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I was brought up by my dad my mum abandoned me and my brother and signed full custody over to him. Which made me very dependent on my dad to feel safe and I still feel that way to some extent as an adult which definitely triggered mine I would say. My first bad period of ocd was 12 and I was in recovery for ten years and then my dad became critically ill which he is now recovered but it was touch and go and that triggered me back off ever since and that was two year ago
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honestly, i’ve had a relatively great childhood. my mom and dad love me and listen to me, are accepting and kind, didnt hit me or abuse me- i feel so guilty for being like this, like i shouldn’t worry about stuff bc i know i would be accepted and loved, and i feel like since my life is good i need to appreciate it more instead of worrying so much. i also worry that it isn’t ocd because i’ve hears a lot of ppl w ocd have had emotional trauma, and i haven’t (in no way am i saying that i wish i had trauma, or that trauma is good). i’m sorry you had to deal with that, btw. that sounds really hard and i feel for you <3
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Yeah I got a lot of the same emotional abuse, lots of shaming, criticism, pretty much total emotional neglect.
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**TW suicide mentioned** I had a pretty chaotic childhood I guess. Parents divorced when I was a baby. Constant fighting and custody wars, paranoia and parents trying to turn us (sister and I) against the other parent , accusations flying everywhere. We moved 14 times in my first 13 years of life, were homeless a few times and sister and I ended up in foster care for a brief period twice. Strangely, I think I got a lot of my obsessions from things my mom accused my dad of. Others from things my dad said to me (accusing me of lying and faking all my emotions, being manipulative, cold and selfish). And I think I got one of my most insidious and constant obsessions, a fear of spiraling out of control or losing my mind, from watching my mom's spiral into mental illness that culminated in her s*icide when I was 10. So yeah I think it definitely affected my OCD.
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Hey your dad and my mum must share an astrological sign or smt, I got to hear all those lovely things!
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Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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So basically I didn’t know till my hocd started. But looking back at my life I had ocd since I was a kid. Like 6-7 years old. First time happening I remember that when I was doing stuff many times I had to say something like a little poem in my head to stop it. Then I had this thing were if I felt my left foot touch the floor 5 times I had to do the touch the floor with my right foot too. Then I had something I guess contamination??? Basically after washing my hands I had a sensation on my hand like I could still “feel” the germs and I had to wash them again. Then I started having thoughts of my family members getting hurt. I had intrusive thoughts about me hurting my dog. Then I had this obsession that a guy who used to be in my school is looking for me to beat me up. And how it’s this obsession about my sexuality even tho I never doubted or questioned it before. Is that possible??? Like can you be born with it? I’m pretty sure both my parents have it too. At least at some level. Take my father for example he had an obsession that he was going to die the moment he turned 30.
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My mom will sit and listen to me for quite a while, but she interrupts a lot and gets angry/upset. While I appreciate her passion, it's often stressful. Every time I come to her, if I even *mention* OCD, she gets frustrated and says, "Everyone deals with these issues, you know. It doesn't mean it's OCD." And I repeat, "I'm not saying my issues are unique — I'm saying the way I respond to them is a problem." But she just shakes her head and says, "Okay, I need to get back to my day." Full context, I'm an adult, and I live with my boyfriend, but I'm staying at my mom's for the next month. After living away from home for years, I went back to living with her during the pandemic, and I only recently left to live with him. Honestly, I think living with her for so long in my adulthood really messed with me and made me feel like a teenager all over again. I feel like my mental growth is stunted, and that's part of why my OCD is so bad lately. Not blaming, just noticing. She doesn't seem to understand how relieving the OCD diagnosis has been for me, because it explains so so so many things I've struggled with for years, and it's exciting to have more resources that can help me. But I think she sees it as me finding an excuse to *not* work on myself, which is just untrue. I'm not going to let OCD hold me back or use it as an excuse, but I'm also not going to pretend it's not a problem when I know it is — I was even diagnosed through NOCD. The whole point being to fix it, not use it as a crutch. When I have an issue, it's unbearable. Any issue, big or small, feels just the same. I feel a sinking feeling, my mind races, my heart beats out of my chest. I end up running to my support systems, crying, ruminating for days on end. Then, months later, the same exact issue can feel like nothing anymore, because it's no longer an obsession. I'm sure everyone deals with issues in a similar way, but I *know* there is something specific and debilitating going on with me. This is reassurance seeking, but in the face of being told I'm making a big deal out of nothing, can someone diagnosed with OCD tell me if they relate to the specific intensity of these feelings??
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