Does this happen to anybody else? It has happened to me before but this time its worse!! :( I keep doubting Gods exostencs and Jesus and I keep looking up reasons why they exis to try to find proof but my mind always say "that's not enough proof" I feel empty. I keep feeling like i dont believe anymore or that I've always believed a lie and it makes me sad. I want to believe, I really do. I want to have a day without a spiritual crisis. I want to love God and follow him and do the things I need to do but I can't until I figure out if that's what I believe or what I still believe 😭

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 4y

Yes!!! I went through this so so so much at the very start of my OCD. It was excrutitating. I know it's so so hard and horrible. And the Lord knows that too. He WILL carry you. Life will not be like this. Things WILL change You WILL get better! And you will be able to have a more loving relationship with God and Jesus. This is OCD, its a disorder. I wouldn't tell you you're bad or wrong or weak for having some physical disorder such as a collapsed ankle. This isn't any different, it's just mental. I'm going to pray for you ❤️ I know this is so horrible and you can't find any comfort anywhere. Just breathe, that's all you have to do❤️👍👍👍

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 4y

I honestly understand sooo much Your post is how I felt 2 years ago!

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I am so glad! Thank you for sharing!!! I am looking forward to the day when I can use what I have gone through to help other people struggling too!! Earlier I feel like I had almost concluded God didn't even exist bevause I had no proof but I have felt him! I then thiught maybe that was fake or a feeling but I want to believe!! I prayed and slept (I have a cold) and I am feeling better but sad still. Trying to hang on! If you have any tips let me know :)

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 4y

@anyonymous I believe that the Lord will definitely use you to comfort others in their distress as He has comforted you. I understand so so much, I felt this way too for a number of long long months. All I could think about is 'Is God and Jesus real?' I would endlessly research on Google and YouTube. And yet I couldn't deny the fact I had definitely experienced God in my heart. I guess my tip for right now is that.. It will take time ♥️. But I don't say that in a negative way, I say it in a reassuraning and gentle way, that this is NOT your fault. My tip would also be to engage in treatment 😊, to start therapy if that is available to you. And from there we could discuss things that are used in therapy. You're holding on and that's amazing! I prayed for you.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@ButterflyStar Thank you for praying for me!! That means a lot :) I would love to start treatment and my mom said she may be able to help me find something next month! (I'm in college so I I don't have a lot of my one money yet) I have tried to do things to help me but I always just end up endlessly researching Google and YouTube too. I have searched for proof in nature, proof from experiences and when someone says those reasons aren't good, I get nervous. I would love to know some therapy tips! I bought a workbook I am hooing will help too!

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