getwellsoon
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- 5y
dsrbydsrby
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- 5y
i'm a cis lady, and when i have thoughts like this, i use pictures of myself that i enjoy (or just pictures that i feel are a true, objective documentation of what i look like) and put them through a masculine filter to see if i enjoy that as well. sometimes i do like how it looks, sometimes i don't, but remember that you can always explore your gender without any labels attached!!!!! self-exploration is free.
getwellsoon getwellsoon
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- 5y
thank you this is so very sweet. i’m actually very comfortable cisgender lady. it’s just mainly the thoughts towards my boyfriend that are bugging me. they are truly scaring me and i wish they would go away but i love this comment. no one has ever said something like this to me before. my family is against any type of freedom of exploration of gender and sexuality. it was really lovely to read this 🤍
ARTnotOCDARTnotOCD
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- 5y
If you’re not sure how healthy those exercise were, maybe talk with a therapist who does ERP, or at least maybe read more about it? It sounds like you already know who you are, even if the OCD is attacking that. As for thoughts about your boyfriend, some self check on our own understanding, tolerance, and acceptance of gender and sexuality is good and healthy to keep us all moving forward. However, it again seems like your OCD is going beyond healthy self checking and attacking your love. What a jerk! Here’s where knowing more about ERP or working with an expert could be really helpful. Good luck!
getwellsoon getwellsoon
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- 5y
thank you so much for this. i unfortunately can’t talk with a therapist at this moment but i will look more into erp. i’ve been trying to learn to be a good ally all the way around. is just scary how much these thoughts are attacking me
ARTnotOCDARTnotOCD
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- 5y
@getwellsoon Scary, absolutely! But it totally makes sense for your OCD to attack your loves in life. I’ve got your back! You fight, and if I can throw any dirty punches at the OCD jerk for you, I totally will.
getwellsoon getwellsoon
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- 5y
this made me smile. the same goes for you. I’m always ready to swing a few punches as well. thank you for this
getwellsoon getwellsoon
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- 5y
any advice on what you would do
getwellsoon getwellsoon
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- 5y
all i’m saying is this definitely all seems like intrusive thoughts
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