Hocd is so cruel

What’s up man?

The whole penis thing is getting me down 😞

All OCD is cruel!

The loss of attraction sucks. I couldnt have loved women more than i could have. Not having that back would kill me

Im from the uk. What erp do you do mate ?

I have been trying to socialize more with friends, no matter what my mind is telling me. I’ll just do my best to cut back on compulsions and do the things I used to before I started avoiding. I will also look at triggering pictures and videos without analyzing. That means, for example, looking at a dude and instead of trying to figure out or worrying about if there is attraction, just sitting there saying you know what, that is a pretty good looking guy. Maybe I do want to be with them. Maybe not. Then I’ll move on. If looking at the picture gives me tremendous anxiety, I will sit there for a while a resist compulsions until the anxiety subsides. If it doesn’t, I just say maybe, maybe not and move on without engaging.

Yeah im trying to look at attractive men and i get really bad anxiety and i get thoughts its really tough. Im going to try and do it everyday. What thoughts do you get when you do it ?

A lot of intrusive thoughts about being with them or in the same space. A lot of the false attraction feelings which get me the worse.

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Yeah i get the same but you know deep down you dont want to

Deep down, but it can be confusing at times. Feels so real man. Feels like you have lost yourself.

I swear it tries to make me feel like i like or want the thoughts 😞

Yes, me too. Just gotta sit there and take it. Don’t analyze though. If you keep on checking, you will honestly just write yourself up to think you like it.

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Its so confusing. I want my attraction back to women 😥

Have faith. Just go with the flow my brother. I do too, more than anyone who doesn’t have ocd could know. You HAVE to refocus though. Stop the compulsions.

Im scared to do my exposures

Yeah, it is scary man. You think you are going to come out of them and realize you are what you fear. Honestly, after some of them, you might actually think you are what you fear. Just need to keep on pushing forward and not try to answer those questions.

I went swimming today that was tough. Thoughts constantly

Yeah man. Just have to keep on swimming though, and socializing. When you don’t try to answer the feelings and just live in the moment, the anxiety will subside.

I get bombarded with thoughts. Hes fit, look at his bulge , thats what i want etc its horrible

Yeah, you just let the thoughts come in and not react. When you get that thought and try to figure it out, you are just going to have more of them. Trust me. I am doing better. A lot less anxiety. Caring less overall. Still not out of the woods and the attraction is definitely not back, but you just have to trust the process.

What do you do for exposure mate ?

this whole penis thing is getting me down 😞

What penis thing? Try to socialize without analyzing, jumping to conclusions etc. Looking at pictures of good looking guys or spending time around good looking friends.

Key is to not analyze or test the thoughts and start checking how you actually felt.

Kind of disgusted to be fair. So basically my mind is telling me i like penises im 37 and never had these penis thoughts until about 3 months ago 🤷‍♂️

Yeah, I get the same thing man. Feels so real. It’s like I am super uncomfortable and know that this was never me, but my mind still makes it feel like it is. Just don’t over analyze.

I need help mate 😞