Anonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
IsidoraIsidora
- Date posted
- 4y
It is okay! Don't worry :) Feeling aroused by many things is normal at your age, as long as you don't act on them and hurt someone of course! Those are intrusive thoughts. I feel many obsessive thoughts in your way of thinkink in this post: 1. Feeling something inappropriate (OCD of sexual nature) 2. Feelings of guilt 3. Feelings inadequate, "gross", disgusting 4. Believing those thoughts are truly yours Remember that true predator wouldn't feel this way! And sorry if I sound rude, I don't want to be condescending at all, but you are still a child. You are still discovering your sexuality. You need to work really hard to get rid of feeling of guilt :) Don't worry! All the best
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
thank youu so much! the thing is i don't even like the thoughts i just feel very weird , and i'm scared people will not accept me and think i'm a predator :(. like before ocd i was always the type of person to even crush on teachers ( and still do ) but i feel like i don't deserve anything and feel like i'm just destined to be a bad person :(. i feel so guilty i just want to be happy again
IsidoraIsidora
- Date posted
- 4y
@kaido It will be okay, you just need to work hard on learning how to take care of yourself and to love yourself. It is just the worry, not the reality at all :) Predator doesn't feel bad about such thoughts. You are just discovering what is interesting to you, building your preferences. You mentioned thoughts about being aroused by "lolis" are bothering you a lot. Maybe you are attracted to youthfulness and cuteness in them, not to the fact that they are children. Sometimes things which we forbid to ourselves can be the most interesting, because of that "forbidden fruit" factor. Anyhow, many people with OCD suffer from thoughts about them being "evil, disgusting, unpure". This is called Mental Contamination OCD. It is difficult to spot for the sufferer because they might be so sure their negative thought about themselves are true! But there is hope to heal from this, and you can do it! :)
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
@Isidora you are so sweet omg thank you :( also the thing the confuses me is that i genuinely am not attracted to lolis , i just felt something really weird , maybe it wasn't @rousal . i do like cute stuff a lot :D! but not in a se*ual way at all. honestly talking about this really is making me realize my preferences ! since you sound very sweet, may i ask what i can do to start my road to recovery:)?
IsidoraIsidora
- Date posted
- 4y
@kaido You are sweet too ^^ I could feel you are nice and kind person from your words. I think the first step would be recognizing those are OCD thoughts, they come automatically so they are sometimes called a.n.t.s.(automatic negative thoughts). It might be tricky to research about these issues on your own, getting help from a good, skilled therapist is the best. I wonder if this option is available to you :) This app has online therapy option, but I haven't tried it myself as it is only available in the USA. You can check Dr. Jeffrey Schwartz's Four Steps for OCD in the meantime ^^ It is a little guide how to deal with those thoughts by yourself. Talking can help a lot, that is why we're all here! :)
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