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That's not basic hygiene. We dry hands after washing them on the teatowels then use those to dry counters, dishes etc on a daily basis.
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You have a hard timeš¢ You know your "basic infection control" isn't the same as your partners. And I would probably manage as your partner, although I have OCD...because I haven't the same theme as you. I try to let my husband make the decisions when we diagree, because I know he has a sound mind and even uf my OCD screams I have to learn to live my life more "normal"- try to accept your horribel feelings and your frustration and think about what is most important to you. More freedom and a healthy relationship to your partner or letting the OCD rules win? I know how hard it is, be kind to yourself and try to break your rigud rules.
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Thank you. I do have a hard time working out what is normal and what is ocd
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Its ok, I too have. We can try to to trust people without OCD and follow guidelines in our country. Hang in thereš»
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My partner is away to the shops and I am having a head time trusting her to stay safe and sanitised, and trusting her to sanitise the stuff she brings ftom the shop. But I know I have to just let it go and trust her or our relationship won't survive. In my mind I'm Trying to say to myself she will do it right and if she doesn't it will be her fault of we f er covid 19. I'm ashamed of these thoughts and I know they aren't healthy and they are making me angry. I just know she isn't the most careful as she has already gotten a cold and how that would of happend of she had been following guidelines on masks and hand sanitation I do not know.
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Place a hand on your heart and be kind to yourself, this is hard, dont be ashamed, you have'nt asked for this disorder. Do your best to stick to your planšŖ and be sure OCD will always bring to mind why you shouldnt trust your partner. Let go of that discussion in your head. Sending you strength.
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I see cross contamination points everywhere and my partner doesn't think its a risk. Its making me feel physically sick thinking about all the things I'm my mind she does wrong. I'm supposed to be working from home today and I can't concentrate I'm so wound up
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I'd imagine your partner knows it's a risk and also knows that that risk is usually miniscule- both of getting covid and of having serious health issues from it. I've had it and I was just under the weather for a couple of weeks with a cough, I understand that's not the case with everyone but it still is the case for the majority of people. I actually think your irritation/anger and lack of trust are rational responses to the irrational ideas from OCD and that it's not your duty to be ashamed about them, only to acknowledge that you feel that way. There's no such thing as an unacceptable feeling. The reality is that yes she almost certainly doesn't follow the guidelines perfectly all the time, because that's a tall order for anyone, and yes she probably also doesn't always follow your OCD's extra rules about things like sanitising groceries because that feels like a huge amount of stress and effort to attempt to negate a small risk- which is also why governments don't have it as a guideline and you mostly see it being suggested by literal sanitizer companies. The thing about trust is that your partner is in a situation where to refuse to follow your rules would cause arguments and create distress for you, but following them is also a considerable burden. To respond to that situation by only following your rules when you are around to police it, is actually quite a reasonable response. Trust is fundamental in a healthy relationship, yes, but trust and autonomy have to go hand in hand- and your OCD is not a healthy part of the relationship because it tries to take away her autonomy. If she doesn't see telling you "no" as an option because of the way you respond to that, she's really stuck between a rock and a hard place. Based on her reactions of ignoring you, it sounds like she's not feeling good about the idea of being stripped of her right to her own decisions, and it's not really fair to put someone in a position where they can't actually say no, and then make it their problem when they don't do what you wanted. It's helpful to draw a distinction here- it's fine for you to feel angry and frustrated about it when she doesn't follow your rules, but not okay to then be aggressive/guilt-trip-y and try to enforce the rules or control your partner. We can only set boundaries on what behaviour we are willing to accept, not control others' behaviour, EVEN when we have OCD. Your decisions to try to control her behaviour are even more damaging to the trust in your relationship than her not doing what she's told when she's agreed to.
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@Scoggy Also I'm calming down a bit now so thank you again for the sensible words I really appreciate it
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@Scoggy Great wordsš
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You are so so right akd talk complete sense and I need to hear it. I just am totally floored by all this at the minute I really am and I hate myself for it and I hate that I'm making mum y partner uncomfortable in her own home when this virus has made me uncomfortable in my onw home or anywhere else for that matter. I quite low today and that's worrying for my partner too. I flip flop from being accepting of the uncertainty to them being really angry with her. And it's not fair I know that. I think the extreme fear for me comes because we were shiekding for 4 months due to the fact that I'm immunosuppressed, on heany duty medication which suppresses my immune system do to an autoimmune disease and I'm asthmatic . Also my partner is over 50 and over weight and her sister is recovering from chemo therapy so I just have that extra worry I think.
