Therapy isn’t gonna help me. Nobody else in this world is real like me. They all just want to convince me that I’m crazy when I know what’s actually going on. My therapist is just gonna be another machine to mess with me. Why does it have to be me of all people stuck in a place like this? What did I do wrong?

I believe in you. Now you have to believe in yourself.

I was doing okayish and starting getting until I started looking into ocd treatment. Everyone saying that “nothing is certain and anything is possible, embrace the uncertainty” made my life a living hell. How am I supposed to be happy knowing that I’m the only conscious being in existence and this whole world is fake and controlled like everyone else in it?

@Jay Well, I think you give yourself wayy too much credit for thinking you understand the world as it is. I mean really, why would you of all people be chosen? Why not me? Or your mom? Or your dad? It’s just such a silly increment. You are causing your own suffering by feeding your anxiety. You seriously need to take a step back and realize that. You will continue to spiral if you don’t. I recommend you read about descartes.

@charleejadeg That’s a good way to look at it. I have really bad anxiety in general aside from ocd and I come from a family of worriers. My life isn’t particularly special. I think maybe it’s because I’m also hypersensitive and very emotional. My anxiety has convinced me before that everyone, including my family and friends, hates me when they more than likely don’t. I just get anxious of it because it’s what I’m most afraid of as a very loving and emotional person who just has a hard time showing that love. I wasn’t getting a lot of sleep when i had the anxiety attack that triggered this and instead of going to sleep I went down a philosophical rabbit hole, including looking into descartes. I think it only made things worse.

@Jay Well descartes has a very good quote. He said the way he knows it doesn’t matter, and that it’s not true, is that he is able to think it all up in his own head. I think you are experiencing a mix of existential OCD and dp/dr. I challenge you to read some self help books about it, some people who experience this sometimes also believe they are dead or in purgatory. I have the same type of anxiety as you, only difference is that I try to challenge it with positive thoughts. And with that I’ve maintained healthy friendships and a 3 year long relationship with my partner. You are special and capable of a good life, you are just stuck in the negative thoughts that anxiety gives you. I recommend reading Ecclesiastes in the Bible. Word for word. It helps.

@charleejadeg Thank you. I’ve been left alone with my own thoughts lately and have been letting my fears overcome me. I don’t have any friends because of my anxiety and sensitivity that everyone hates me so I have a hard time forming relationships and I’m afraid to talk to my family members about things like this so I search for answers from complete strangers online. I’ve gotten through this before and I will again.