Hi there my name is tahahussain and i am not in the state never have been but pliease can u help me So here the thing everyday i wake up i have to think of beautiful face and swallow my spit while thinking but most of the time faces of ugly people just pop out randomly and i have to do all over again so after that i have a specific time in that time i wash face but first i look at a beautiful face of a man while swallowing then i look at someone near by and swallow while thinking about their face and if i dont do that i began to think that my face is becoming ugly so after that i wash my face while thinking of handsome faces and then after drying off look at those beautiful male face again and then faces of real people and if i fail to do so i have to do the whole ritual again untill i have done it right i. Prevent mirrors and even camera screen like taking a selfie and the whole day i just keep thinking about beautiful faces but the problem is that from random places in my head ugly face pop up i dont know how to over come i tried my own therapy and even visited a phycologist he recommended and cyperlix a pill everyday but it does not seems to workand if i dont stop this behavior and ritual my parent said that they will disown me and throw me out of house i have controlled some of my obsession and compulsion such as i stopped masterbating because whenever i did it i have to masterbate while thinking and seeing a beautiful face and if not my mind will say that do it again and again it made me do it almost over 50 times or more i would have lost concious but now i dont masterbate just for that reason please help me u r my only hope now after that the only way out is to kill my self

For me, nearly everything is a repetitive struggle. Flipping light switches, closing doors, pouring milk in my cereal bowl or in a glass to drink, putting on a pair of pants or socks, walking on/past sewer manholes and drains on the street, walking past garbage cans, walking past or near something that is or looks like animal feces (such as bird poop or dog poop etc.) and of course, handwashing. Even typing on this phone right now is a struggle, if at any given moment I "feel" a particular sensation like a wet spot on my lip or a nerve in my foot while I'm typing, I have to back space and retype what I was going to type the first time in hopes that maybe this time I won't "feel" that sensation again otherwise the cycle will repeat itself until finally I do not "feel" a sensation at all and am satisfied enough to continue typing. These are just some of the many examples I suffer from. Ive decided to come on here and share my story with others out of pure desperation in hopes of finding someone who will give me the ASSURANCE I need to escape from this "monster" this "bully" living in my head by providing me with a logical explanation with the support of facts and scientific evidence as to why these repetitive "rituals" and cycles are unnecessary and why the beliefs Ive invented in my mind are in fact false and unrealistic. One of my most extremely irrational beliefs I've invented for example is dripping water from my hands onto a surface where germs are present; by dripping water from my freshly washed hands onto a dirty floor my mind has trained itself to believe the germs from the floor have somehow bounced back up onto my hands, causing me to then have to wash my hands again for relief of anxiety. Same goes with pouring milk in cereal or in a glass; if the milk were to splash on the floor out of my glass or bowl I then feel like the germs have bounced back up into my bowl or glass. Same goes for spitting; whenever I spit on the ground it cannot be on a manhole cover otherwise Ive convinced myself I have sewage in my mouth, I then have to spit again and again and again until finally I have found a surface I believe is "clean" enough to spit on. Same with urinating; It has gotten so bad that I will not urinate in a toilet in fear that the toilet water will splash back up on my penis, instead I would rather go outside and urinate, but even if I do that, say if I were to accidentally urinate on a surface with bird feces, I will then feel like I have bird feces on my penis. I just want to be able to pee in a toilet again like a normal person. This is all so embarassing but I TRULY NEED help. Please someonere, help me get my life back. I just want to be normal again.

Is this OCD existential? So started last week, I began to have OCD thoughts about our faces. This may sound silly to some of you, but my mind trying to get me to panic about how our faces look. It's like, it is trying to question about, "wow, our faces look like that. That's how ppl look." I'm freaking out right now and trying to calm myself down and think logical or realistic here. My heart is beating really fast and I can't concentrate. Please help me what should I do. I'm trying to tell myself, like "it just OCD, calm down". It's like it's trying to trick me into believe our faces look weird. I was okay yesterday and trying to managing it, but man I had panic attacks all today. Off and on all day while I'm at work. Its not making it any better when I look at ppl faces. Please, please tell me how I can I deal with this. I thinking about getting on medication. Have y'all ever had this experience before?

Okay so everything is literally a trigger for me due to my family members due to my covers and due to my own clothes and also animals Espically my dogs.Okay so I’m in high school still young these thoughts started happening around this year and has became worst to the point I had to go to a mental institution this summer around June I struggle from sexual ocd where my mind literally sexual everything and I do mean everything I can’t look at my animals because I’m afraid I would want to look at their butts or other areas so I just don’t look at them or my sister we sleep in the same room together I have a bed and she has one I use to like to toss and turn to get comfortable so I would flip sides over again until I fall asleep but now I can’t do that because I use to have a thought of looking at her butt so now I just lay on my side facing the wall I’ve been doing this for the whole summer because she goes back to college in August I also hide my family faces from my preview when we’re all in the living room watching something so I don’t see their private parts what made me go to the mental institution this summer was me having the thought of looking at my sisters underwear drawer I tried to bear the thought by again covering the drawer with my cover from my preview or just looking at my phone all day or making myself go to sleep but o end up just telling her to remove it from our room after a couple days later I couldn’t look at my family faces which made me go to the mental institution because I was afraid I was never gonna be able to look at their faces again the mental institution did not help because I was surrounded by kids I also suffer from pocd so I was triggered a lot I would also not look at their faces or even speak to them only if they spoke to me I was there for five days so when I came back home I got a little better but now I’m back to spiraling and I feel like I’m finna go insane again also when I came back home I literally learned all my siblings who were girls was molested expect my oldest one including me and the sister who I’m scared to look at butt who I sleep with was molested by my father and my other sister was molested by my cousin I as well was molested by my cousin not the same one as my sister my mother isn’t very mentally healthy so she of course felt guilty because she believed it was her fault so she started I guess I would say taking it out on us a little so that made me go insane I even started hitting myself repeatedly we went on vacation after the same day and this asshole of a man keeps showing up at our house I just need a little advice how to cope since I know people up here are a little older than me so any advice I’ll take it please .