My OCD has been attacking my Dad lately. For whatever reason my ODC says “what if u r face gets red around him or while you’re talking to him and ppl think u like him or what if I have a panic attack around him and ppl think that he must’ve done something to me to make me afraid of him and HE DIDNT! He’s never been anything but a loving great Dad. It makes me feel like such a horrible person. It causes me at times to avoid him and I don’t want to. I just want these horrible thoughts about my Dad to go away. Has anyone else experienced this? And if so how did you cope? I HATE myself for this😭

Don’t hate yourself. It is just your ocd and it’s lies.

Your dad is a loving person You're not a horrible person BUT, your OCD is telling you that he's not loving and it's also telling you that you are horrible. Neither of those are true

I notice you write "what people will think" a couple times. That suggests to me that you're using the cognitive distortion of mind reading. Here's more about it https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=http://cogbtherapy.com/cbt-blog/common-cognitive-distortions-mind-reading%23:~:text%3DOne%2520common%2520distortion%2520is%2520mind,wreak%2520havoc%2520with%2520our%2520mood.&ved=2ahUKEwiQz9rZxrzrAhWXK80KHcbDB1YQFjANegQIDBAy&usg=AOvVaw2Sc7T6PxE5vtF852kcRZIe

I had a TERRIBLE thought of my mom doing something awful. It FREAKED me out because my mom is an amazing, loving person. Also my OCD thoughts have always been about ME, so when a thought about my mom came up, it scared me so much. At first I was just like ‘oh okay weird thought.’ But then I went in to full panic mode ‘WHY WOULD I EVER THINK THAT ABOUT MY MOM!?’ And it really upset me. This happened a few nights ago, but it still has been upsetting me so much. I called my mom bawling my eyes out - she understands my OCD so she just listens and is there for me. For me, it’s the thought that people will judge I could think that about my mom more than the thought itself. Which I understand the fear of what others think is what is driving my anxiety. You are a great person and your thoughts are just thoughts! Hang in there!

I know. He’s a great Dad. I just feel like a horrible daughter for the thoughts I have about him. He doesn’t deserve this. He knows I have bad thoughts about him, my mom, my brother and honestly my whole family including my husband too. He doesn’t know the content and I don’t ever want him to know. I also have a fear that if I have a panic attack around my family they won’t love me anymore and I know that’s not true either. 😞 it’s so sad. I know I shouldn’t be mad at myself I should just be mad at my ocd but it’s hard to separate it from myself

Thank u all ❤️ I appreciate your support!