I’m so fucking scared. Yesterday I took one antibiotic (minocycline) then I took two today. One before bed, though. Not a good idea. I’m on the verge of a panic attack, reading all these bad reviews on the medicine. Some people get lupus, DRESS syndrome etc. For me, I think my vision gets a bit blurry sometimes after using it. It’s 1am rn and I can’t sleep because I feel itchy and I’m really really hoping I don’t break out into hives or something since a lot of people said that was a side effect. I’m going to stop taking the meds tomorrow because I’d rather have acne than this constant anxiety over “is the medication going to kill me?” I feel like such an idiot. All of this just for clear skin? I’m not going to risk it. I can’t. I hate my mind and I hate my body and I hate that I have to choose between one. I really wish I could talk to someone right now.

I’ll definitely call tomorrow. I think im just gonna try out more topical options instead of oral because this is really too much for me. I can’t even go to sleep because I’m extremely anxious and keep checking for side effects. And question aboht the hives: can’ they kill you or do any serious damage?

@worryqueen When hives are severe, they can be absolutely horrible to deal with. Sometimes they can blister, rather than just be welts, which could leave a longer lasting mark, though still healing, especially if one doesn’t pick at them. The only time they would be life threatening is not really called hives, but if they were part of an internal reaction or anaphylactic shock. I’ve had my airways swell from allergies, and they were never called “hives”, nor did they look or feel like hives. I think “hives” refers to the skin only; it at least usually does. In sum, they can really, really suck, but the hives themselves aren’t life threatening, nor do they leave permanent damage.

@worryqueen I think that sounds like the right decision for you. I just stressed the call to the doc because some meds aren’t supposed to just be immediately stopped. Also, your doc may have other suggestions of what to try that doesn’t stress you out as badly.