Does anyone know how to deal with seeing weird thoughts looking at chicks or trying to think about a chick? 2 words pop up everytime my mind wants to think about a chick. It saids Dude, dick every time. I want to do an erp session by looking at pictures of chicks and letting the thoughts pass. I have done this already but in doing so it just brings back the HOCD does anyone on here know at this point what I should be doing or not doing? Cuz honestly living like this is hell. It makes me not want to wake up it makes me not want to eat. It makes me not want to go workout. It makes me angry. If anyone knows how to deal with this please let me know.

No. So for instance let’s say I try to think about something simple shaking hands with a chick the words Dude, Dick pop up. Having just a thought of a woman the dude, dick pops up in my head. It doesn’t have to be sexual.

I was just asking what type of thoughts so I could give proper advice and exposures that I think would work! :)

I know that. But it’s always there so I need type of exposure to quiet it down.

Trust me I’m not trying to focus on it. My mind just wants to think about girls but since there is an OCD thought there it always pops up. Just reading a book I can here the thoughts dude, dick pop up and when the word women pops up in a book or seeing a picture of a women dude, dick always pops up. I work in a public place so I always get a 2nd chance to quiet my thoughts. But with women it just stays and it’s really bothering. I’ve done the exposures with looking at pictures of women to where I’ve seen it pass and I’m able to have positive thoughts of women but it just brings back the anxiety for HOCD and when that passes the words dude, dick pop up. Trust me I don’t say the words it just pops up.

Huh?

Also for women it’s “don’t look at her tits, don’t look at her tits”. And when I do it, a lot of the time it really doesn’t matter. It’s more how I feel about it that changes everything.

@Anonymous I’d rather have my mind say that then dude, dick seeing a chick smh.

No all my OCD is doing is trying to make me be alone. I get it. It just sucks that there isn’t much I can do at this point. I can hear the thoughts but don’t know how to let it go and not affect my daily living. I was under the impression you can live with OCD but who wants to live the way I’m living? Who wants to feel a constant arousal all because your mind can figure out that a woman isn’t a dude, dick? I can live but I can’t live. I can go to therapy and take medication but never will it allow me to have my life again. My mind has been beaten and I keep trying to take the hits and not let it bother me but sooner or later the hits will just end up to my demise. I’ve gone 2 and half years with a constant arousal. All because my OCD convinced me and my therapist’s that I was something that I wasn’t. I mean allowing myself to not face my fear for a few times has shown the anxiety I once had for HOCD but what good is it if my mind can rationalize that a women isn’t a dude, dick? My therapist’s haven’t helped me with this. So it’s like should I even care? I keep facing my fear when I see a chick and hoping that it will go away and I’m not sure if it ever will. I think my therapist doesn’t want to do anything about it cuz she wants to be absolutely sure that being straight is who I am and that my psychosis isn’t getting in the way of this. My therapist who and all therapists who ask us to live with the uncertainty wants me to go see a therapist to see if I have psychosis or not cuz she needs certainty about a psychotic disorder I may or may not have. If what I’m feeling isn’t psychosis then yeah she’ll help me I guess but it’s funny how she has to be certain but I have to live with uncertainty smh. Oh well I guess..

I know but I’m barely making it as is. I don’t have the money to wait for a psychosis diagnosis. If she thinks I have psychosis then I’m fine with meeting with a psychiatrist to prescribe me an antidepressant and psychosis medication and see how I feel after a few days to a week.

Humour works for me a lot too. I had covid symptoms and was ruminating about whether only eating some of the ice cream then putting the tub back so someone else could have it later would get them sick, if the virus could survive being frozen. So I decided to imagine future news headlines for if there was a second wave of covid and they found out it was due to people half eating ice creams. "Rum and Regret" was a particularly helpful one. I guess taking my fear to its logical conclusion in this case helped me to see that it's actually pretty bizarre.

@Scoggy That’s a good one!

I’m sorry you have to go through this but with the HOCD I’m already at the point my mind can rationalize on its own without having to agree with those thoughts. I’ve elected to go the same route for the intrusive thoughts that pop up when I see a chick which is why my mind can think about sex with a women on occasion. My psychosis has caused a thought that makes my body really hypersensitive to someone looking at me and my body can just feel an arousal from someone looking at me. I’m very aware of my surroundings but I feel like I picked that up from playing sports cuz as an athlete playing football and basketball I could always feel where everybody is at and for me it was an advantage cuz I could feel it and sense it. I could always make passes in basketball that made people look at me like how tf did you know he was there or even my friends would be like how tf did you know I was there and I would just shrug my shoulders and I was like idk I could just tell. Same for football when I could get the ball in my hands I could feel a player chasing me from the side and I could make a jump cut to avoid them. In basketball I could make more feel plays then I could in football just cuz in football I would think more but sometimes when I wasn’t thinking I could make plays to where I’m like how’d I do that and then I’m like cool good to know. Like now my brother just walked into the room and I can feel a pressure in my chest and the word cute came into my head same thing when I sense a chick walking by but with a gross feeling and the word dude, or dick and sometimes both popping in my head. So it’s like for me what erp do I do that won’t make me depressed and come out on top?

@swolejaboy Yah and I feel like once we attach a word or thought to something, it causes feelings that we don’t even mean to have it just happens because we’ve trained ourselves that way now!

@princessem My therapist also wanted me to stop agreeing to anything and just let thought be there and at first i had trouble with it but I then I was like if while I’m doing meditation I don’t agree with thoughts and let them come why wouldn’t I when I’m just out and about doing my thing wouldn’t let my mind just have the thought like I would while meditating or walking to let my thoughts come out so I started to just let thoughts come out and found that my mind would do it’s own rationalization. My mind on its own would just do what you’re saying to do without needing to do it on my end. It just hasn’t for the stupid thoughts that come when I see a chick.

@princessem Yeah I know the dick thought was me purposely doing it but I’m not sure why the word dude would pop up. I can only think why the word dude would pop up was when I messed up my ERP by doing something stupid or wasn’t even ready for but I can’t go back and change it.

@swolejaboy Probably because you associate both of those words with guys! Those are two typical guy words so it makes sense!

@princessem Maybe.. but it just makes me not want look at a chick cuz those words pop up when I see them and I just want to put my head down and not look at them cuz that’s what pops up. Not something I want to see when I’m looking at a chick just saying..