Help? Kinda struggling with a switching theme. So my Harm OCD while still there is quiet (it wasn’t last night) and I seen a post that triggered me today. (Please y’all use the trigger warning, if going into detail.) Anywho it was about POCD, and none of my thoughts are descriptive (THANK GOD) But I tried to understand what made someone whose really a bad guy the way they are. And I thought of what their potential “argument” might be. At first it was fine, and then I was like “why did you even think that.” Then I was feeling guilt for not feeling guilty for the thought. Then I started to try to rationalize the thought (once again not descriptive). Then I tried accepting the thought and I don’t know why I’m getting stressed about this. OCD sucks y’all. I don’t even like children in general, I can’t stand being around them (I know that sounds mean but sometimes they’re extremely poorly behaved.) so long story short, how do I try to knock this off? Its more so the fact that I was so unbothered that’s bothering me for some reason and making me question my morals yet again :| for something so innately ridiculous. I’ve been sitting with the discomfort for 10 hours, I need something else LOL. Your feedback is appreciated.

K-Dizzle

Date posted: 4y

Omg okay I swear we're the same person. I triggered Existential OCD for myself the other day because out of curiosity I was questioning pedophilia; "Is it a mental defect? A disorder? A fetish? How do they rationalize it in their mind? What would rehabilitation for them look like? How do we keep children safe while helping these people become "normal" and lead fulfilling lives?" And then it spiraled into, "What if it's not actually wrong and I only believe that because of the society I was raised in? Does that mean nothing is wrong? Does good and bad not exist?? Are my morals valid?? What if I start believing these things are okay!?" Cue a mental spiral that lasted DAYS. 🤦‍♀️ How I got out of it: I wish I could give you anything but the usual therapy answer but I just sat with the thoughts and accepted their presence. "Maybe good and bad don't exist. Maybe I will lose all my morals one day. Maybe I am just socialized to believe these things are wrong... oh well, I'm going to go do something else. 🤷‍♀️" Our brains trick us into thinking, "No you MUST find the answer or you will be in danger of becoming a degenerate!" But really people ask these questions all the time but don't give as much of a 💩 as we do; it has no implications to them.

We Will Prevail

Date posted: 4y

OH MY GOD!? Is that Existential OCD BECAUSE GIRL that was my exact thought process, literally down to the freaking letter! It was when I got to “what if it’s actually not wrong, and it’s society.” That I started freaking out! Ok, as bad as it sounds it makes me feel kinda better that you’ve experienced similar. I feel hopeful and less alone. Thank you for sharing! And ikr 😐 like preocd I could ask and think whatever and not care, then OCD reared it’s ugly head LOL but it is what it is unfortunately 😅 sometimes it helps to laugh at it.

K-Dizzle

Date posted: 4y

@We Will Prevail No, I totally understand, it's like I'm not happy you're going through it but I'm happy I'm not alone in my experience. 😂

We Will Prevail

Date posted: 4y

@K-Dizzle Exactly 😂!

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@We Will Prevail This! This is what I have been looking for!! These are my fears too! Peoples morals change overtime (at least in society) so it makes me scared. What if I change? What if its not wrong? Its freaky. I feel so much better knowing I am not alone!!!!!

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Date posted: 4y

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We Will Prevail

Date posted: 4y

Thank you for the links!

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