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Even though it’s the hardest thing, not checking is how you’ll get better... way easier said than done. And ocd will tell you if you don’t check again something will happen. Probably something awful. But don’t check again. The more you check, the more fuel for OCD. Good luck! It’s hard. Having the same thing with hand washing right now. We can do it.
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Youre right! We got this!
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I have had mine since eleven, I am 37 now. And it is 24/7 for me. It’s excruciating and painful and all kinds of unfair but honestly you will be okay. Look where you are now. About ninety nine percent of people could not handle what has been thrown at the people on this site
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I can empathize. One issue I grappled with a ton early on in therapy, and on and off since then is not actually remembering a time before OCD. That made it hard to imagine what life without OCD would be like. I tended to flip flop between imagining that without OCD life would be amazing all the time and all my problems would be gone, or imagining life "without" ocd but still with ocd symptoms that I just assumed everyone has.
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Yes I am on Prozac (two) tablets at nine in the morning and Seroquel (3) for nine at night. Have been on them for about, hmm... six years maybe. Before that it was literally impossible for me. I was awash with ruminations and pretty much lost to the world. While the medications have helps there is just something that will not let the ruminations stop, as though there is an off-button and I have been on the home straight to turning it off. Wow.
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And I have also tried to let my girlfriend know what this does to me and thankfully she is very supportive in her own way, in that she simply doesn’t talk about it. Poor thing, like anyone I know, she doesn’t know what to say
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So I understand the note on your description very much
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I get all of the above but it seems to be a precarious thing, because while you might not be ruminating you do suddenly have to simply deal with all of the things that everyone else has to. And a part of you thinks... “I went through all of that to not get to live a free and easy life?!” That’s my take on it anyhow.
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And also, when people say they are worried about something I tend to think it’s far more serious for them than it actually might be, because I am used to association the words ‘worry’, ‘fear’, ‘anxiety’ with my level of said above words
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*associating
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Hi. I found this website through listening to a podcast. I am undiagnosed OCD, but I am absolutely sure I've got it, and I'm really struggling. I feel lonely and my head will literally not give me a moment's peace. It all started a year ago. I have always been the anxious type, but a really intrusive/alarming thought randomly entered my head - it wasn't intrusive/alarming in the sense of distressing explicit content (as I know this is common with OCD), it was intrusive & alarming in regards to the future and a worse case scenario happening. I spiralled from here and over a year later I'm really struggling in this same spiral. I have to check things constantly. If I can't check, I become quickly distressed. But, even if I can check, sometimes it's not enough and I still doubt and become distressed. I am CONSTANTLY scanning for danger - no matter how small, or insignificant. I am CONSTANTLY pre-occupied by worse case scenario and I try and plan repeatedly in my head 'just in case'. I replay the past in my head on a constant loop trying to desperately remember if I did/didn't do something. I then 'test' myself by trying to remember things that I can check in the here and now - if I get it wrong, I become pre-occupied and distressed. I'm very vigilant about 'covering any tracks' where I could have 'slipped up', e.g. did I send that text to the right person? Or fully believing that my phone has malfunctioned and has sent stuff to people who I wouldn't want to see it. I then check and recheck. I have urges to straighten things, touch things etc. when my brain tells me to so that I stay 'safe'. Every OCD incident, pattern etc. I have a real need to share and seek reassurance from friends and family, but not only do I realise that ultimately this reinforces my OCD, friends and family are fed up and have a 'what now?' attitude. It's so lonely and I want to beat OCD once and for all. It's an absolutely miserable way to live.
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Hi, I’m new to the app as of today. I’m 20 years old, and wanted to get some stuff off my chest about the types of OCD I’ve been experiencing over the years. I’m not entirely sure how or when my OCD was brought up, but I’ve been a perfectionist for as long as I can remember. Anywhere and everywhere I go, if I see things placed in an order/angle that my brain doesn’t approve of, next thing I know I’m “fixing” it to be in the placement I feel looks better. I’m not aware of why I feel the need to do that, but until an object is in the “right” placement, I won’t take my eyes off of it. My eye will even twitch. Another form of OCD I have is in relationships. I spend each day overthinking and over-analyzing every one of the relationships that are important to me. Friends, family, significant other. Another one is what’s considered “Pure OCD” . When I get an intrusive thought of something devilish, whether it’s randomly seeing my great aunt naked bc my grandma considers her “fat” even though she’s not, or it’s seeing something demonic and traumatizing, I immediately tell myself, “I don’t wanna see/think about that” over and over and over until the thought is gone. Or I’ll try to replace one mental image with another. One other form of OCD I face every day, is religion. I got baptized for the first time in my life earlier this year in January. I had finally started to repent for my sins, and now I’m constantly feeling afraid that I’m letting God down due to my depression/lack of motivation and vaping/smoking. I also fear excessively that He’ll banish me from His kingdom, or just turn a cold shoulder. I know that what I’ve just typed up is probably all over the place. That is my brain unfortunately. How do you go from being a mentally disorderly and seemingly erratic young woman, to a more well-established, successful woman? I’m all ears!
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Not sure what to say. Just that I am so tired of dealing with OCD - I’ve had it for most of my life and as a 40 something woman, I’m exhausted. I’m tired of being misunderstood and mistreated. I’m tired of seeing relationships that I have dwindle bc my friends and family are overwhelmed with my ruminations and reassurance. I’m embarrassed bc I overwhelm my friends and family with whom I’ve trusted my personal thoughts with and I keep thinking that they can help me through stuff only to be let down. I’ve yet to meet another mind like mines who is complicated but trying to survive because I have children and want to see them grow. I’m tired of feeling defeated because someone took advantage of me and my thoughts. It’s so exhausting but I’m ready to try this because I know I need help. Not sure if this is triggering I’m just ranting bc I’m so lost.
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