Anybody know why pocd makes u feel ur attracted to kids n it always targets cute good looking once it’s like I have a type or something it’s so horrible. I struggled the other day with the intrusive feeling n urge to masterbate to a cute little girl I’m scared I’m attracted to her n if I was close to doing it because my brains tricked me into thinking that I will like it n it felt that was my actual intention when it’s not because I felt so much guilt afterwards. anyone else have this problems????

I’m not sure why it does that but I notice it too. I’m sure it’s like with other themes for people like if a straight women has sexual orientation OCD, her brain might try convincing she has type because she finds some women prettier than others. You probably just think that a kid is cute and then another might not be as cute. And that makes OCD go wild because now it has a way to convince you’re something you’re not. Try to not look for the answer to why OCD presents itself in certain ways. You’ll never find an answer. It really doesn’t matter why, what matters is that you’re giving your thoughts too much attention and making them stronger. Do you practice ERP? You could try looking at pictures of kids that you think are cute as exposure. Or whenever this thought/questions pops up, you ignore it or say something like “wow what a weird thought, I don’t want to pay attention to it so I’m going to move on with my day” the urge to masturbate is just an intrusive urge. OCD is smart, it knows how to attack you. Really though, it’s just your brain misfiring. It has no meaning except the fact that it scares you.

Ok thanks so much ur really helped Brain is a weird thing I hope in the future it’s less stigmatised n doctors find out more information about it that can help sufferers like us recover

It’s really common for people to start feeling guilty for not feeling guilty about it. It’s nothing too feel guilty about. It’s just anxiety. I know it’s blurry in your mind and it’s scary but it’s not a real threat. A few techniques can be inviting anxiety in, thinking the thoughts on purpose, resisting compulsions like avoidance or reassurance seeking. Every time you think something that has to do with your theme, do not react to it. If it’s too difficult to not react, try labeling it has OCD and saying “it’s not me it’s OCD”. Right now it seems like you’re reassurance seeking, which is a totally normal response to this, but I don’t want to reassure you too much because it doesn’t help you in the long run. Next time OCD tells you do something like seek reassurance, ask yourself “well what do I wanna do?” Because ocd might want that reassurance but you probably don’t. In this exact moment, what do you do wanna do? It could be something as simple as eating or drinking a glass of water.

Ever feel though ur not sure how u really feel anymore that u could truly find them attractive n be ok with that n not feel so much guilt makes me feel I’m defo one when I dont feel much guilt anymore I think it might be overthinking n analysing causing myself to be exhausted n not caring anymore that I am one or not

N even hear u say to urself I hope my family can except me for being a pedo n making seem so real that I am one n not making me feel bad about it just making me I’m likening it

Yh true but is it normal for everything to be blurry n uncertain that ur liking the thought of being a pedo n not feeling any guilt anymore n excepting u r a pedo?