Hi, I was diagnosed with pure OCD, a few years ago. Through time I struggle with various themes, starting with religion OCD, to harm OCD, pedophile OCD and sex orientation OCD. Through the years I manage not to heal completely but to manage my OCD thoughts, to build a decent life and for 1-2 years to be completely free from any OCD thoughts. To go from full OCD to free from OCD was something like a miracle for me. It changed me, I was seeing life from a different angle, appreciating each single day of my life free of OCD. I was truly happy, appreciating every small moment of my life. A year ago or so, I pass an experience that for me at least was very traumatic and I started to see the signs again of OCD. This time however was different, I could recognize the OCD traits but it was blend in with something else that I couldn't comprehend. I was seeing a therepist, and we were struggling to understand if I was also suffering from depression, bpd or cptsd. I am not currently seeing a therapist because of covid-19 and I am really struggling to understand how I can overcome all of these symptoms. I now started to understand that may struggle with relationship OCD, fist time for me. I always doupt my feelings for my significant other, I get constantly anxious if I am with the right person and when I get really anxious with thoughts I feel like I need to find the answers to these thoughts right away, and the anxiety builds even more forcing to feel that I need to get out of the relationship. Plus I have these feelings of sadness, sometimes I get really angry, irritiated, I don't believe in my self, I doubt him for everything, and I don't have any self esteem. I feel like I am at the bottom and through all of these symptoms I get lost and I don't understand what is happening to me. I read little about the quiet bpd, depression and cptsd. The one that clicks more with my other symptoms is the cptsd. So now I found myself lost because I may struggle with a new theme of OCD the relationship one and with a new condition ptsd and I really feel that I am loosig my life again. I lost my job, my relationship goes through a very difficult time, I feel that nobody understands me, that my friends don't really care, and that the more I try to get away from these symptoms the more I get in. I don't if any of you faced something similar, any suggestions would be appreciated. Just to let you know I am now searching for an online therapist in my country so hopefully of the next days I will find one. Thank you for listening.