Everytime I think of beastiality and I give into my ocd I end up researching it and checking my arousal on videos etc I always feel really aroused. It's always dogs licking woman down below or sniffing there crotch and I dont want to be aroused by these things. Does this sound like I just enjoy these things or ocd ?

Just sit with it. Use the following: I am walking from my home to the supermarket and see (insert trigger). I start to get a strange feeling in my chest and stomach and groinal responses. Was I just attracted to (insert trigger). Immediately, I start trying out to figure out what I was feeling, going over the scenario in my head countless times, checking for information online, despairing when I find something that seems to confirm the worst and feeling relief when I find something that assuages my fears (temporarily). Back track a little. I didn’t need to do any of that. I am obsessing and, regardless of whether or not I have OCD, that chain of thought is dysfunctional. Next time I see (insert trigger), I might get an intrusive thought and might even start analyzing, but I can stop myself and sit with the anxiety of not knowing for sure in that moment so I can get back to living my life.

Hey b2192, I am so sorry you are going through this. This is the first story I have heard with this theme specifically, but I wouldn’t worry. Most soocd sufferers will describe almost identical things for their themes, including myself. Definitely stop checking the videos (1) that’s a good way to get tracked online and (2) the checking will just make it worse long term. Just sit with the thoughts and anxiety. Let them be there without reacting and the anxiety will dissipate. Best of luck. Lmk if you have any questions.

I dont actually watch porn I just watch videos that I can find on youtube etc that show dogs sniffing crutches etc I was tempted to view more but stopped myself last minute. I hate that I keep questioning myself

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You have no need to answer these questions at the moment (I know it feels like it, but the urgency will continue to drive the OCD).

When you feel anxiety like you need to check or figure out how you feel about something right at that moment, that is a compulsion. You can say, I will not avoid the intrusive thoughts, but I also will not feed into the compulsion by trying to analyze the thoughts.

I also suffer from zOCD. (or bestiality ocd) and it's horrible. I have a false memory that my dog sniffed my crotch (while I was fully clothed and I let her). It's normal to feel aroused. You are seeing sexual things and you will feel aroused no matter what. Don't check the videos. It will make you feel worse afterwards. And they won't tell you any truth. They just lie and lie. The worse part is if you have false memories they can be like "what if you have done this in the past and you can't remember".

Thankyou this was really helpful, sometimes I know I should ignore my urge to check but it's like I almost enjoy sitting researching or maybe that's the compulsion that feels that way. I do have real event ocd in which I have done things which has took me a while to get over so the similar videos I am drawn to I think maybe is me trying to convince my self that I no longer like these things but it only makes me worse as I end up feeling arousal.