I need help knowing if I should go to the hospital. I’ve been having crippling anxiety every day that makes me depersonalized, and it feels like it’s mimicking a weed high and it makes me extremely anxious. I’m fearing I’m losing my grip on reality because last night I felt really good, but it reminded me of my trauma with drugs and I had an intrusive thoughts that my boyfriend drugged my water. Usually I can laugh it off but last night I had an hour long panic attack that made it worse and made me disassociate to the nth degree. I don’t have meds, I don’t have therapy and I need help. I feel like my life is over.

Ladyofthelea...

Date posted: 5y

Hey, this sounds exactly like what I went through at the beginning of the year. Literally to a T, with the depersonalization and it linking to trauma from drug use. Im doing therapy with NOCD now and its helped so much. Also accepting that the depersonalization is there, and allowing it to run its course without trying to get rid of it is actually the best way to ger rid of it! Allowing it to be there and realize that its not dangerous is what will get it to go away. I just continued to do go on with life the best I could even tho I felt super depersonalized. Eventually it faded slowly. Another thing that helped was I stopped looking up DP online. I just want you to know that youre not alone!

Sheeby

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much for the info. This was important to hear because I haven’t heard of many OCD correlated to trauma at all.

Ladyofthelea...

Date posted: 5y

@Anonymous Youre welcome! And sometimes the experience with depersonalization and so much anxiety can cause trauma in itself. Just remember that you can get through this, no matter how awful it feels ❤

Sheeby

Date posted: 5y

@Ladyoftheleaves22 Yeah I had depersonalization last year and I thought I was over it but in reality it was traumatizing.

Ladyofthelea...

Date posted: 5y

@Anonymous It is very traumatizing. Im glad you got through it last year.

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

Is therapy an option for you? You definitely need some kind of assistance.

Sheeby

Date posted: 5y

I have my diagnosis with nocd today but other than that, I’ve just been helpless.

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

@Anonymous Are you going to do therapy with them?

Sheeby

Date posted: 5y

@Ben84 I plan on it. I’m just scared it won’t be helpful because I’ve fallen into a huge red zone for like 2 months.

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

@Anonymous You won't know until you try. I hope it goes well ☺.

Sheeby

Date posted: 5y

@Ben84 Thank you!

Lynnrich

Date posted: 5y

You need to find a therapist and also get on some medication . That will help

Sheeby

Date posted: 5y

I’m just hoping I can overcome this DEpersonalized state. I was able to last year during an OCD episode, but this year feels a lot more frightening because I have no reason to go outside due to covid. I can’t work outside because family is high risk, so it just sucks, I’m trapped to the room to do nothing every day and it’s frightening.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Hi hun if you are ever feeling lonely and really scared there are local crisis lines you can call and look up for your city they are able to assist and help calm you down if you’re in a crisis

Sheeby

Date posted: 5y

Thank you. I’ll definitely check it out.

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