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- 6y
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- 6y
It really is crazy ! I think about it all the time. It’s so weird how to us, our brains seem so chaotic and busy and it’s exhausting, yet people may not even suspect a thing. I always also wonder why my brain is like this. Like what caused it, why is it me, how did it happen.
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- 6y
Yeah I completely get you ! I also have anxiety. And I have depression. I think a lot of mental illnesses stem from each other so it probably explains how you’ve developed OCD. Mental illnesses are some of the most complicating things ever. There should be so much more education on mental health because it’s such an important subject and there’s so many misconceptions about it.
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- 6y
It is crazy - in the same way pizza tastes ? I wish you the best! Are you getting professional help? Have you been resisting your compulsions?
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- 6y
6 years here.. its so stupid but logic doesnt bite.
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- 6y
Yeah it really is a terrifying mental illness. I’m similar to you where, I googled a lot, and found many articles on OCD, and then realising that that was what I’d been going through. The feeling of finding out that what you’ve been going through has a name is so relieving, but then it just sucks because you realise that you actually have a problem and you then don’t know what to do with yourself. I haven’t been to anyone about my OCD yet either, and I agree some therapists don’t know how to properly diagnose and treat OCD. I read something the other day that said something like ‘sometimes, patients know more about their mental health illnesses than the actual doctors do’. This is why we need so much more education on this, it’s so important.
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- 6y
@marcospgp I have not gotten professional help yet, but I practice ERP on my own sometimes and resist most compulsions, some of them I can’t really pinpoint because I have mental compulsions. @swipx yess trying to use logic can make the obsessions worse which I confusing @Yasmin I think about that too! I’ve always had anxiety but developed late onset OCD (I think) this year. My dad has it though, so mine must be genetic. I always wonder if there was a way I could have prevented it. Like if I knew I would get intrusive thoughts maybe I wouldn’t have reacted
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- 6y
I agree! No one knows what OCD really is. I had no idea what was going on until I had the courage to google it and found a bunch of articles on OCD. I was definitely one of those people who just didn’t know what it was and had no idea it was an anxiety disorder. My heart goes to all people struggling with it. Especially when they don’t even know what it is, and they feel like the thoughts they are having are true about themselves. I agree that mental illnesses stem from each other. I have been diagnosed with Generalized anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder. I haven’t been to a specialist for OCD but I have talked to one on the phone and he was super helpful. It’s hard to find therapists that even know how to properly diagnose and treat OCD as well.
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- 19w
I’ve had different themes of ocd throughout my life. Can they all differ such as how the thoughts may present? Currently my thoughts feel so true immediately (like they genuinely feel like what I think) but in the last theme I feel like it may have been more of a “what if I think this” type of situation
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- 17w
I don’t even know where to start because there’s so much going on in my head and it feels like there’s so much evidence for every thought. Like my ocd feels like it doesn’t just have one specific theme it’s honestly every theme and it just switches throughout the day depending on the thoughts I have. This started all about a month ago, this whole ocd flare up. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd for about 3 years now and looking back on my childhood, I feel like I’ve had it for probably my entire life. My grandpa just recently died back in February and I feel like this whole ocd spiral is a result of dealing with grief especially because it didn’t even hit me for the whole month of April for some reason and things felt “normal”. But since this ocd flare up has started I’ve been constantly reviewing and revisiting my past, all my childhood memories and so many of them are terrifying which is weird because I never had a traumatic event hppen to me as a child. I feel like it’s always been “self-inflicted” trauma if that makes sense? My mind is telling me so many things related to so many topics like maybe I liked my family member as a kid and have just hid it to fit in with society? That my anxiety as a kid has caught up with me and I’m turning into a psychopath? That I’ve always been a creep and enjoyed looking at peoples privates or chests, etc but just ignored or allowed the thought this whole time. Also before this whole flare up I remember always feeling on autopilot and not really alive like everything I did I just felt numb about it. Which aids my ocd to tell me that these feelings are real and the thoughts are true and that I’m “waking up” or realizing or something. I haven’t felt such intense anxiety and distress since I was a kid and I didn’t even understand my own thoughts. It’s like I’m either hyper aware or totally unaware of what’s going on around me and it gets me thinking about my existence, personality, what my role in life is and like genuinely what I’m even doing in the moment like what’s the reason behind everything. I’m constantly questioning my intentions because I don’t know if they’re true or not and it’s like my ocd doesn’t even allow me to consider the thought it just jumps to conclusion. Like telling me I’m guilty before proven innocent. It honestly feels like so much at once to even simply call it ocd or anxiety because it feels like a crisis and any moment I could spiral and breakdown completely. Going to school everyday feeling like anytbing could trigger a panic attack at any moment makes me feel like I can’t be left alone with my thoughts. And like overall since I got down this rabbit hole, my first obsession was harm to myself, then it was harm to others specifically my family, then it was being a pervert or pedo, or being attracted or someone or something I shouldn’t be, which then makes me question my existence and who I am along with also being hyper aware of my facial movements like my eyebrows, nose, etc. Like why does ocd have to involve itself in every aspect of my life? It feels like there’s always something wrong that I need to fix.
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- 17w
i’ve unfortunately fallen into the cycle of trying to figure out my thoughts and find answers as to why i feel so distressed. this still pertains to the situation regarding changing my room for those reading who have seen my multiple posts over the last few days. i’ve been so distressed and in so much panic about it. i’m also panicking over my other room looking so different from when i left it. it’s been making me feel crazy because to me there’s no reason for my anxiety to latch so hard onto something that seems so minuscule. i was thinking i was having anxiety over change, but it’s like symptoms of ocd too that’s making it really hard for me to let go. SO i started thinking maybe it was perfectionism ocd? i’ve realized over time that i do compulsions to where things have to feel “just right”, but i also do that with any environment i’m in. like it HAS to feel cozy to me and provide me comfort in order for me to feel at ease. and this change is causing me to panic because there’s something wrong that i can’t find an answer to. maybe the different colored carpet? but it’s also more than that it feels like. however, now it’s spreading into other areas of my house where i’ve always been fine in and possibly to just any area i’m in at all. hence why it’s making me feel crazy because there’s no reason for me to be THIS distressed over that as i’ve never really had this problem before. and when i did it would last maybe an hour to a couple of days at most, but this has been going for over 2 weeks with my really bad anxiety being this week. i’m doing a little better, but it’s still hard when i can feel that panic waiting for me to acknowledge and just engulf me in the ocd cycle. i’m also analyzing basically any feeling i have so i just feel off in general and like i’m going insane. i’ve been so hyper focused on how i feel and that will send me spiraling too. multiple themes then start coming in like existential ocd and fear of solipsism. not to mention my harm and contamination ocd that just adds on when i’m this vulnerable. then i worry if no one is real, then no one feels the way i do. or just in general that what if no one feels the way i do. honestly, i think being out of college and in my house with nothing to do is causing me too much time with my thoughts. which is why i’m so distressed about everything that pops into my brain.
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