My harm ocd is killing me it will me like 24/7 not as bad now with medicine but it still there and it scares me. Anytime I see knives I get mental images off me stabbing people I love and get werid feelings tht I wouldnt do, it makes me cry. And school is stressing me out on too of it

I feel this. Mine has manifested to me feeling like I want to so it or that I'm going to do it. I'm over here googling how do you know if you want to hurt someone.

What are ur thoughts like if want too talk about it

I’d also recommend getting an ocd workbook and trying out some erp on your own! Here’s the one the ocd center I go to recommends: https://www.amazon.com/Mindfulness-Workbook-OCD-Overcoming-Compulsions/dp/1608828786 I’ve also heard good things about this one: https://www.amazon.com/Overcoming-Unwanted-Intrusive-Thoughts-Frightening/dp/1626254346 Come up with a list of triggers, arrange them from least to most distressing, and get to work! Some exposure ideas to get you started: - write the word “kill” on a post it and carry it around in your wallet - record yourself saying “kill” on your phone over and over for a minute. Listen to it 3x a day. - create a Pinterest board of different knives - practice holding a knife for 5 seconds, then 10, then 30, then a minute, etc - sleep with a knife in your bedside table - chop vegetables alone - chop vegetables with someone in the room - chop vegetables with someone standing right next to you You’ll have to learn to expose yourself to these properly without performing compulsions of course. And these books should help you identify what those compulsions are. Just allow intrusive thoughts to happen, breath, accept that they’re there and let the anxiety rise and leave on its own when it’s ready. When you practice this consistently, you’ll train your brain to handle these triggers and learn that you’re capable of observing these intrusive thoughts and dealing with the anxiety they provoke. Here’s a good article on self directed erp: https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/expert-opinion-self-directed-erp/

But we do know it’s harm ocd because we know we do not want too

It sucks thoigh

They are bad. Geared towards my wife and about killing her.

I talk to my ocd in my head. Its a conversation

Yeah, its hard not to sometimes lol

Yeah, exercises helps me i couldn't imagine if I didn't have my gym

I can relate y’all, it sucks. Going on 2 months with harm OCD. ERP has helped tho.