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Congratulations!š š. Iām proud of you :)
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Thank you for sharing your journey ā¤
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Congrats brother I am happy for you
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Thanks for sharing! So glad your better
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How severe was your ocd mate ?. What thoughts did you have im really struggling ? š
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Hey everyone. I wanted to share my story and some of the things I have/am experiencing in my journey with OCD- particularly with Sexual Orientation OCD. My goal is not to use this as a means for reassurance for myself or for any other, rather as to be a reminder for myself and you all that you are NOT alone. No matter what you are experiencing you arenāt alone, and we have all gone through the same thoughts and feelings as you, in whatever form they may have been. For personal reasons I will not share my name, but I do want to share about me and my journey with what has truly been one of the hardest things Iāve ever experienced. I am a 24 year old female and for as long as Iāve remembered Iāve always been a āworrierā. My dad used to tell me that worrying will be the fastest way Iād die lol. Oh! How I wish I could go back to those days of just simply worry. For the past few years I have struggled with what I now know is intrusive thoughts. But, luckily for me they were a little calmer than what Iāve experienced now. They were the occasional worrying that my boyfriend died but I would get over it rather quickly. Well, in may of 2024, I had just graduated college, was about to get married and about to move out. So, that triggered some switch in my brain and thus began this horrible disease of OCD. My main type has been SO-OCD but I have found some moments that Iāve also struggled with ROCD as well as some existential crisis OCD. I have unfortunately not been able to go to therapy because of money but I am on meds and have been using tips and tricks Iāve found online. My goal is to still go to therapy when I can find the right time. And I, like many of you have months of great āfreedomā from the disease; and then, like I find myself now, fall back into its trap. I wanted to share some of the things Iāve experienced with this to see if yāall have experienced the same things and to let you know you are not alone. For reference, I am straight (I am happily married to my wonderful husband). 1. Thoughts from the past: I slightly remember having a thought that Iād be gay when I was around 12-13⦠that was around the time I actually first figured out what that meant. Even then, I (more easily than now) brushed it off. Continued to have about a million crushes on boys and never thought of it again. But now, with my OCD, I feel āconvincedā that that was a sign that I was gay. 2. I have always been a girls girl. Me and my friend have a joke that we are worse than men! Meaning that when we see a pretty girl with a nice body, we stare. We say they are pretty. Never have I ever thought anything of it. It was always from a place of envy and admiration. Never a place of lust or anything along those lines. But NOW. OH! If I even look that direction I feel guilty, I feel like thatās confirmation that I am gay. And even worse- that is one of my compulsions. To look and make myself āproveā Iām not gay. 3. I have lost āfeelingā for my partner. I love my husband. More than anything else. I could not live without him. But since this all happened, my emotions and fears have been all over the place that Iāve somewhat lost that feeling. It doesnāt help that Iām on medicine that can have that effect. I have to just remind myself that love isnāt always feelings, itās a choice. And I choose him every single day. 4. sex life issues: bc/ of the OCD fear as well as my medication, I donāt have much sex drive or pleasure in the bedroom as I did before OCD⦠and, my OCD likes to convince me that that is because I would be better off with a woman (even tho I donāt want that) and then, OH THEN, I proceed to experience some groinal sensation from that though. So- cue even more āproofā that I am gay. well- thatās all I can think of now. Let me know if any one yall struggle with those. And I hope you know, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS. YOU ARE NOT YOUR OCD š
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Just wanted to give some hope to those who are having ocd spikes, spirals and worries. This past year I have regained my life back. I went from beginning to isolate myself, being convinced by my ocd that my hobbies are bad and that I should avoid things I enjoyed, and having constant panic attacks. With the work of IOP, psychiatry and nocd, I have made great strives towards my future. I now donāt avoid things and instead embrace my life and ANY possibility that may come. Donāt let the ocd bully you. Yes, I have intrusive thoughts still but I am able to go about my day instead of obsessing over them. You can find this too. I encourage anyone on the fence to please seek help if you are in a tough time, it can literally save your life.
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I am FINALLY starting to (somewhat) recover from this last existential spiral, which admittedly, was probably the cruelest my OCD has ever been to me. Only thanks to you all. You were all able to provide me with kindness, understanding and support⦠without the kind of reassurance that feeds OCD, of course. When I downloaded this app, I was genuinely terrified. I was so scared that I was permanently doomed to the endless whirlpool that is the thoughts produced by my own brain and that life as I knew it was over, that I would never be happy again. For anyone who might be feeling that way right now, your OCD is LYING to you! Whatever you may be going through, it CAN get better. As hard as it may be right now, HAVE FAITH! Get up and do that thing you want to do in spite of the fear and discomfort. Take the fear with you like a whiny, unwilling toddler and do it anyway. Watch the movie, read the book, order that takeout youāve been craving, bake the cake, wash the dishes⦠Please do it anyway! It will be hard at first, I wonāt lie. But the OCD part of your brain, like a toxic partner, WANTS to win. It wants you to give up on those things that you love, all those things that make you happy so that thereās no space for anything but itself. Donāt let it win. The more you push yourself, the more you rewire your brain to realize that as much as it may feel like, the obsession doesnāt matter! Thanks to you all, even without therapy (YET - Iām starting that journey on Tuesday because thereās still a lot to unpack, and I know that OCD wonāt just magically go away), I was able to get a basic understanding of ERP and learning to sit with discomfort and how to live life in spite of it, rather than letting it take over my very being. So for that, I thank this community. I think I would be in a very different place right now if it werenāt for the people Iāve met here who truly understood my experiences. I hope you have a wonderful day. Please donāt give up. You deserve to be happy, no matter what your brain is telling you ā¤ļø
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