I don't think my current therapist can help me so much anymore the way I think these OCD therapists would. I asked about ERP, but she said my theme is more "thoughts" than objects where I should be exposed, and plus the lockdown. Meds, on the other hand, can be so risky, and I do not know where to get them if ever. I mean, I don't know how to drive since my brother is the one doing that. Also, spending money from my father makes me guilty. And I don't my brother to know I am spending cash for meds. Well, I do know I can handle without them. I've been this far --- I'm 21 now, and I never took meds.

I do not know where to find one, to be honest, and that will be another work of finding. Also, earlier was supposed to be a discussion for a referral to another therapist but she said that not many conduct ERP --- or not common here. Plus she also mentioned about exposing yourself to the trigger when it's your thoughts. She can say those though but I don't think she knows various techniques upon conquering obsessive thoughts either.

@beautifulmind It's good to be here, many of you know about it a lot

@beautifulmind You can reach out to a therapist through this app. Every therapist with NOCD is trained in erp therapy. If they don't take your insurance they have payment plans.

@beautifulmind Information alone is enough for me I guess, and even not a therapy with a non-OCD specialist ---- I can read some articles I found here and have discussions

@Dre83 Well, I can check for those soon --- I was thinking of that too. But I am quite shy to talk lol. English is not my first language too. But thank you for all the help! For now, I will sleep since it is 5:38 am here and I have not slept yet. Thank you all again :)

She's actually telling me that ERP is not that needed since my compulsion is mental or mostly obsessions --- there is not an object to be exposed to

@beautifulmind Dude every OCD specialist I’ve heard or seen online all say run to the hills when they say this. Exposure and response prevention is the only genuine way for us. Mental compulsions are only different in the idea that they’re in our head. The way they are dealt with and approached are the same regardless. Consider seeing a specialist.

@beautifulmind Run! She will not help you. ERP is the only effective way. I don't want your ocd to get worse for own sake honey, and she might do that. Please if you can find an OCD specialist who actually knows how to treat people properly. Be safe hun