ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
DianaaaDianaaa
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Stay on the app! What are you feeling. Can you do me a favor and put something cold on your forehead and breathe in 4, hold 4, and then breathe out 8 for 10 times. This actually changed the brain chemistry in the brain to release more seratonin. And remember, every bad feeling shall pass. They always do. They feel like they will never but that is not the truth. Can you tell me more about what you are feeling? Would you like to call your mom or dad or friend or sibling? I’m sure they would love to talk with you after you lost your dog
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Have you ever let the thoughts just sit there and make a decision not to do anything with them? I’ll warn you. They’ll get a LOT worse for a period, and then recede. Getting over tough themes like this takes courage but put it this way. If you were like this all the time it would have come out by now. You can’t be this anxious and hate something and then BE it. The brain is in ultra protection mode now 465. You continuously raise the topic so the brain continually wants you to work out it. Get to a therapist as soon as possible - start the ERP. Buy a book on OCD one that contains sexual themes. Whether it covers hocd or POCD doesn’t matter. The idea is the same - the loss of an identity towards an unwanted one. This theme is way more common than you realise. I’ve had it three different times and recovered each time. Although I’ve never attacked it like this. I’ll never like to which means it can come back. And I’ll be ready for it!
DianaaaDianaaa
- Date posted
- 6y ago
But you can just tell us if you want to, we are here for you. But first do the breathing and put something from the freezer on your forehead!
DianaaaDianaaa
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I had where I wanted to masturbate over women with my sexual orientation ocd. It made me feel as if I enjoyed them. It made me want to enjoy them and like them. That is OCD. Very normal to feel as if you want to do your obsession. Very normal. That bad feeling is anxiety. You are not a pedo, and I wasn’t gay. I was convinced I was gay for 5 years and hated myself for it. I would get groinal responses to every woman and then have to masturbate to get rid of it each night. You are NEVER ALONE!!!! Trust us
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y ago
You have friends here 465. It is ok as it is all fear. Believe it or not if you can just resist a constant level of rumination, you will instruct the brain this topic is less important. I agree stay on the app. When did this theme first start for you?
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Why does it feel that I enjoy the bad thoughts I’m so scared n worried
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Do u have the same
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
N does everyone have the same urges like u want masterbate over kids n then feel guilt afterwards
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
???
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
3 years ago
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Keeps getting worse n worse this Christmas time I was so close to suicide I hurt myself I’m so frustrated I want to get off this horrible feeling is the worst then the thought itself I can’t stand to think I would enjoy such a thing n then after the guilt is intense I hate the urges that I have to masterbate over them n it’s not like when anyone else say I really don’t like it n stuff it making it real by saying it’s hard to resist into not masterbating over them I really don’t no how to think n feel
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I had a dream that i was masterbating over them n enjoyed it but at the same time keep stopping myself it made so sense I’m so scared I don’t no what to do I can’t be strong anymore I feel like a monster
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Why can’t I have another theme like washing ur hands or something I get confused if actual pedos feel remorse or not everyone. my brain is confused
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Interesting thought Dianaaa. I’d masturbate to porn most nights when the wife wasn’t interested. When she was we would have regular sex and I wouldn’t obsess. When things go quiet I do, and the porn starts. I’ve had performance problems due to anxiety and overuse in the past which acted as a catalyst for all my sexual obsessions. It’s removing those needs even when they scream to you to do so that is a key to recovery. Oh the paradox
TonyOCDTonyOCD
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Ocd465: in many ways i identify with you. Can you tell me how have you been? Can we talk?
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misereri
- Date posted
- 7w ago
Urgent: i need yalls opinion
Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?
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