I feel like this has ruined my life

Listen to me please! You are having spike after spike after spike. I see your name pop up all the time and you are panicking. When you panic you make things worse. Look back into your past. I have seen you (so called) used to like women. You DO NOT stop liking women . You were born with your sexual preference and it does not change. You have been triggered by something and do not quite understand what it means. The ocd side of it is what’s making you feel out of control. Do you like cars? Do you like houses? Do you like the look of a Lamborghini? Do you like the look of a mansion? Yes you do. It’s the same part of the brain that makes you like the look of a man. However this does NOT mean you are attracted to men. You are fighting it and making it worse. Take a deep breath and accept it. It WILL fade. Your sexual attraction towards females WILL return. STOP STOP STOP looking for reassurance. It is making you worse. Be brave take a moment out and spend 1 day not caring about anything. Then go find the correct mental health professional and they will help you. At the end (and it will take time) you wil come out of this and not come Out of the closet. You are no different to anyone else going through the same thing but your ocd is making you think you’re lying to yourself. Please get a grip. If you were gay you wouldn’t be panicking. NO NO NO more reassurance

I’m you 5 year ago. It will get better

you’ll be fine my friend. You’re in the hardest part. Please get professional help. IT WILL WORK

I live in the uk and it’s my bed time. I’m going to go snuggle up to my girlfriend and it’s going to be the most normal most perfect thing ever. You’ll have the same. Goodnight

You’re not alone pal

Thankyou for that. Im just scared mate that i wont be able to lead a normal life. I feel like its trying to minipulate everything i say and do. When i wrote normal life just then. I said gay life 🙈

What everthing ive said you can relate to ?

Every word. But your still seeking reassurance 🤪 STOP IT. Ocd stories podcast. Listen to them all and you’ll relate to some parts. This will give you the confidence to see a therapist. And listen mate. After all my help and going through what you have. I still love women. Ask yourself what are you more afraid of? Being Gay or not liking women anymore?

Really every word lol ? Not liking women anymore ?

Did you find men attractive i know thats pretty normal. But its like ive put a spotlight on them

Yes there you go. Either answer would still have gave me the conclusion you had ocd but this shows me how much you like women. Ocd is funny. We panic and fear the things that are totally the opposite to who we are. If you had harm ocd and I said to you why do you worry so much about hurting someone? You would say because I don’t want to hurt anybody. If I was to say to you if you had the opportunity to push a big red button then the thoughts of thinking about men would just stop would you press it? If I was to say press a blue button and you would be ok with it being gayand you will stop liking women would you press it. You’d press the red. If you were gay you wouldn’t press the button that would stop you liking what you liked.

oh and some men are attractive. I can see that and I appreciate that but I do not want to lay with one. I once thought about it but after treatment I basically sweat it out.

Sweat it out ?. Thanks for your help appreciated mate 👍

Exposed myself to it. Stopped being afraid and confronted it. Fears go away when you confront them. And you my friend are afraid. I was also it’s normal to fear things that we aren’t

How did you confront it ??

I had therapy and had to accept the fact I may be gay basically. This stuff works. They aren’t trying to catch you out

Alrite mate cheers. Take it easy.

Cbt ?

ERP exposure response therapy. Exposing yourself to your fears. Sweating it out basically. It’s hard. It’s very hard In fact but very rewarding. It takes time. But don’t waste anymore of your life over this

Ive done 2 sessions of cbt and im on medication 40mg of prozac

Unfortunately it may need 2years (but worth it) and you need ERP. You need to change therapy. This is what NOCD is all about. Finding the correct therapy

I think i am doing exposure aswel. I keep thinking of guys in there pants wtf ?

😂😂😂😂😂 how funny is it when you put it like that. Good luck mate. One day we will laugh about this

Does my head just pops into my head no warning 🤷‍♂️

So i just said im not like you im actually gay wtf ? Minipulation

Hello mate you about ?

My mind is telling me im secretly gay 🙈

I dont want to be gay mate 😞

Hey buddy its Tommy from yesterday i had to change my username

Hey mate are you about ?

Mate you are seeking reassurance and it’s making you worse. I can’t explain to you how much me reassuring you is making you worse. Seeking reassurance are your compulsions. You need to face this head on. You need to seek the correct help. Professionals will help you. You will have the future you want .

Sorry mate. I just dont know how this can be on my mind constantly 😞

Cheers. Did you have loss of attraction to women and to there bits. I hate this i feel like my mind is playing tricks on me

Hey mate ?