ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
DianaaaDianaaa
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Stay on the app! What are you feeling. Can you do me a favor and put something cold on your forehead and breathe in 4, hold 4, and then breathe out 8 for 10 times. This actually changed the brain chemistry in the brain to release more seratonin. And remember, every bad feeling shall pass. They always do. They feel like they will never but that is not the truth. Can you tell me more about what you are feeling? Would you like to call your mom or dad or friend or sibling? I’m sure they would love to talk with you after you lost your dog
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Have you ever let the thoughts just sit there and make a decision not to do anything with them? I’ll warn you. They’ll get a LOT worse for a period, and then recede. Getting over tough themes like this takes courage but put it this way. If you were like this all the time it would have come out by now. You can’t be this anxious and hate something and then BE it. The brain is in ultra protection mode now 465. You continuously raise the topic so the brain continually wants you to work out it. Get to a therapist as soon as possible - start the ERP. Buy a book on OCD one that contains sexual themes. Whether it covers hocd or POCD doesn’t matter. The idea is the same - the loss of an identity towards an unwanted one. This theme is way more common than you realise. I’ve had it three different times and recovered each time. Although I’ve never attacked it like this. I’ll never like to which means it can come back. And I’ll be ready for it!
DianaaaDianaaa
- Date posted
- 6y ago
But you can just tell us if you want to, we are here for you. But first do the breathing and put something from the freezer on your forehead!
DianaaaDianaaa
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I had where I wanted to masturbate over women with my sexual orientation ocd. It made me feel as if I enjoyed them. It made me want to enjoy them and like them. That is OCD. Very normal to feel as if you want to do your obsession. Very normal. That bad feeling is anxiety. You are not a pedo, and I wasn’t gay. I was convinced I was gay for 5 years and hated myself for it. I would get groinal responses to every woman and then have to masturbate to get rid of it each night. You are NEVER ALONE!!!! Trust us
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y ago
You have friends here 465. It is ok as it is all fear. Believe it or not if you can just resist a constant level of rumination, you will instruct the brain this topic is less important. I agree stay on the app. When did this theme first start for you?
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Why does it feel that I enjoy the bad thoughts I’m so scared n worried
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Do u have the same
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
N does everyone have the same urges like u want masterbate over kids n then feel guilt afterwards
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
???
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
3 years ago
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Keeps getting worse n worse this Christmas time I was so close to suicide I hurt myself I’m so frustrated I want to get off this horrible feeling is the worst then the thought itself I can’t stand to think I would enjoy such a thing n then after the guilt is intense I hate the urges that I have to masterbate over them n it’s not like when anyone else say I really don’t like it n stuff it making it real by saying it’s hard to resist into not masterbating over them I really don’t no how to think n feel
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I had a dream that i was masterbating over them n enjoyed it but at the same time keep stopping myself it made so sense I’m so scared I don’t no what to do I can’t be strong anymore I feel like a monster
ocd465ocd465
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Why can’t I have another theme like washing ur hands or something I get confused if actual pedos feel remorse or not everyone. my brain is confused
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Interesting thought Dianaaa. I’d masturbate to porn most nights when the wife wasn’t interested. When she was we would have regular sex and I wouldn’t obsess. When things go quiet I do, and the porn starts. I’ve had performance problems due to anxiety and overuse in the past which acted as a catalyst for all my sexual obsessions. It’s removing those needs even when they scream to you to do so that is a key to recovery. Oh the paradox
TonyOCDTonyOCD
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Ocd465: in many ways i identify with you. Can you tell me how have you been? Can we talk?
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King silly
- Date posted
- 14w ago
Urgent :( POCD
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Insephy
- Date posted
- 8w ago
New therapist
Today I had my first appointment with my new therapist in a clinic and she told me that my thoughts could be because of my past trauma and that it’s what makes most people pedos. I’m so in distress right now, I don’t want to hurt people but she made me feel like I’m disgusting
Faker6532
- Date posted
- 5w ago
This felt way too real!!
Why the h•••ll did this happen to me? Seriously, I felt like a normal person yesterday, and now this morning, I feel like I am now a p•••do. When I first woke up, I kept thinking about about the usual things about a kid, only this time it felt real. It was like I was into them sexually and because of that, my private parts growed. Even though I kept saying "no, no ,no" a lot, I felt was only talking to open air and it didn't feel like I meant it God, for the last couple of days, I truly felt normal for once, and against these thoughts. But now I know that I am a p•••do and a piece of s••••it for seeing kids that way. If I could go back before all of this happened, I f••••cking would. Because I KNOW I was never like this before.
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