I’m so scared that I’m attracted to kids n i don’t no what’s going on y does my brain so this makes me feel that I desire them I don’t no what’s going on

You are not your thoughts and your thoughts don’t define you. The fact that you feel guilt shows that you are not attracted to them.

With HOCD, I have weird sensations flood my body when I see a pretty girl. I know I don’t want to be with a girl and that I’ve only ever dreamed of being with man but ocd presents itself through unwanted feelings and sensations for me. So yes it has made me have urges and made me think I’m enjoying it. I hate it more than anything in the world

I’ve even masterbated to him and I can’t believe I’m saying this

Sometimes in my personal experience I have found that I had say more dramic things..... I would never do this or that.... or that makes me feel sick (yes it does hunt me). Then people would only accept my reality. However once I realised I need to look at the facts.... am I out there harming children No, am I looking ways to do that? No. Then I am not what pocd says I am.

Ocd gives us unwanted feelings and thoughts! I dealt with POCD for about two years and it was a nightmare so I understand your pain. Ocd is a monster

When I had POCD, I also had unwanted feelings when I looked at a child. It made me want to cry. I still remember that pain like it was yesterday. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this. I really am. It was a nightmare for me too.

Please take care and be kind to yourself ❤️❤️❤️

Are we helping you at all?

Because POCD will look for the thing that scares you the most. It own self fulfilling prophecy to isolate and make you abandon anything. You do not need know why you are having these thoughts (forget the moral game - OCD lives).

Meant to say it wants you to abandon anything you care about

I cannot tell what normal is. However I definitely speak your health care provider and therapist if you have one

Feeling confused about feeling is quite common with people OCD

Ocd will give you feelings to make you think you like the thoughts and sensations running through your body. The fact that you are on this app terrified about all of this shows how you really feel. I know it’s hard but try not to look for reassurance. It only feeds OCD and makes it worse.

I think a lot of us can relate to you. And reassurance is a compulsion that feeds OCD. It’s like putting more wood on the fire. It feels good in the moment but the anxiety comes back, often stronger than before. Reassurance sends us in a continuous loop that never ends. As hard as it is, the best thing for us to do is let the thoughts and feelings pass through us without giving them attention. I know that sounds like impossible advice and sometimes it does feel impossible but when we do that, our minds are not giving any attention to the ocd and that’s what ocd does- it’s mission is to capture our attention and distract us from what we really want. Ocd takes everything we want and twists it, trying to convince us of the opposite of what we truly desire. It’s a monster and a nightmare and I think we can all agree that we are tired of it controlling our lives

Ok thank u so much best wishes for ur journey ❤️❤️

I understand! Ocd is so frustrating with how convincing it can be. Do you see a therapist?

No but I’m planning to see one I need help I can’t do this on my own anymore I need to talk to a professional

Thank u but is it normal to not know how u feel about everything even if u r guilty sometimes

Can u look at my last post about the masterbating please I really need help on that one thanks

Well even if you don’t feel guilty , it’s just thoughts

Thank u plz look at my last post about the masterbation it’s so so scary I need help on that one

Did it make u have urges n thinking ur enjoying it

N u feel so much guilt afterwards but it tells u ur not feeling guilty ur likening it

I can’t advise on pocd as I never experienced it but I can tell you we all have sexual thoughts we don’t want.

Yes u are

Why does my pocd say I want to look for children to abuse anyone have the same

I don’t no how i feel anymore if im scared or not

Is that normal

Is that normal though

Ok thanks guys. Why does reassurance not work?? And have u guys felt the same way that I have felt not knowing if u like it or not n scared or not n feel disgusted or not???

I think the hardest thing for me to deal with is the masterbation urge it was so horrible n feeling I’m attracted to them n want to do bad things it’s awful