noone800
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- 4y
SlayingtheocdragonSlayingtheoc...
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- 4y
Basically i think thats it... Like i’ll have a normal memory then my ocd convinces me that, while all the facts remain the same, my motivations were bad or i am misremembering how i felt about it
FathomableFathomable
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- 4y
This times a million
kknykkny
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- 4y
Like what slaying the dragon said. For me I had a memory at work pop up into my head a few years later, but when it came into my head I had doubt on if I should've done it or shouldn't have done it. In the end it drove me nuts for years. I often find that false memory combines with real event which comes with your core fears. So I have perfectionism/scrupulousity so for me the false memory combines with the real event to second guess my motives. Not sure if that helped or made it more confusing :-)
sierrapandasierrapanda
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- 4y
I do this as well
noone800noone800
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- 4y
Could what I have said also he considered false memory or like what would that be considered I guess? Also thanks for sharing!
noone800noone800
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- 4y
Omg my grammar, I meant to say, could I said also be considered false memory?? Or no?
sierrapandasierrapanda
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- 4y
@noone800 I think that it's one, sometimes for me it's like Im 99% positive it was an apple but that 1% is like no it was a carrot and second guess myself on alot of other things as well. But it's like my gut is telling me it was an apple
noone800noone800
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- 4y
@sierrapanda Yeah that’s the same for me kind of, I’ll be like “well I thought I had an apple” but then my brain is like “no you could have had a carrot” and then I get a little anxious and like it feels like I had a carrot then. Ughh I hate ocd haha
SarakiSaraki
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- 4y
It sucks because I heard that anxiety and depression make memory even less reliable than it already is. So false memory OCD is a real pain to deal with.
sierrapandasierrapanda
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- 4y
Very much so especially when you start questioning what else is real or false
sierrapandasierrapanda
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- 4y
It's worse when someone is aware of this and uses it to their advantage and then you have no idea anymore
SlayingtheocdragonSlayingtheoc...
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- 4y
Wow, that sounds like a not nice person
FathomableFathomable
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- 4y
I've literally had a an OCD theme of having done something wrong, where someone then gaslighted me about that exact thing and it made it 100x worse
sierrapandasierrapanda
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- 4y
@Scoggy Exactly why I'm in the process of a divorce. Nobody deserves to be with someone who plays off your mental illness
FathomableFathomable
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- 4y
Mine have been about my intentions a LOT of times, I've also gotten them very easily from other people's suggestions because I really doubt my own memory and perspective all the time, so other people's thoughts just seem more reliable, I get ideas in my head or question something then I get image flashes of a scenario with it and they feel really real and make me feel sick basically and I can't stop thinking about them or looking for clues to tell me whether it's true. Didn't realise for years that this can be OCD. Plus like a billion times when I have told a lie (e.g. that I did my homework but forgot it, or codependent stuff like saying I like the same thing as someone else, or have had the same experience as them) I then start questioning whether I said the lie because it's actually true. Even when I think I remember my original motivation for a lie like that and it makes sense, the doubt stays and it's like I can imagine both of them and they feel the same.
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