My mom was the one who made me call my doctor to get set up for therapy and now that I finally found a therapist she’s telling me that she wants me to only go as little often as I can and cares more about me getting a job instead, pretty much insisting that that’ll fix all of my problems (but really she only wants that because $$$). Her and my dad play these mind games with me all the time and they’re the reason I’m like this in the first place. When I finally started opening up to them about all the things I’ve been struggling with they pretty much said it was my fault for not speaking out earlier when I knew that if I did they just wouldn’t understand. When they pull stuff like this is why I never said anything earlier. But no, it’s always my own fault. Maybe I should finally just off myself so they don’t have to worry about all the money I’m costing them anymore. It’ll put all of us out of our misery for good. Really don’t understand why they even had kids if all they do is complain about the responsibility of it. I didn’t ask to be born, and if I knew existing was gonna be this confusing and scary then I would have demanded not to if I could.

Hey Jay, that sounds really tough thing to be handling. I'm sorry to hear that your parents aren't understanding. People are selfish and it sucks. Don't off yourself because that's not the solution I know you have people that love you and you are not a burden man.

Idk how old you are Jay, but I think you should just hop out of the nest and don't worry about what they say or anyone for that matter. Just like u said, they dont understand so theyre reaction is based off misunderstandings and false perspectives. Just get the help that you already know you need no matter what for yourself dawg. You don't really want to off yourself. That's why you're trying to better your situation literally within this app. I think what you really want to do is just get better so do it, don't mind any others mind. The complaining all comes from something they can't comprehend like I said. If you guys traded shoes is the only way your family would be able to get a glimpse of your situation and only then would their reaction towards you change. Most likely coming from a place of love believe it or not whatever they all say to you. But don't make the same mistake as many others and let that stop you like it does coubtless others. Get your help ya need first however u gotta. Only then you can help others once you've done helped yourself. Simply put, "fuck everything and every thought and commit to therapy. Best of luck my guy!