- Username
- crystalwolf1053
- Date posted
- 5y ago
This is called homosexual OCD, a lot of people have this on the app. When I was in highschool I thought I was gay and I freaked fir months. You should look it up. Understanding your OCD is this first step in getting better in my opinion :).
Try to disregard these thoughts and don't follow these thoughts. Believe me if you do ERP now it will save you a lot of suffering..
Thank you rbheaton for telling me this❤️ I am so confused right now so thank you for the tips!
I have been in a incredible relationship with my girlfriend for 3 years I recently asked her to marry me. I have had these thoughts all my life if it’s not sexuality thoughts then its relationship thoughts of it’s not that then it’s harm if not that then it’s health related. The mind will always find something to attack. She said yes by the way !! Be open with your love ones they will help you through and be present no matter what happens it’s what you do in the present and now that counts. Hope this helps
I have it also...its a fucked up feeling. Sometimes i think to myself and say if i was gay , I would just come out and be gay but thats not the case. I was sexually molested as a child and adolescent , so the thoughts of me being are whats annoying to me even though i know im NOT! Im not trying to prove to myself that im not gay I just want the thoughts to stop!
My subconscious mind is on some other shit!!! My conscious mind knows for a fact that im Straight. I like girls alot and how they make me feel. These thoughts are ANNOYING as Fuck!!!
I dont know if this will help or not because I dont know how long you guys have been struggling with this (the longer you obsess, the more intense the obsession is.) Like I said, when I was in highschool I obsessed over this for months. It made me so sick and so upset I actually had a detachment episode in the middle of school. One day I finally decided, "who cares if I'm gay?" And accepted the POSSIBILITY of it. After that, I was able to get past it. This can be difficult however if you've been struggling with it for years. I have been struggling with ROCD for over a year and its difficult for me to accept certain things. But when I relax I am more able to accept my fears. I hope that all made sense lol
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I have this! It’s horrible but I know how you feel
What sort of ERP have you done for it out of interest? What exercises have worked best for you?
Been there @PaperchaserLb, had the same experience. Had a little hocd, but POCD was the worst. Again feels like it comes from the subconscious. Like you I know what I’m after. Do you notice any of the thoughts recreate past adverse experiences or is it just questions? I’ve had both but find thoughts replicating past abuse stick the most for me. I also find it fucking annoying now rather than scary. It’s irritating when it likes to tarnish erotic/intimate moments with the other half. And don’t get me started general sexual ocd aspects?
Okay so I have been struggling with HOCD for so fucking long. I never felt like I had crushes on boys growing up but I wasn’t attracted to girls either (this was through 5th grade). Until 6th grade hit. I remember it like it was yesterday. I had the thought walking up the stairs and it was “You’re lesbian.” And ever since that thought was there and I fought it I have been dealing with all types of OCD ever since (been going on for 7 years). And only this year I found it was OCD. But it’s hard because I don’t know if I’m actually gay or I convinced myself I’m gay because I gave up and gave in. Now whenever I see I pretty girl I feel tingling. And I wanted to prove to myself that I wasn’t a lesbian so I look up pretty pictures of girls with their boobs out and I loved it. And I wanna make out with a girl so intensely. But then at the same I don’t wanna be in a relationship with a girl and I wanna marry a guy and I just desperately wanted to be like by a guy. But I get so horny whenever girls are in bikinis and stuff. But I have OCD and I’m so confused.
Hey guys, im new to the community my name is haidar. So i been attracted to this boy in my class for the past month. My minds been so stressed out because im not 100% certain about my sexuality. Sometimes i kind of like girls but im mostly towards men. I fear that im gonna lead this boy on and im not even 100% of my sexuality. Does anybody else relate?
Hi! I am genuinely so happy and attracted to my boyfriend but cannot stop having extreme anxiety trying to figure out my sexuality. Some days I think I am sexually attracted to women and other days I don’t feel this way. How can I accept the uncertainty? Another part of this OCD is I obsess over what the queer community will think of me since I have limited experiences with women. I am so happy with my partner but the OCD is keeping me in fear of missing out. I keep constantly comparing myself to others and getting down that they have had more sexual partners. Seeing if I’m alone in this.
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