Dont know if writing this will be of any use in my current situation but I wanted to share this with someone... I've been living with OCD since I was like 4. It started with religious OCD. I used to ask to god to forgive me repeatedly. Then the pure OCD, as a kid I used to say to my mom that Im nervous about something, but that me didnt knew what and why was it there.... Then when I was like, my father and mother separated due to the constant fights between them. I started to live with my mother. When I was like 14-15, contamination OCD hit me. I used to spent hours in the bathroom. My mother didnt understood my and used to scold me... I wasnt able to handle that pressure already. Then came the sexual OCD, I was even able to go out because the images of the body parts of people I see wont leave my mind... The thing where I used to be avoiding specific colours, pictures, thoughts, people came... That was really hard. The things you cant go about in your day, those were the most stressting for me..... Health OCD came. Problems due to sound, light, sensations, etc... That left me doing some of the important things you have to do to progress in your life.... Relationship OCD... The relations which I made broke ultimately leaving me unable to share my pain with anyone, not about talking just pain, but someone staying on your side giving you courage.... Harm OCD. I have to do certain things in order to make myself keep away that Im going to harm someone. I know its not true, I know its a false belief but like my body wants to move automatically. This has lasted for many months... As you've noticed, the growing pain each times with different OCDs bring is immeasurable. Since I was a kid and now 18 years, that pressure on the body and mind has been constant. Dont know how long I will last with this life. My family doesnt understand my situation at all even if I try my best to explain. I cant seek help on my own. Im so tired with this pain.... Living each moment is a burden on me, each breath is so difficult for me. My life doesnt has any meaning as of now.... Thank You for reading. I dont where Ill head to but I just wanted to share this....

Alan.💪

Date posted: 4y

Hey I hope you can heal from that pain .. I'm in a similar situation as you are .. I believe we can feel better and fight this deasease it's a horrible feeling .. but I know you can get through this

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I’m curious what you’ve done so far to try and get better from ocd? Because (in case you haven’t heard of or tried these things) there are ways to self-help ocd. ERP therepy is the gold standard in ocd treatment and while it’s recommended you do it with a therapist, you can do it on your own and there are lots of resources to help. The good thing is, the skill set is the same no matter the subtype. Note, if you haven’t heard of or tried erp, it will make you more anxious to begin with, but if you work through that anxiety things will get better eventually. Here is a list of self help books: https://iocdf.org/books/ And if money is an issue here’s a pdf for an ocd workbook: https://www.pdfdrive.com/the-ocd-workbook-your-guide-to-breaking-free-from-obsessive-compulsive-disorder-e157834125.html Also, I find it good to have a few coping strategies in my back pocket for when things seem really hopeless. I will draw, or paint, or text a friend (even if it’s not about ocd) or watch a funny video to lift my mood. Sometimes I’ll see if I can find a way to help someone else. If you google “coping skills,” you’ll find a ton of lists to give you ideas. Keep trying until something is helpful. Volunteering places used to help me when I felt like my life was meaningless. I really beleive that life is worth fighting for, and that even when we think the pain will last forever, even if it feels like it has lasted your whole life, there is always hope.

jsford04

Date posted: 17w

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