I just can't do this anymore. I am not sure of anything. I can't do this.

Its just politics and stuff. I keep having doubts and feel like I don't know who I want to vote for. I just don't feel like I knkw anything anymore. I honestly don't even have anything to look forward to. Life is miserable. I feel like I have to find out why I want to vote for someone and I dont know and I cant understand.

Thank you so much for praying for me! That means so much to me! It scared me the other day bc I saw a post about Christians being brainwashed and felt I had to know we weren't. I believe it but what if I'm wrong, what if I'm brainwashed. Ugh. It makes it hard to try to do good things for God when I feel like a fraud and when I try to do something good (like may be buying my sister something to be kind) I get thoughts that God is angry and trying to oppress me and that I shouldn't do good things and its probably ocd but I could see evidence of that in the bible even I guess in a way. I don't know how to find out the truth.

@anyonymous Yes I really have been praying for you and I will continue to. Oww I'm so sorry you're going through a tough time. I honestly understand and I even have someone close to me who has many of the same distressing thoughts as what you have described. Even me myself, I do too. It's so alarming and distressing 😔😔.. Without going into each of the themes, because I feel like anything I say wouldn't stop the doubt from circling round and round. Unfortunately OCD's breeding ground is doubt. And we find it so hard to sit with any sort of doubt. But with therapy and ERP, we learn to sit with this uncomfortable doubt. For example, me - I think I might have not fully thanked God enough in my prayers, so I thank him more and more and more, and I'm upset, but I feel like God is angry at me so I feel like I still have to do it so I don't want to offend Him. Eventually, through exposures I will have to not keeping thanking him more and more, and sit with a reasonably amount of discomfort about the doubt. There is a zoom call for support of scrupolosity, would you like me to pass it onto you? They have the recorded zoom calls on YouTube. I've only watched one and I've found it incredibly helpful!!! They really understand! Most of them are Christians who have been through years of torment from OCD too and now spend time trying to help others.

Thank you so much!! I love watching videos to help me with ocd!! I hate having doubts about my faith but I think erp would be helpful just trying to see if I can afford it.

@anyonymous Okay great =)). Let me know if you get round to watching some of it and tell me what you think! Me too, its so hard and sad. But it's good to know I'm not the only one. I'll keep praying for you!

@ButterflyStar Thank you! I will let you know if I watch them :)

Yes! I saw that they do and contacted them! I may do their therapy in the future but I am trying to see what I have locally too to see what's the best and cheapest option!! I am thankful that this app was created too!! I feel so much less alone when using it ❤