Does anyone get into arguments with their family members over nothing? It literally can be over food? And then they ignore me so it just makes me argue for longer and be more angry. I need to control my anger better but my period is due and I feel like shit in general which just isn't helping anything

Same, all I wanna do in camp out in my room. I only go downstairs for food. It gets so tiring. But they are so toxic and rude and they can never just try to understand me :/

I can relate to this !!! My dad is a narcissist and gave me bouts of silent treatment growing up and to this day. So now I give it to him back and he doesn’t like it at all because it doesn’t fulfill his narcissistic supply. My mom is delusional and codependent on me and my dad. If I do something straying from what my mom thinks I should do (she was a perfectionist and tried to make me her clone doll) she would do and say anything to make me change my mind. This made me rebel throughout the years and get myself into trouble with men and alcohol because she would just create this anxious angry fight or flight response in me all the time. I never feel peace.

@Anxiousgirl Me either, my dad has to have something that he refuses to get diagnosed. He grew up in really bad circumstances and was neglected a lot. He has passed that on to me and he'll ignore me as well and gets so angery it's scary. I remeber being in 3rd grade and sitting outside of my dad's bedroom door, where he and my mom were yelling at eachother. [My parents have never shared a bed because my dad doesnt like my moms legs touching him] I was crying, it was around halloween, and i was looking at the little scarecrow we had in our living room. I always thought this was normal, my dad would throw things at me [one time he broke a remote throwing at me] and he has threatened to throw a glass of alcohol at me [he was drinking] and he has also threatened to "beat me until I bleed" in those exact words. He still yells and gets mad over small things, and I do too, and it bothers me cause I know I got that from him. Even though my mom isnt perfect, I could never ask for another mom. Shes so sweet, even if she gives me the silent treatment, she only does it when shes really upset. But I can understand her. Shes being manipulated by my dad and I try to talk to her about it but she always denies it. One time her and my dad got into a big fight and she grabbed a bottle of pills and threatened to overdose and went up to her room. I was crying so hard, and my dad was acting like it was nothing. I was screaming at him to go help her and he just told me "it's not a big deal she'll get out of it." So this pissed me off and I ran to the nearest park. [It was night btw] and like a half hour later my sisters came looking for me and we went home together. My moms being abused and I just want her to leave my dad but my dad has all of the money for our family, my mom wouldnt be able to house her and my sisters without my dad's money. I just feel so hopeless, it makes me wanna leave, I've tried self harm so many times, i get so sad and my ocd worsens it. My dad has given me really bad anxiety, anger issues, and all of the in between. I'm so embarrassed to act so much like him, but at this point its engrained in me and I always feel like such a shitty person. But then sometimes my dad will have good days where he controls his anger, and my mom always tells me to "just be nice and he wont get fired up." And when my parents are nice to me it makes me feel guilty for even thinking about what I said in this comment, I just wish I could leave and get my own apartment and get my own earnings and live on my own for awhile. I just need to get away. There have been so many points where I have thought of running away, but then I feel guilty cause they arent even abusive, maybe I'm just a rebellious teen going through a phase of hating her parents. [I was just listening downstairs and my parents had another outbreak, my sister screwed something up and she was getting frustrated, and now my dad is yelling at her and telling her "shes a kid she shouldnt be arguing with him." Now they are yelling at eachother and my moms trying to settle them.] But when I do think of leaving, what am I gonna do about my sisters? I've thought about wanting to go to a clinic of some sort that keeps people over night, to help me stay away from my parents and so that I can focus on curing my ocd and self harm habits. I'm si tired of this life, I need to leave so desperately. But then again my parents do take care of me, they feed me, they lay for me, etc, so I feel bad about wanting to leave. I just know how disappointed they'll be with me. So I just think I'm gonna wait until I'm 18 which isnt too long from now, when I can really start focusing on myself and my mental illness. Hopefully I wont have to deal with this shit for too much longer😞

