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Don’t hate yourself. It is just your ocd and it’s lies.
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Your dad is a loving person You're not a horrible person BUT, your OCD is telling you that he's not loving and it's also telling you that you are horrible. Neither of those are true
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I notice you write "what people will think" a couple times. That suggests to me that you're using the cognitive distortion of mind reading. Here's more about it https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=http://cogbtherapy.com/cbt-blog/common-cognitive-distortions-mind-reading%23:~:text%3DOne%2520common%2520distortion%2520is%2520mind,wreak%2520havoc%2520with%2520our%2520mood.&ved=2ahUKEwiQz9rZxrzrAhWXK80KHcbDB1YQFjANegQIDBAy&usg=AOvVaw2Sc7T6PxE5vtF852kcRZIe
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I had a TERRIBLE thought of my mom doing something awful. It FREAKED me out because my mom is an amazing, loving person. Also my OCD thoughts have always been about ME, so when a thought about my mom came up, it scared me so much. At first I was just like ‘oh okay weird thought.’ But then I went in to full panic mode ‘WHY WOULD I EVER THINK THAT ABOUT MY MOM!?’ And it really upset me. This happened a few nights ago, but it still has been upsetting me so much. I called my mom bawling my eyes out - she understands my OCD so she just listens and is there for me. For me, it’s the thought that people will judge I could think that about my mom more than the thought itself. Which I understand the fear of what others think is what is driving my anxiety. You are a great person and your thoughts are just thoughts! Hang in there!
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I know. He’s a great Dad. I just feel like a horrible daughter for the thoughts I have about him. He doesn’t deserve this. He knows I have bad thoughts about him, my mom, my brother and honestly my whole family including my husband too. He doesn’t know the content and I don’t ever want him to know. I also have a fear that if I have a panic attack around my family they won’t love me anymore and I know that’s not true either. 😞 it’s so sad. I know I shouldn’t be mad at myself I should just be mad at my ocd but it’s hard to separate it from myself
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Thank u all ❤️ I appreciate your support!
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How do you deal with so many bad things that OCD makes you think about? Because ever since my therapist said it might not be OCD, even though that she believe it is, I think a lot that if it isn't, So I created such bad thoughts in my head. And my god, what a horrible thing. I never wanted this. My parents don't deserve such a bad daughter.
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I'm currently crying rn as I write this post. I feel horrible and scared. I recently had an argument with my dad. I hate being angry because my intrusive thoughts get so much worse. We were arguing in a heated way and he came up to my face and I noticed my own reaction which was that my fists clenched up (I become very hyper aware of myself) Anyway I realized they were clenched and that they twitched in anger. I remember telling myself "please no please this doesn't mean I'll act out. Please no don't think. I really do not want to hurt anyone. Please I'm not losing control. Please dont act out." And I started to cry I stopped arguing but began to cry in anger and fear. I'm scared this means I was going to act out. I didn't want to talk to him anymore I just shut down and he asked me what's wrong with me and I just responded with "you're making me very angry. I need some space now okay?" And he said he wasn't very angry with me and I shouldn't be angry with him and he left me alone but I feel so guilty. Did I want to hurt him? This is causing me way too much distress.
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That's what OCD feels like. Especially the constant questioning and doubt and the more you do it, the more you doubt yourself and it ends up leaving you open for other 'attacks'. I left the house today with my mom to run errands and things were fine, like my intrusive thoughts weren't bothering me that much in the beginning though they're constant in the background. Then when we stopped to get a drink from this store before leaving, I got more anxious because there were lots of kids around (it's afternoon here and i guess school was coming out). Kids were walking around in school uniform and I just told myself to keep looking away because i knew that my intrusive thoughts were going to flare up. Obviously that just made it worse and I just wanted to run away and crawl into a hole or something. Then a few minutes passed and then my brain said what if you were leering at the kids or looking at them inappropriately. And then my brain kept telling me that I wanted to or must have filmed one of them even though it's not something I want to do and know deep down that I didn't do it and don't want to. Ever. I just felt so disgusted with myself, I had to stop myself from crying on the way home. I hate this disease and I hate that its made its home in my head.
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