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YES exactly! And it hurts to feel like you’re questioning yourself in ways you were always so confident prior to the onset of OCD.
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YES! And the guilt you feel just adds a whole new spin on it and you feel like it’s a downward spiral. So many mind games
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I have intrusive feelings more than intrusive thoughts! It’s the worst! And it always makes ocd feel so real!
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Intrusive feelings are absolutely a thing. And you’re not alone. I’m in a similar place with my boyfriend. We just started dating and he’s the best guy I’ve ever known but my mind keeps asking me “What if you just like him platonically and you don’t like him romantically?” It’s hard and every time I go out with him, I’m riddled with anxiety but I’m going to fight it because I don’t want to throw away a potential future with this guy because of my ROCD. But I understand your pain. I hate it
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This was how i felt. The guilt became crippling i had to confess every little thing to my partner. Basically i fucked things up, made them not want to be with me anymore. That + some shit i did three years ago when we were new = a messy break up.
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I understand what each one of you is saying! I was getting myself into such a mess because I didn’t know if Intrusive feelings were a thing? Are they? It makes sense if they are! I had a big conversation with my boyfriend last night and he’s so compassionate and understands so much, however I don’t understand these intrusive thoughts causing fake feelings so obviously he got a bit upset and worried last night. So I feel I’ve hurt him by trying to explain these “fake feelings” I also said to him I worry about betraying him when I’m in that ‘fake’ state of mind. He’s such an amazing guy, I wish I could be better for him x
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I’ve only been with my boyfriend around 6 months so we are new too. My mind does that too! I think “feeling a bit annoyed at him for no reason, maybe I should just be single so I can do what I want etc” and it’s not how I feel! But in that moment those ‘feelings’ feel too real! It’s so hard. Stay strong love x
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big yes, one time it happend that with an intrusive about my ex, i fucking love my boyfriend but it has appeard one thought about my ex and i was constatly checkig my heart and then if my heart started beating a little more fast than the usual i was like “what if i still like him?” “what if my boyf covered an hole?” hate myself :)
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Right now I feel like I’ve realized something awful. Like maybe… I never truly loved my boyfriend. Maybe in the beginning I was just excited to be in a relationship. Maybe I confused that excitement with real love. And when the intrusive thoughts started, maybe it wasn’t ROCD — maybe it was the truth hitting me. I write this and it feels real. That’s the scariest part. It feels calm and clear and like maybe I’ve just been lying to myself all along, holding on because I “should,” not because I truly want to. I can’t remember how it felt to love him — and that makes it worse. I feel so disconnected, so numb, like nothing makes sense anymore. Every time I try to feel something for him, it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m playing a role, not being myself. But the thing is… I’m not at peace. If this was really the truth, why does it hurt so much? Why does this “realization” come with panic, guilt, emptiness, and so much fear? I don’t want to hurt him. I don’t want to lose him. But I also don’t want to keep living like this — doubting myself, my feelings, and my past. I feel like I’m stuck in a cycle I can’t break, and I’m scared I’ll always feel this way. Has anyone ever felt like this before?
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So recently I have been talking to this guy and I really like him and for the past week I felt really good and happy about it, but then a sneaky intrusive thought popped up about what if in the future when and if the time comes to sleep in the same bed, I inappropriately touch him while he’s sleeping. Now I’ve struggled with sexual intrusive thoughts like that before so my brain just kept reminding me of how that thought felt the last time it came up, and the thoughts of sexually harming this person started snowballing and making me feel worse and worse. I spent most of the day crying and panicking wishing my brain could just shut down, and now all I want to do is hide from this person so I don’t get the chance to hurt him, which makes me feel even worse because I had been feeling so good about him just the other day. I was just wondering if anyone else had experienced this and if they might have any insight
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I see people post about how they feel like their thoughts are real. For me personally I deal with sexual intrusive thoughts and they feel real to me because it feels like I enjoy them. And when I say “it feels like I like them” that’s the same for me as saying “I like them” but some people say that’s different. Idk just curious as to what you guys feel!
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