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Don’t hate yourself. It is just your ocd and it’s lies.
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Your dad is a loving person You're not a horrible person BUT, your OCD is telling you that he's not loving and it's also telling you that you are horrible. Neither of those are true
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I notice you write "what people will think" a couple times. That suggests to me that you're using the cognitive distortion of mind reading. Here's more about it https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=http://cogbtherapy.com/cbt-blog/common-cognitive-distortions-mind-reading%23:~:text%3DOne%2520common%2520distortion%2520is%2520mind,wreak%2520havoc%2520with%2520our%2520mood.&ved=2ahUKEwiQz9rZxrzrAhWXK80KHcbDB1YQFjANegQIDBAy&usg=AOvVaw2Sc7T6PxE5vtF852kcRZIe
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I had a TERRIBLE thought of my mom doing something awful. It FREAKED me out because my mom is an amazing, loving person. Also my OCD thoughts have always been about ME, so when a thought about my mom came up, it scared me so much. At first I was just like ‘oh okay weird thought.’ But then I went in to full panic mode ‘WHY WOULD I EVER THINK THAT ABOUT MY MOM!?’ And it really upset me. This happened a few nights ago, but it still has been upsetting me so much. I called my mom bawling my eyes out - she understands my OCD so she just listens and is there for me. For me, it’s the thought that people will judge I could think that about my mom more than the thought itself. Which I understand the fear of what others think is what is driving my anxiety. You are a great person and your thoughts are just thoughts! Hang in there!
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I know. He’s a great Dad. I just feel like a horrible daughter for the thoughts I have about him. He doesn’t deserve this. He knows I have bad thoughts about him, my mom, my brother and honestly my whole family including my husband too. He doesn’t know the content and I don’t ever want him to know. I also have a fear that if I have a panic attack around my family they won’t love me anymore and I know that’s not true either. 😞 it’s so sad. I know I shouldn’t be mad at myself I should just be mad at my ocd but it’s hard to separate it from myself
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- 4y ago
Thank u all ❤️ I appreciate your support!
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You know when you have weird thoughts about a coworker and because you have OCD these thoughts really stick and you panic and feel sick? Yeah that’s me and I’ve struggled with having intrusive thoughts about my coworker and now he just got in a relationship with my coworker and my intrusive thoughts are WORSE I thought they would be better? And initially they were because I was relieved that he couldn’t be weird with me now because he has a girlfriend. But this is the thought that i cannot get over- my OCD is like you’re jealous that he doesn’t like you and he’s not with you instead and i envy this girl he is with. Why the fuck am I having these thoughts while I’m in a healthy relationship and love my boyfriend to DEATH- like I know he is my forever. I couldn’t look at him today because I’ve been obsessing over this thought I’ve had in work and now I have to find a new job I hope no one will judge me for these thoughts or maybe someone has had this weird thought before? :(
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So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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There are times my harm ocd has me convinced that my feelings of self harm or suicide and harm are real and that any moment I could commit the act on myself or my family. Is there anyone who can chime in on this. I feel like all the time I want to leave run away or avoid my family because of these thoughts. Like I shouldn’t be around my children and I don’t trust myself.
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