- Username
- Gaby
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Your post is obviously reflective of your own very real and weighty discouragement, it’s ironically encouraging to me and many others, because we have all had dark nights, weeks, months, etc. and felt that way. Anyway, I really appreciate your candor and transparency. While it’s alright if it doesn’t mean much, I will be praying for you tonight, tomorrow, and this week. Usually when I get there, it’s not that I’m done with life, but done with living life like this. I’m with you!
This was me 3 months ago, you can do this! Don’t let the OCD win, you’re stronger than these thoughts. You’re not alone in this battle.
I’ve been there. We all walk through the darkness sometimes but I promise you there is a light. So stumble through the darkness a little longer because you will get through it and you definitely are not walking alone.
Please hang in there. I feel similar. I am doing a bit better than a couple of weeks ago when I felt just like you are saying. Only a little bit better but I will take it. Please hang in there. Please.
Thank you all for your comments! I was just venting. Truth is I have been doing a lot better but it’s like I’m not entirely myself so everyday with these thoughts It’s discouraging. I know there are people with worse situations than me but right now I’m in a very difficult living situation and so it’s very hard to stay hopeful when I’m not myself yet. But I will try my best to keep moving forward!
I feel like this sort of too. Please let’s both stay strong.
Second night of breaking down crying, i am tired of my head. My head hurts, i feel like a horrible person. I don’t want to do anything, i don’t want to go anywhere and i don’t know who i am anymore. I’m scared of what my life will become. I never thought i’d say this but i just don’t see the point in living anymore, i don’t care about what happens to me. I don’t feel anything but anxiety and fear. My life is horrible.
*venting* I’m so tired of life. I just woke up, and I feel like going back to bed and sleep until this nightmare passes. This week has been one of the hardest of my life. I don’t think I can face another day of intrusive thoughts, fear, anxiety. I need some moments of relief, but there are none. I wanna have a life again. Anxiety and obsessive thoughts have killed my social life, my ambitions and desires, my happiness. I’ve been fighting for the past 6 months for nothing. I don’t see any improvement. I’m on day 3 of Lexapro and of course i can’t tell if it’s gonna work for me or not. I’m on the first stages of ERP therapy and I still haven’t got any assigned homework to work on, which I really need because I need to feel like I’m doing SOMETHING to help myself with ocd and Gad. I just hope someone could just take out whatever part of my brain isn’t working properly and replace it with a new piece. I don’t wanna feel like a burden to my family or boyfriend anymore. I can’t believe all the damage that I’m causing. I don’t know what to do with all this self hate. I don’t know where to turn to. I seem to have all the help that one could need - therapy, medication, support system. Yet I feel like I can’t spend another day living like this.
I just can't continue anymore. I've seen people say they've loved with this for years but I refuse to live like this any longer. I've tried exposing myself to the triggers but it doesn't work. If things continue like this I don't think I want to live anymore
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