Ryan52997
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Maverick575Maverick575
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Just let me know the way to fight back please
Doot 🎺Doot 🎺
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Actually, I am doing okay today! My usual suicidal OCD obsessions are chill and I am having a good time :))
Ryan52997Ryan52997
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I hope that positivity lasted!! Mine jumped topic and now I feel like I have to restart everything.
Maverick575Maverick575
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Hi How yall doin So i have had ocd for years now It kept changing forms Overcome one obsession only to have another I got recently into uni (got selected in my fav major) Whenever im in the classroom and the professor starts taking about the subject i love. Like the subject and stuff i have been wanting to study for a long long time. I get this extreme anxiety. Why? Because its important to me. The subject is important to me. Whenever everything is perfect. Like im in my fav uni, fav major, fav subject/topics that i should find very easy to study become the hardest whereas the subjects that i dont really have interest in (unimportant to me) i have less intrusive thoughts and anxietu during them. Similarly i found a very great room to live during this uni. But this also gives me major anxiety and ocd. Conclusion is that whenever everything is perfect in my life. I get major ocd and anxiety. To do erp (which i have done in the past for other obsessions and compulsions) i need to find the root for why im having this anxiety rn. And i cant seem to get it. For ex (i also have ocd while gaming which makes me always think that the games are not running how they should be.There is something wrong with my pc and it will catch fire and stuff so i keep opening and closing pc case for hours) but this time i cant seem to find the reason to work on. What do i expose myself to if i only get the major anxiety and feeling of incompletness whenever everything is perfect and important to me Please if anyone has similar experience to mine. Reach out to me. Any help will be appreciated Ty for taking the time to read
Ryan52997Ryan52997
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Maybe be ok with the fact your favorite class might not be perfect. Sounds like you are unsure and you need to be ok with uncertainty. Like for your example on the pc, maybe just accept the fact it could burst into flames and tell yourslef it’s ok to have that thought and it’s alright to worry yet move on. Weirdly enough it feels like my ocd topics and situations are so exotic and out there that no one else understands what I’m going through. I’m reality I might not have the same subject but your worries feel similar. I worry about my dog going in my room so I pull the door shut and keep pulling it, I pull it twice, three times, four times, and so on. Until I feel satisfied that my dog won’t get into my room, then while I’m backing out of my driveway it’ll feel like I literally didn’t check and that it could be open. That’s just one of my problems, the other is worrying about I’m something that I’m not, even though my body gives me all these sensations and anxieties that make me feel like I have to address something. Ocd is about uncertainty and doubt, it feeds off it. Starve that beast and focus on staying positive.
Meof3Meof3
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Hey are you recovered? I love hearing success stories. I have been improving a lot but today was a bad day. Anxiety was high. Trying my best to live my day and not try to let anxiety intefere too much.
Ryan52997Ryan52997
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I’m not recovered yet unfortunately and that’s ok. I actually was on meds before, went off, and then a flare up hit. I was not ready to go off the meds and that’s because I didn’t handle this correctly. Therapists and psychiatrists help so much and I only had a psychiatrist for meds. My recent flare up hit hard over one subject, then switched to another, making the last topic feel irrelevant. Now after about 3-5 days of dealing with a topic that I thought wasn’t going to go away, it’s on another topic that’s similar to the first one. Long story short every time I start to get better it grabs onto something else. Goin back on meds to help the chemical imbalance and then got my therapist to help with ERP
Maverick575Maverick575
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@Anxiousashley i know right. Its fucking up my studies. Its fucking up everythin. I have never been to a therapist but i have done erp before on my own. This time i dont know how to do erp regarding this issue. Thats why i am looking for guidance here on NOCD
AnxiousashleyAnxiousashley
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@maverick575 I have the same problem. It’s like “oh no! This is too good to be true. What could go wrong to fuck this up for me?” And then the intrusive thoughts and anxiety come and keep coming from there. And then it attaches itself to what u love or what means a lot to you. It sucks
AnxiousashleyAnxiousashley
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@maverick575 I think it’s a great idea that you’re looking for help on here and I would consider finding a good therapist maybe on here or out there.
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