This is very troubling to me and seems to be something that’s going to crush me does anybody have an experience where they’re talking to somebody maybe while trying to fix an OCD compulsion and then hang up the phone with them and a little while later they have this thought Of the person saying something to them so it’s a thought it’s not audible but the thought is kind of in the other persons voice if that makes sense and then it’s very troubling

Yes I do this. It sounds to me like ruminating with auditory hallucinations which does happen from OCD . I experience it with music I will hear music that doesn’t even existed just completely made up from my own mind. It can be very distressing because we know it’s not real. I also replay conversations and hear the persons voice and I also have conversations with the person in my head that have never happened like planning out a conversation that might happen. Have you worked with a therapist?

Yes these are all symptoms of OCD it’s such a bully. The feeling part of OCD is what makes it feel real try vetting the source when these thoughts appear. Like wait a minute I know that’s you OCD making me think and feel this way so I’m just going to sit here being uncomfortable and say maybe they are doing illegal activities maybe not? And just sit with that uh maybe, maybe not? I don’t know not up to me to figure it out. It can be difficult at first. But I had two therapist tell me that I had the highest scores on the DSM5 they have ever seen. So I know you can too!

Yes that is the compulsion is you checking or re-reading to see if you missed something or you actually really it how it was written. Resisting that compulsion is what confuses OCD and in time it will actually stop. I had germ OCD pretty bad to the point I started to break my skin from washing over and over. I’m completely symptom free from that now. It is possible! You have to declare to yourself that I am making the decision to not check that article one more time. You OCD want me to look at again but screw your I have other better things to be doing. Literally tell that to yourself either in your mind or out loud. And when the fear comes in and that adrenaline kicks in find something physical to do like go run, walk anything to use it up and it passes much faster when you’re not feeding off the adrenaline rush.

Yep, harm OCD is common many people fight with that on this very app. You’re not alone, I know it feels so very real but it’s OCD just being a douche and blaming you for things that in reality will probably never happen. I’ve been in the same position you have many times. I went untreated for 27 years I know how bad this feel during the event but I really would like you to try the things I’ve listed above and if possible reach out to the support team and they can get you in contact with a OCD therapist. It’s literally life changing once you start the process I’ve been able to do so much more now that OCD isn’t weighing me down. Sorry you’re going through but there is hope!

But it won’t I can absolutely promise you it won’t help. It only reinforces that OCD is right and it NEVER is right it’s a liar that what it does it lies to you and makes us scared and boom there goes the compulsion and we get stuck in that loop over and over again.

Absolutely! Anytime, it much easier to talk to someone that goes through the same type of experiences we understand where you are coming from here. I hope you find some relief my friend.

It’s just the OCD that’s the source, it can make you feel like you’ve gone bonkers. Look at it like this you wanted to earlier but you didn’t! That’s a win! Feel good about that. You didn’t give in it now it’s back which is what it will keep doing but the more and more you resist the compulsion the easier and easier it becomes. It’s a dreadful feeling but it will pass. You are so much stronger than your OCD and it’s up to you to make that decision to tell it off! I talk trash to mine all the time. Screw you OCD you want me to do these things not me. So you can take these thoughts and shove it. You hear me OCD? I said SCREW you!

That right there the “feeling” that you shouldn’t feel good or deserve things that’s the OCD talking. Everyone deserves to feel good and a hot meal and to enjoy things. Just like you! You’re strong you resisted before and can do it again. OCD will beat you up internally telling you how bad a person you are but remember it’s a big liar! It’s like a trickster if I make him feel bad enough I’ll get him to call again. I believe in you, you can do this!

Well go right back to the Expousre I gave you earlier. Maybe I should it report it maybe I shouldn’t? I don’t know? Did I see bad words on the screen maybe, maybe not? OCD you’re being a jerk again you’re trying to win but I’m not going to let you. You’re lying to me you’re telling me I saw something bad but you OCD put that thought there not me. So I’ll wait you out I can wait all day OCD you have no power over me! I am in control!

Yes exactly and like if you think of your mom or dad saying I love you but just think it you could still like picture or hear their voice in your head it’s not through your ears do you understand what I’m trying to say so I replay this conversation right with this person I think just what they might be saying in my head

Remember our talk earlier. Tell yourself I know that’s you OCD you want me to call but I Jim and standing my ground! You’re a bully OCD I’m not giving into you. Tell you’re yourself maybe I should call? Maybe I shouldn’t I don’t know but just sit there saying brain this isn’t a real threat so I’m going to just sit here feeling uncomfortable until you OCD get bored and and my brain goes yep that’s no threat here.