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Sorry for typos, I meant my partner, not mum
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That is really scary as someone who also has big fears around covid. Scoggy really made sense but I struggle with that idea and would understand if you do too. I've never known anyone to wash counters with the same towels you dry your hands with. I grew up in an italian household and on a farm. If we cleared the table to make pasta or pizza, we wiped with paper towel or napkin after disinfectant so that's entirely new to me. I mention farm to say we were all around germs all the time and generally didnt care and we still didn't use hand towels for that. However, we did use hand towels to dry dishes which is something my ocd would hate now. So I suppose that shows where ocd kind of nit picks some of those things. Things I did regularly pre ocd (dry dishes with hand towels) would now be unacceptable with my ocd. So these guys seem pretty reasonable about it all. Something I will do with my hubby when it's all too much for me and I am nagging is just let him know I'm getting overwhelmed, go over the guidelines together for my own sanity, tell him I'm going to trust him here, and then leave the room and not watch him do anything. When I leave and don't see it, I cant nit pick and my brain has nothing to nit pick at. And at the same time I have to trust him because he's the only other person in the house and unless I want to take over the task of grand master maid-disinfecter, I need to let him do some of the house work. I'm really sorry you are going through this. I truly know it is not an easy thing to do with this pandemic.
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Okay so my parents don't really handle my ocd that well. For starters my contamination is getting worse (I'm 14) and keep exisivly washing my hands, or using toilet roll which is unfortunately really common. Now they are getting angry at me for using too much toilet roll... What do I do? There saying I'm ruining there lifes because of my ocd. I'm making there lifes miserable. And they don't COMMUNICATE or sit down with me and look me in the eyes and try sort it out WITH ME. they just go "STOP USING SO, MUCH TOILET ROLL" "you've broke another headset" "WE ARE ALLOWED TO BE PISSED AT YOU" and I'm getting self harm urges because there making me out to be such a bad person. Which obviously doesn't mix well with ocd.
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I have contamination ocd, and one of my compulsions is avoiding eating non-cooked food prepared by other people. I had a session with my family to plan accommodation reduction two months ago, and this compulsion was on there but we decided to focus on other accommodations first. Tonight my mom made fresh food (totally fine), but acted very offended and angry when I couldnāt eat it. I get where sheās coming from, she worked hard on the meal and it sucks that I couldnāt make myself eat it. But it also sucks that she knows this is a compulsion and canāt be understanding. Maybe I need to explain this compulsion to her better? In the family session we talked about the compulsion but not about the specific underlying obsessive thought (today my mom specifically said that I had to explain why I wasnāt eating and I didnāt). Iām really sad that OCD is affecting my relationship with her in this way.
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sorry if im putting to much detail in here I can take it down if it is too much and makes people uncomfy. Last night was watching some ex*pl*cit content while lying on the rug in the room in my house I spend most of my time and where my family usually goes into and it caused a physical reaction. I went to the bathroom to clean up and then sprayed the shower done and put bleach on the floor but I wiped the floor with a towel to kinda clean it but idk if I put enough bleach to clean it and if I got it in the areas that mattered and I sprayed Lysol on the bathroom counter to make sure no germs of my earlier reaction got any where but I ran out of Lysol after spraying everything but I made sure to spray the rug with some Lysol before I ran out but idk if I got everything I mean I focused on the rug but I didnāt spray all of it and I didnāt spray all the stuff that was in the room. And to make things worse after my reaction earlier I put my devices and charger on the floor of my room before washing my hands or my devices so I had to clean the floor in my room I used bleach but I didnāt put it everywhere on the floor which makes me anxious and idk if I cleaned my devices or charger well enough and Iām scared they are still infected. But back to the rug i sprayed it down with odoban it says disinfectant on it but I think itās only for hard surfaces it disinfects but I still sprayed it around on the rug but I donāt know if it actually disinfected anything. And of course to make matters worse my baby cousins toys were in the room so I sprayed them with what little Lysol I had left but idk if I cleaned it well enough but I already put them with their other toys so idk what to do. After I thought I cleaned everything I put my devices on my mattress I donāt have my blankets on my mattress yet cause I washed them like a week or 2 ago and they are just laying on my bed but not put on my mattress so Iām scared my mattress if infected since Iām laying on my mattress with my feet on my chair and my devices are on my mattress. And idk I donāt want people getting those bad germs in them and I,worry about this a lot and Ik a lot of people will say that it isnāt that huge of a deal and I want to,believe them and it helps but my mind is always telling me that even if thatās true I have a responsibility to make sure everything is clean so people donāt get hurt and it doesnāt help that Iāve been so,itchy and idk why and my little brother is also itchy idk if itās because I donāt clean well enough and itās my germs or not but Iām tired do I need,to clean my mattress and covers again and reclean the rug I think I do but Iām trying to go against that thinking but itās hard because I feel like a bad persons. And today Iām scared to leave my room i feel like Iām filthy and that the rug in the other room is contaminated and it doesnāt help I need to go to the doctor today when Iām feeling like anyone Iām around im infecting
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