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465, if you feel you are using this app too much for reassurance it probably is a good idea to leave. We are here if you ever need us tho. I would say tho, I’ve suffered with pocd for 3 years now and I’m just now reaching out to therapy and I wish I had done it a long time ago. You are going to have good days, and bad days, and therapy will help you keep bad days to a minimum. Don’t be afraid to tell a therapist your pocd thoughts, this is an ILLNESS they will understand
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Good luck. Hope everything works out for you ?
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I’ve had this type of thought before. It’s a normal OCD thought for people struggling with POCD
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You’re not a sicko. You’re SICK. You have a disorder. First of all, masturbation is totally normal. In fact it’s shown to be a healthy part of a well balanced sex life. A child or anyone for that matter walking in during, is like an interruption (similar to an intrusive thought) you were already sexually stimulated. The child had nothing to do with it. If the child can’t leave your mind after, it’s your OCD ruminating, not because you’re a pedo
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Also, sometimes our brains/bodies can’t distinguish sexual themes from the “non-sexual” theme. For instance, someone can be turned on by the idea of a naked man’s body. Their physical sensations are already going in gear. THEN their OCD can kick in and comes up with the idea of oh idk - their naked brother - while their body is already turned on, forcing them into the conclusion that part of their sexual interest / fantasy involves their own brother. It’s trickery
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:) xx
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Goods luck !!!
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What do you mean I'm listening???
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I can help you.
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Would you like me to????
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@Alex K. Thank you so much there's no other better words to describe this struggle. Nailed every single feeling doubt and question of mine. You gave me comfort as well ?
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Thank u so much
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U too
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Yasmin one more question
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B4 I go
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Have u ever about to masterbate n a kid pops in at the wrong time u feel like carrying on whilst thinking about the kid n like u want it so much but u didn’t though but u feel so much guilt after
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Someone please help me?????
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I really need this
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Yes please
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Have u ever had what I said above
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U have pocd
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It’s making me worry n feel like I’m a sicko
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Sorry are u still on
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I used to be afraid to watch my younger cousins in fear I would rape them or get so turned on that I would need to touch myself
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Oh
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Yeah I agree you were in a state of mind that guy would switch from quickly
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Sorry I thought the original post meant a child LITERALLY walked in, but my advice remains the same.
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Ocd465 you deffenetly use the app for reassurance ive watched a few of your post and you are constantly looking for it
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Good luck 465. You are probably already off here. But wherever you are, know that this was a good first step. Now onto recovery...........
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Oh no I had just replied to you on your previous post where you asked me a question and just saw this ? I'll be praying for your recovery. I wish you well and remember you're not alone in this.
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I was going to ask for advice and vent after i just had an episode but reading through everyones post on here. I can see that everyone is collectively struggling at the moment and i think we need to utilize this community for more than just sharing our sadness. Nothing is wrong with venting of course but i feel like there isnt enough positive energy here to encourage everyone to keep going. I know asking for reassure feels like a must sometimes and trust me everyone has asked for it, it was a heavy compulsion of mine. But reassure is not what you need. It will make it worse everyone please trust me. Instead of letting out mind win we must support each other, understand our struggles but also share out wins. I feel like we dont use this community enough for finding friendship among us or spreading enough happiness. OCD Is not a happy disorder but seeing that everyone here is just here either hating on someone, people being too afraid to ask for help or no one reading peoples post. This place isnt just for our negative thoughts and events to fester we need to support each other here too! Ask for help, comment on peoples post with love everyone is struggling. In this community we should help pull each other out from dark places not let them stay there. I hope everyone who is going through it right has a better night/day/afternoon. You’re loved deeply your not a monster, your not evil, your not dirty, your not a heretic your Nothing your thoughts tell you are. Peace to you🤍🤍🤍🤍