@Jo I’m so sorry you’re going through this dear. But let me tell you it’s temporary! And there’s nothing you can do about your moms decision to stay with your dad. I can relate to you so much. My mom isn’t leaving my dad because of money and she is taking care of my grandma. When my dad beat me a few years ago (he never did before, it was all emotional abuse) my mom called the cops to calm us down because I was throwing things in self defense. When the cops came my mom took my dads side and I was at fault. I am 27 now and my parents spoiled me growing up so I never learned life coping skills. I’m living with them to save money but they always manipulate me back. But I know that if I didn’t have these daddy issues I wouldn’t be so f’d up in the head. He lowered my self esteem growing up saying “put on makeup” randomly or he told me to grow some tits when I was 12. Now when he’s mad he calls me a slut and says my sexual assaults were my fault. Then when he calms down he is nice and cares. It’s an emotional roller coaster. My dad also grew up in a bad envionrment and was the black sheep out of all his siblings. Me and him were even left out of inheritance. My mom sometimes comes to me crying saying she will leave my dad he’s a wackjob, and then the next minute they are laughing together and she denies all emotional abuse and says my dad isn’t so bad. Just hang in there. You are not alone. I am an only child and I wish I had siblings to turn to. Try some breathing techniques. I know it’s hard to not repeat parental behaviors. It can be reversed if you put the work in. I know me being 27 and still struggling may be discouraging, but I got myself into a lot of shit to be back at my parents house. I really can’t complain right now. I have a job and working from home so that’s how I’m saving up.

@Jo You sound like you have the same dad me jo. Hes never been good to me, hes only nice when he wants something. My mum also tells me to calm down so he wont get pissed off but lately I've just been so angry, with everything. He broke my laptop like a week ago, because he was angry I didn't do something he was asking me to do. Yes he paid for a new one but it doesnt change anything. My mum is sweet but she gets pissed off with me too, I do push it sometimes, maybe its because I just get angry. She will give me the silent treatment too which will just extend the argument because I'm already so fired up. I'm 22, I cant wait to leave next year when I go to uni (I'm going late because I didn't get the qualifications I needed when I was at school). I think I am the problem sometimes, but if everyone responded properly I wouldn't get so upset. My dad left his wee all over the toilet, I went in to go for a shower and it made me so angry. I got out told him to clean it, he told me to basically fuck off. I asked my mum what she was making for dinner, she said she didn't know and a whole fight ensued because she kept saying "I don't know" purposely, and then names to dishes that I asked her not to. I know i sound ungrateful, I probably am. I'm just tired and sick of my own self. I also deal with contamination OCD and body/food issues so both of that played into both those arguments and it always feels like no one understands me. Like I'm screaming in a room and all the doors and windows are shut.

@Anxiousgirl I'm so sorry about the abuse you've endured, you dont deserve any of it. Your sexual assaults were not your fault, please please know that there was nothing you could've done to change what happened. My mom has told me that she'll leave my dad too, but then she says that she loves him and she wants to stay with him. [Im 100% sure it's for the money] I'm so sorry he said those nasty things to you, hes mentioned many times that I dress down and he slut shames my sister who is just exploring her style. My dad used to touch me on the butt when I was younger and I thought it was normal, but when i was 12 I realized I didnt like it and I told him to stop and still, years later, he always complains about how I wont let him touch me. It makes me feel so weird, I never knew his true intentions but now everytime he tries to touch me I jump and he gets all defensive about how "he wasnt gonna hurt me" or "I'm just your dad calm down." He also repeatedly looks at my boobs so I try my best to cover up when I'm around him, and I told my mom about this and I could tell I was stressing her so I stopped. Now what sucks is I jump whenever my boyfriend will hug me, and I remember one time we were together between classes and he was throwing something away and I was infront of the trashcan, so he threw it standing infront of me and I flinched cause I thought he was gonna throw it at me :/ he had to tell me that he would never hit me and he had to calm me down so yeah that was embarrassing. I also flinch whenever he hugs me off guard cause I think it's my dad trying to touch me and I hate it. I see my friends' dads and they all have nice relationships. I just want to have a normal life before I move out like any other teen. I hope you can save up enough money soon and leave your parents! That'll be a wonderful day and I cant wait for you to have it!☺

@MJocd I've been called ungrateful by so many people too. Just know you're not, you're going through a rough time with bad people. I'm so sorry this is happening to you. I get really angery too, and it starts all kinds of fights. I just want a normal, loving family. I want my OCD to go away too, it just makes everything so much more unbearable. I'm so happy that you're getting to leave next year! Good luck at school, and I'm sure you're gonna thrive without such a toxic family around all the time. Good luck with your journey (:

@MJocd ❤!!