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Oh my god how do u know this
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I have to react or else i can not eat talk nor sleep i tried ignoring but it just gave me a headace
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I wantes to talk to a therapist but there are none in my country
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You have to relearn to accept the thoughts coming in and acknowledge them. Something like “My ocd keeps telling me that I have to see perfect faces before I swallow. I’m ok it’s just my ocd doing this. It’s not me and I’ll let the thoughts pass right now”
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I tried doing that but some ugly faces just keep popping inside my head for no reason
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Remember don’t beat yourself up over the ocd. It’s the way the brain is processing the content of the thoughts.
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Can u tell me how to do erp on my own
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I am going now to perform one i am going to wash my face and try to ignore my thoughts
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Its the only way i believe
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When the ugly faces pop up, say to yourself “their they are again, those ugly faces, I like how my ocd is trying to distract me from swallowing normally”. You must recondition yourself.
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Can u also tell me will this ever stop the random pop faces in my head
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We focus on the “content” of intrusive thoughts, when we should really be focusing on the way we process the thoughts. Those thoughts scare us and activate the flight, fight or freeze response in our bodies. We react by doing some type of compulsive behavior to get relief. So, it’s not the “content” of your thoughts that mean anything at all but how you process and react to them. If you process them as true thoughts and spend energy on the reactions, you will perpetuate the vicious cycle of OCD.
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Thankyou so much mike u made my whole way of thinking all over i will try to ignore these thoughts
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Even if u dont believe in god may he bless u with the greatest gift he can ever give to anyone
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As you work on managing the intrusive thoughts: “random faces appearing” then you will “slowly” reduce them from causing the anxiety.
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Start studying about “sensorimotir ocd”. Learn as much as you can about it. Ask a therapist if they understand it and can help you with a treatment plan. You’re doing good and the more you understand it the better you will feel.
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Keep going forward 👍❤️
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Hi Taha. Please look after yourself and don’t ever consider suicide as an option. Ocd is so painful I know, but overwhelming feelings pass, and you can get better from this!! Please keep reaching out for help. Is there a suicide hotline you can call or an online chat in case you have these feelings again? Maybe keep researching online for websites that may assist you. I googled ‘suicide chatline international’ and a few results came up. Please reach out for help because you deserve support :)
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But i cant take it anymore my whole teenage years are destroyed and my country freaking sucks it does not care about such problem
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@tahahussain0 I’m sorry to hear that Taha. Is there a suicide hotline or chatline that you have access to that you can talk to someone right now?
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@Anonymous No i tried everything i have been searching
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@tahahussain0 What country are you in?
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Pakistan
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I found a website called ‘suicide stop’ that lists the suicide hotlines for many countries. Can you have a look at that? Have you got a friend you can talk to?
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I dont want my friends to know this side of me it will make me so ashamed that i will just lose it and yes please it will be better if u send me the link
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If you scroll through there’s many different counties and I saw a number for Pakistan. I don’t know if it’s work but I’m just trying to help!
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Thank you for help
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You can also research suicide apps. Which I think you will be able to do because you found this app :)
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I just did found something
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No worries. Please make a promise to yourself to keep yourself safe. Keep reaching out for help. You can get help for your emotional pain, things will get better :)
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I will try my best but i am about to lose it any day
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Please reach out for help. Did you find the number to call? Do you have friends or family you can ask for help, you don’t have to disclose your ocd, but can just say you need help?
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They dont care my family know it and they dont do shit about it and i dont have friends i lied there is no one i can trust
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They wont pick it
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Ok keep looking for the apps and looking for websites to help you. Maybe someone else on here can procide suggestions. Please keep yourself safe. Please look after yourself whether that’s listening to music, watching a show, whatever you can do to relax. Take care
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Sorry I have to go now. Keep looking. Sorry I couldn’t be more help. Take care please!!!
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Work with your doctor that prescribed the medicine. Call them and let them know.
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Hey, have you heard of ERP? It’s how ocd is treated and there are ways to do it on your own if therapy isn’t an option. This app is one place that can help. Some articles about self help for ocd and doing ERP: https://iocdf.org/about-ocd/ocd-treatment/erp/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/what-exactly-is-exposure-and-response-prevention-erp/ https://www.get.gg/ocd.htm Some self help books: https://iocdf.org/books/ Here is an article about sensorimotor ocd which sounds like maybe what you have? https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/when-automatic-bodily-processes-become-conscious-how-to-disengage-from-sensorimotor-obsessions/
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I noticed that the other post you made got deleted so I wanted to second other people’s advice: call the doctor who prescribed your medication and tell them how your feeling. If that doesn’t work, reach out to emergency services in your area. I know things are hard now but they can get better. It won’t happen overnight, but if you take steps to make things better things will get better. I almost killed myself a year ago and I’m so glad I reached out to a friend instead, because things did improve dramatically. I hope you are alright.