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It’s been 4 years. 4 years since I spiralled into a world controlled by rituals of 4, it started as 2, then 3, then 4 - my safe number. The amount of times I wash my hands after touching something dirty and how many repeats it takes until I feel ‘clean’, the amount of taps I make when closing doors to make sure I don’t ‘die’, the amount of times I rinse cutlery and plates before eating off them, the amount of times I disinfect things. My OCD subtype is contamination and I know 2020 lockdowns and the pandemic caused it to spiral but what started as a small ritual quickly became bigger until I no longer remembered what my life was like without the obsessive thoughts of germs and contamination. Could that person be ill? What if I go outside to the shops and someone makes me sick? You can’t answer the door to get that package from the delivery driver because he might make you sick, oh you can’t put the shopping away without disinfecting it first - what if someone has coughed on it? ‘I’ve got to wear gloves to do that’ I can’t, I can’t, I can’t. For 4 years I’ve lived like this, the ‘I don’t want to touch that’ or ‘I can’t go to this place because I don’t want to get ill and die’ ‘can you go do that for me as I don’t think I can right now’ - I know my OCD is irrational, I know the likelihood of those things actually happening are slim to none and I know my OCD stems from a need of control in my life because for so many years I felt like everything in my life was out of my control. But no matter how much I know of how many books I read, how many mindful practices I do the panic I feel after being ‘exposed’ or before exposing myself to a trigger is horrible. I’ve avoided and avoided and avoided to the point where something small now seems and feels like an impossible mountain to climb. It often feels like there isn’t light at the end of the tunnel on the dark days, when I know there is, it’s just going to take some time. Despite this on the outside to those not in my circle my life is a whole picture perfect painting. I run my own business, have a nice car, a nice house, a happy relationship and the of best friends and I’m so grateful for all those things but the reality is much different - behind closed doors and hidden in the closest is the OCD monster. I’ve decided now, after 4 years it’s time to change. I’m breaking the cycle and starting anew. The irony that 4 is my safe number too and it’s been 4 years since things started to get dark. I’m ready to lose control and find myself again. Why am I writing this? Honestly, I really don’t know. I found this app recently and hope it can be a help for my ERP practices I’ve been practicing on my own and it’s actually the first time I’ve ever openly posted or spoken about my OCD to date. For years I have lived with a huge amount of shame and embarrassment, hiding my issues from everyone - even my closest friends have no idea how much it impacts my day to day. I’ve felt shame as I can’t control my own mind despite knowing the thoughts are irrational and the rituals only provide temporary relief but each day again and again the safety blanket of the rituals wraps me up and takes over. The only person who truly knows how much it affects me is my partner, who has been by my side through it all, he’s burnt out and has seen first hand the impact it has had on me, my life and my happiness. I’ve sheltered him as much as I can, but I’m sure those who are in relationships with OCD can relate to the burnout their partner feels day in day out. So that’s my story, I hope those going through similar can take comfort in this and know they aren’t alone in it all as my OCD has made me feel so incredibly lonely, isolated and empty for 4 years too long. It feels freeing to finally share my monster and I hope I can connect with others who are on a similar journey to me. The biggest thing I want to be able to do again? I want to be able to hug my loved ones without feeling triggered, I want to go outside and enjoy life without worry, I want to live again. This app has made me feel seen for the first time in a long time and reading your stories, your experiences and how you’re coping is comforting, encouraging and makes me feel less alone ❤️ thank you for reading x
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Hello, I unknowingly have lived with ROCD or OCD (not sure what one. I’m new to this). It has ruined so many amazing romantic and platonic relationships and I am so sad that just now I am finding out what the hell is wrong with me. Maybe life would be different if I have known. My OCD and anxiety is at an all time high (ATH) due to some horrible events that have happened in the recent months. I am at the point where paranoia has taken over my life now. I had my first panic attack a few weeks ago where I fainted. My anxiety attacks are so extreme I go thought cognitive distortion that has lasted days. My girlfriend of 3 years is my emotional guardian and she no long has the energy to be that and honestly it’s not her responsibility to be that. She is bi and wanted to have an open relationship and for someone who has OCD this has not been good for me. She also was assaulted in my own home by a good friend of ours when I was out of town but it’s not a clear situation because it sounded consensual at first. I just left my very high paying job. I am financially secure but the job was emotionally abusive and looking back made my OCD worse. I am taking some time off to get my head right…but now, all I have to do during the day is live in my OCD. I’m very happy I finally figured out why I act the way I do but I don’t know if I can get better quick enough to save my relationship. I have never been so worried about myself (M 28 years old). I am a confident young professional and never thought I would be writing on a page like this. Anyway…I hope it gets better.
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