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I get this with my own brothers and family members and it sucks smh. I even gotten myself to feel attracted to myself but I was able to overcome that somewhat but I still get a sensation when I see a picture of myself smh.
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I’ve had these too, it will convince you of the things you find so strange
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Idk how to explain it really it just happened the same way I got HOCD. I just said to myself watch I might start to get attracted to myself and I guess I got a little anxiety about it and avoided looking at myself in fear that I might start to get attracted to myself and when I realized what I did I basically started to agree with the OCD thoughts and and since I love myself and I do happen to be a good looking guy I just agreed with the OCD and now I can say to myself I am a sexy motherfucker and I don’t get anxiety about it because it’s myself. My OCD is probably a lot worse than yours which is why I was able to fear looking at myself and avoid looking at my pictures in fear. When you have OCD you can get yourself afraid of anything really if you really tried. I made myself fear of getting erect when I see a woman because it was just happening way to much to my liking that a dude would walk by and think I got it for him smh and it used to pissed me off so I was like fuck this I’ll get myself a fear of this too just to prove to motherfuckers I have OCD and anxiety which can cause me to fear anything and everything and that I’m not gay but because I feared it I became it in an OCD way. I had a gay dream once which made me fear that I was gay but didn’t start to get feelings of possibly being gay until 2 yrs after I had that dream that got me scared. I started to get a sensation feeling every time I saw a guy I never met before and would start to get an arousal feeling towards dudes I’ve talked to before but never had before. This was all caused because of my dumbass not knowing I had OCD and taking pre workouts and drinking on the weekends would increase OCD, anxiety, and depression smh. I mean I couldn’t have known back then but I wished I did or I wouldn’t of never took a pre workout or start drinking or start to think I became gay smh. I had always wanted a wife and kids but I guess when you have OCD and your first relationship doesn’t go so well you start to get depressed and start to think maybe I should become gay since I can’t meet a chick who’s as perfect as I want her to be or find a chick who’s as good as me smh. Obviously that’s ROCD but again I barely knew I had OCD back in June of this year and I was dealing with ROCD and HOCD for a total of 6 yrs now but never knew it was OCD. So that’s my story and I probably shouldn’t have said all this because it just gives me reassurance but I wanted to be able to help you out with how OCD works and how I got an intrusive thought of myself smh haha. Hope this helps.
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Same also ):
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you’re not alone! i hate it
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-TKO I already did that a year ago at this time and I ended up fucking myself up with it because I was pre diagnosing myself and honestly didn’t know I had OCD. I knew I had a mental disorder but I wasn’t sure what. So because I went back in forth with do I have HOCD or am I actually gay I messed myself up even more without getting the proper help. I can’t go back and change it but I kind of know what I have to do to alleviate my anxiety but haven’t found the right time to do the stupid thing I need to do smh.
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It's so strange. Like if my brother does something I'll have a way of viewing it like weirdly. Like if he smiles I'm like that was cute and I'm just like what the fuck is wrong with u why are u saying that???!!
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And it's so strange!!! Like I wouldn't even think about things like that with someone I like. its just weird, hard to explain
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Well u have a week to start a new year and I moving foward Hope I can start exercising Eating healthier stop my instuvice taughts .my hocd started one day I went to a auction saw a guy For some reason I mind said this is a pretty good looking guy which I used to say thst about any body and never bother me I had ocd all my life but not hocd is it hard because I love women and have no desire to be gay. I am sorry no problem with gay guys but I love women.
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- 22w
False attraction has been killing me ive had it for months with the same person. I have a boyfriend so having false attraction makes me feel so guilty. And lately theyve felt so real and ive been so anxious. What if I do like him bla bla. Ive only ever saw him as a brother and we have a good connection and he is one of my good friends but even sometimes when im having a conversation I feel like im cheating. Sometimes I get excited like oh yay he is gonna be here and then I get scared that it’s romantical because I get excited when he is around because he is a funny. Im so scared thats its real attraction because I love my boyfriend I would never do such a thing. And lately my minds done stuff like oh grab his attention stuff like that and it feels like I have done those actions but I dont want to. Sometimes when he is like idk sitting near Im like oh is he looking and my minds like oh do something to empress him bla bla. Recently he was going thought stuff and my boyfriend was there and I was I can give him a hug because I think he needs it but after I thought of it as bad because he is a guy and I had this false attraction what if I did it because I like him bla bla. I am freaking out idk why my mind makes me do compulsions that I have acted on like oh go talk to him and I do its weird urges that I do not want to do. I am scared that it will come true
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- 22w
I’ve always had OCD, and for most of my life it was little things that seemed manageable at the time or something that would phase out of my head within a couple days/weeks/months. But, the older I got the more severe it became, I’d find myself collapsing deeper and deeper within my own head trying to out think the thoughts that bothered me. About a year ago I had a thought that rattled me to my core. My brothers and I were watching a movie in our mother’s room when my youngest brother turned to me to say something. His close proximity to me triggered a fleeting sexually explicit image in my head and that thought caused me to spiral. Asking questions like, “are you attracted to your minor brother? Are you attracted to minors? Are you gay? Etc.” a couple days went by and my mental stability continued to crumble until I broke down to my mother, she was understanding and we found a a psychiatrist. I got on medication and for a while everything was slowly but surely trending in a positive direction. The thoughts would still pop into my head but they were becoming more manageable. As we all know OCD and mental illness comes in waves. Currently my OCD has been pretty severe. I feel those intrusive thoughts latching on in my head and it’s been very hard to kick them. It’s gotten to the point where I find myself being uncomfortable being in close proximity with my little brother because I feel as though I am capable of harming him in any way. And the more uncomfortable I become being around him the more I find myself lashing out in anger towards the people I care about the most. Those moments of anger cause me to spiral even farther as my head fills with ideas like “what if you are capable of hurting someone or even murdering them?” There’s times where these thoughts rattle me so much that I feel like it would be better to be in prison where I couldn’t harm someone or that even being dead would be a better solution than possibly running the risk of hurting someone in my life I care about. This is about the jist of it, a majority of the OCD I have is centered around the idea that I am capable of harming my little brother physically, mentally, sexually. It’s been exhausting and it feels like there is no end in sight.
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I got diagnosed with OCD (variant POCD) about 3/4 yeats ago. Lately I've been really confused and makes me uncomfortable this ideas that I've had dreams in my sleep where I have romantic/sexual interactions with my older sibling— I know it's disgusting, and I don't know what to do. Recently I got a boyfriend after years of being without a partner, and he makes me so happy along my friends, but sometimes at random points of the day I have this episodes with minors or my sibling, and the ones with him start to go heavier when I'm at home or alone. The first thing that comes to mind for me to do is always how much I don't wanna live, harm myself or what is my purpose at this point (22fem) having this problems. I feel weirded out when I pass them over, and suddendly think about not giving them the atention because how important they are in a negativa way. I'm just anxious writing this, I need help. Is someone living the same? How do you work on it? I will always be like this from now? — thanks in avance and sorry for mistakes, english isn't my first language
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