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Fuxk it i cannot do it i just cant i am sick of threatening my self i felt that knife but was unable to move it my country sucks and no one care about me anymore u people have never seen poverty and illness at same time u cannot understand it and my doctor is a fucked up moron he just seen zoned my messages even tho i paid him a hell lot of moeny i tried the erp therapy on my own but the pain is just going to kill me i counldnt think straight all i had weres pictures ofugly faces i am damn gonna do something before i tried something else whixh is a painless death
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I know I’ve not been in your country or experienced poverty, you are right about that. But I do care what happens to you. You made an attempt to reach out here, so I assume you are looking for help of some sort and I will do my best. Let me know what kind of help you are looking for. I did some googling and found a few suicide prevention apps: Suicide Saftey Plan, Stay Alive, and releif link. I’m going to look and see if I can find any other resources.
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@Nikki1809 https://www.getselfhelp.co.uk/suicidal.htm Here is a list of coping strategies for suicidal thoughts.
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I found a reddit thread about a suicide line in Pakistan. https://www.reddit.com/r/pakistan/comments/9q02ol/pakistans_first_mental_health_helpline_talk2mepk/?utm_source=xpromo&utm_medium=amp&utm_name=amp_comment_iterations&utm_term=control_2&utm_content=post_body Keep in mind when calling suicide lines that sometimes they can be busy and you need to stay on the line and wait a while for an answer.
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I have actually been in Pakistan and lived in a neighboring very poor country. (Dont feel safe talking about that online). But I know the mental healthcare is bad and going to the hospital for an emergency is even worse, at least in some places. Is there anyone at all in your community who has mental health training? My therapist taught me a small visualization that helped me which is to imagine my upsetting thought as a leaf on a stream and let it float down the stream. It sounds simple but helped me a lot.
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@sierra nevada Also like someone else said, therapists in the US are under lots of regulations which is why they can't give therapy to people outside US. Try an app called InnerHour. I'm not sure if they would provide it outside US but it has many mindfulness practices too
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Work with everybody here. We all have ways to help you.
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Just how tell me the therapist didnt even gave me a call just because i am a outsider tell me will it make u poor or go broke to just attened a 15 min call from a person who is not a United state national
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Either this is some way of making money for doctors or such website or i have gone crazy and just wanted to get better
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They can’t practice therapy outside the US. It’s a licensing issue and US laws.
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Taha, take deep breaths. I am here to talk. We will get through this together and there are so many people here that can help you. Please let me know what I can do to help.
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You guys are amazing with your support. I gave nothing to add, but sending prayers for you tahahussain0. Dont give up.🙏
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So I’m 16 years old, currently going through my sophomore year of highschool. I’ve recently quit nicotine and weed after chronic use for about 4 years (has affected my development extremely). I quit because I wanted a better life for myself because I knew that I was using nicotine and weed for short term happiness and long term made me very depressed about this life. I was also experiencing trouble concentrating on simple tasks and what I wanted to do currently in my life. Which was learning about life and having more knowledge about life in general so i could feel more comfortable and happy in the future. So I quit nicotine I thought I was going to be able to overcome it and be more comfortable with myself knowing that I’m not in a constant loop of short term happiness, long term making me less happy overall. Although I have quit nicotine and haven’t touched it in about 3 weeks I expected to have some major withdrawals because I’m still in adolescence and used nicotine about everyday for 4 years. Sorry I’m rambling about this but through those years of always suppressing my anxiety with nicotine when anything came up that triggered it. I started noticing that on vacation in very stressful moments like at the airport and there were people around me when using the bathroom I felt as though it was nearly impossible to go but after sometime I eventually went and shrugged it off. Now that I’ve quit though I’m my 4th week it’s almost like my brain really latched onto that fear of not being able to go around people publicly (paruresis shy bladder syndrome) and that’s also what addiction does to you I’ve acknowledged. But when I started coming home from school I started thinking about not being able to pee more and more to the point i haven’t been able to stop thinking about it since which now every time i feel a slight trigger of having to use the bathroom i start obsessing over it like everything I would try and do that i usually do my brain would draw me away from it and go back to the fear of not being able to go which created a lot of anxiety and thoughts like “would if im not able to stop going” which made me think about it more and more I would just wake up with that thought in my head each day to the point where i was really thinking about killing my self because I thought i would have such a better life without nicotine and weed but ultimately made me feel like i was going crazy and I really wanted to go back to vaping and weed but i knew that this was the cycle of addiction and that i may have a more underlying problem here i need to overcome somatic ocd. I haven’t been diagnosed with it yet and I know a lot of people go through a cycle of self diagnosing. But as I’ve slowly started to mentally figure out ways to get through this obsession over peeing and fight it, it’s like my brain is now trying to look for a new bodily sensation to obsess over. My breathing. I noticed this as well while using that sometimes I would think about my breathing a little bit to much for example saying to myself am I breathing right should I breath this certain way would if I can’t stop thinking about it. But as I was thinking about that I just hit my vape talked to my brother about it and just slept it off. Now that I don’t have a vape I’ve had to go through these expierences but with it feeling more real and not really having something to run to, to suppress like my vape. I’m writing this today as I feel better to myself talking about it and opening up about it as I’m trying to not respond to this fear with anxiety and go throughout my days ignoring these obsessive thoughts leading to extreme anxiety that I don’t have anything to suppress it with anymore besides my own mental. Maybe someone here will have some more knowledge about it than I do and can give me some advice to try to keep me more motivated to deal with this ocd I feel as though I’m having so I don’t end up in a dark place. Thank you.
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