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Just sit with it. Use the following: I am walking from my home to the supermarket and see (insert trigger). I start to get a strange feeling in my chest and stomach and groinal responses. Was I just attracted to (insert trigger). Immediately, I start trying out to figure out what I was feeling, going over the scenario in my head countless times, checking for information online, despairing when I find something that seems to confirm the worst and feeling relief when I find something that assuages my fears (temporarily). Back track a little. I didn’t need to do any of that. I am obsessing and, regardless of whether or not I have OCD, that chain of thought is dysfunctional. Next time I see (insert trigger), I might get an intrusive thought and might even start analyzing, but I can stop myself and sit with the anxiety of not knowing for sure in that moment so I can get back to living my life.
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This! ^^^^ (your description was perfect)
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Hey b2192, I am so sorry you are going through this. This is the first story I have heard with this theme specifically, but I wouldn’t worry. Most soocd sufferers will describe almost identical things for their themes, including myself. Definitely stop checking the videos (1) that’s a good way to get tracked online and (2) the checking will just make it worse long term. Just sit with the thoughts and anxiety. Let them be there without reacting and the anxiety will dissipate. Best of luck. Lmk if you have any questions.
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I dont actually watch porn I just watch videos that I can find on youtube etc that show dogs sniffing crutches etc I was tempted to view more but stopped myself last minute. I hate that I keep questioning myself
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crotches*
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You have no need to answer these questions at the moment (I know it feels like it, but the urgency will continue to drive the OCD).
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When you feel anxiety like you need to check or figure out how you feel about something right at that moment, that is a compulsion. You can say, I will not avoid the intrusive thoughts, but I also will not feed into the compulsion by trying to analyze the thoughts.
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I also suffer from zOCD. (or bestiality ocd) and it's horrible. I have a false memory that my dog sniffed my crotch (while I was fully clothed and I let her). It's normal to feel aroused. You are seeing sexual things and you will feel aroused no matter what. Don't check the videos. It will make you feel worse afterwards. And they won't tell you any truth. They just lie and lie. The worse part is if you have false memories they can be like "what if you have done this in the past and you can't remember".
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Thankyou this was really helpful, sometimes I know I should ignore my urge to check but it's like I almost enjoy sitting researching or maybe that's the compulsion that feels that way. I do have real event ocd in which I have done things which has took me a while to get over so the similar videos I am drawn to I think maybe is me trying to convince my self that I no longer like these things but it only makes me worse as I end up feeling arousal.
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(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
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I don’t know if my hormones are extra wild this month or what, but I have been having so many POCD thoughts lately. It feels like I enjoy them in the moment, and then a few seconds later, I get this tiny flicker of *wait I don’t think I actually want to enjoy that.* It’s scaring me a lot. I was watching adult videos for the first time in about a year, since I had been avoiding them because of my OCD. I know they are not good for anyone, but I felt like i could (ironically it felt like a tiny win that my OCD had calmed down enough). But while watching, I had like 3 separate POCD thoughts. And it felt like I liked them. Like genuinely *liked* them. I don’t know if maybe my body was mixing up physical pleasure and mental pleasure, and then my brain inserted those not okay thoughts into the situation, which got tangled up with the pleasure responses I felt mentally and physically. It is all really confusing. I just feel so scared. I know OCD thoughts are supposed to feel real, and that once you get desensitized to the anxiety, they lose their power. But this feels like I am *actually enjoying* the thoughts, and that makes me want to cry. I’m scared that I actually like these thoughts when I’m really aroused :( Please help.
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I’ve been dealing with POCD for months and fake arousal is the worse, especially now it’s changed to when I’m scrolling on an app, etc and happen to come across a child, my Pocd makes me have fake arousal as usually I do a compultion such as trying to stop the arousal from happening such as tending my body, etc. however, recently I’ve enjoyed the fake arousal and wanted it to happen because it feels “nice” and in the moment I “want” the fake arousal over the “child” and in the moment I feel “attracted to the child but after this I’m met with guilt and so so many compultions such as showing, washing my bedding etc etc CAN OCD MAKE YOUT BODY ENJOY SOMETHING!!? Please help!!!
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