I find that I deal with more intrusive/unwanted feelings than thoughts. But few mental health advocates (that I have found) talk about this. Can anyone relate to having more unwanted feelings/sensations than thoughts?

I read that you get nervous when you see a trigger because your brain sense threat, therefore you lose appetite, heart beat gets fast. As though you've seen a dangerous bear.

But since ocd is so convincing it convinces you that it's attraction instead of fear and you fall for it.

Mine shows up as like weird sensations (like false attraction) that flow through my body. I hate them so much

i deal with unwanted feelings definitely!

Yes! When I come face to face with my trigger, it bypasses the intrusive thoughts and immediately to unwanted intrusive feelings followed by nausea, panic attacks and meltdowns. My OCD is not on semi anymore. It is now driving on automatic.

I wish more people talked about this! I hate that y’all deal with this but I’m glad I’m not alone!

No, it just means your brain has created a butt tone of pathways and it's basically confusing itself. Also thoughts and feelings are basically the same. If you "feel" like you may like kids, it doesn't mean anything neither do your thoughts.

Basically everyone has about 70 million thoughts running around in our brains. You dont pay very much attention to them, however people with anxiety and OCD tend to latch onto something that feels uncomfortable because it's not a "normal" thought. Our OCD brains want everything to be perfect and when it's not it freaks out. It needs to be soothed, so it creates rituals, it searches for an "answer" to calm itself but there is no answer. OCD isn't logical. So if you try to "figure something out" it'll never happen. Why? Because thoughts for a BIG part of the time are just thoughts with zero meaning. Hope that made sense lol

@ocd465 I struggled with POCD for around two long and very excruciating years. Honestly it could have been longer. It is by far one of the worst themes of ocd I have ever dealt with. I understand your pain. I understand your shame. I agree with @rbheaton in that it looks like you are in the middle of a cycle. You look for reassurance but no matter what they say, the panic and fear returns. We have all been there and please know we are fighting with you. Reassurance feeds ocd. It doesn’t not help get rid of it. Try to sit with these uncomfortable feelings, urges, and thoughts. I know it’s hard but try not to give them any attention. You aren’t alone. I can promise you that. We are all fighting this fight and we do know and relate to your pain.

@ocd465 Also Try to love yourself through this. The fact that you have POCD is not your fault.

me me! Always! I have a combination of both that make things worse. Do you know what the reason is behind it ?

I do, definitely

I feel I enjoy doing bad things to kids makes me feel bad afterwards

When I have a bad thought

Ocd makes me feel I enjoy bad thoughts I have never acted on them I’m scared of that

One thing that helps me is to remind myself that "thoughts are just thoughts." The anxiety and OCD is just a protective mechanism. It doesn't really mean anything :)

Yh sorry I’m so tired I didn’t really explain myself propely

It's okay, I understand :)

That makes sense thanks a lot

Essentially... but really? Your brain is your. Your brain is just trying to help you cope, but it doesn't know how to. YOU are trying to help yourself make sense of your thoughts, feelings, ect but honestly they are just that and nothing more. If you can, get into therapy (specifically an OCD tjerapist) and work on helping yourself :). And I hope this year is good for you too ?

Aww thanks a lot wish u the best aswell

I 100 percent believe ocd takes everything we want and twists it. The fact that we are all on here shows we don’t want these thoughts and feelings. We won’t do any of these things because we don’t want to. Ocd tries to sabotage our happiness. It’s a monster. A nightmare.

Ocd465 I'm sorry to intrude but I have had the same thing happen once, but it doesn't mean anything. I think you might be in the middle of a "cycle." This is where you cant let go of your OCD thought...if you want, I have an exercise for you. Take deep breaths to calm down (even if you dont feel anxious) count 4 breaths in and 4 breaths out VERY SLOWLY. When you're done and you still feel anxious keep going until you can feel your body relax. Afterwords find something soothing like a warm blanket, a toy, something that calms you and hold it. Say to yourself, "these are just thoughts. They dont mean anything" repeatedly, but believe what you're saying! Because it's true. And I would recommend using the app exercises on here, I've used them few times and it has helped me a lot. They can be scary and intense but if you can hold on long enough, it should help you. And if you can dont look at this post or any other post with POCD for a while because it might trigger you. You can do this as many times as you need to, it works for me.

Thanks guys

Yes

OCD465 are you saying you enjoy your thoughts but feel bad later? Or that you did bad things because you enjoy it, then feel bad later?

No the first one

Not the second one that makes me feel sick u would even say that

I was just clarifying, I wasnt surevwhat you meant. I didn't mean any offense, I get those thoughts too though

Is it normal to think u liking the bad thoughts

N having urges like that what u want

Oh ok

Thoughts feeling urges they r all the same it’s basically the ocd brain trying to trick us into believing the opposite of what we actually like right I’m really having a hard time I’m hoping this year gets better for me n i can be happy again

I agree jen22 I hate feeling depressed n thinking I’m attracted to kids n want to do bad things it’s awful!

I hate questioning myself thinking I don’t no if I feel it’s disgusting or im scared of it or not

@jen22 when u say u have intrusive thoughts do u ever have bad feelings like ur enjoying that bad thought about kids n then realise u don’t it’s wrong n u feel extreme guilt after n u feel ur attracted to kids and have u ever had an urge (strong desire) to masterbate over a child ur scared of ever suffered with those ??? Does that mean anything I’m so scared I’m a pedo I have all of that n I really would never want to hurt a kid but I am tortured with feeling like I do ?

don’t no how I feel sometimes whether I like or not or I think it’s disgusting or not anyone else suffer this aswell??

I’m having a crappy time my dog died and my ocd is really bad right now