I feel like I’m the only person who gets terrible anxiety when I can’t find something in fear I threw it in the trash or it’s gone forever. The anxiety is so bad I barely have a appetite or can sleep for long or I can’t pay attention in my classes. Do any of you guys have coping mechanism that might help

whenever i loose something literally anything anyone has given me even if it is just the packaging that came with a gift i will start crying and get so mad at myself. i think the person who bought it for me will hate me. especially when i loose jewelry i look around my room for literally as long as possible and the whole day if that’s what it takes and it keeps me up at night. At camp, i thought i lost my waterbottle (when it was in my bag) and i went in my bunk bed and started crying. it was super late at night and everyone was sleeping and i feel bad bc i had to turn on a flashlight to look around the entire cabin for it. i even walked outside to the bathroom to see if i left it and tears were literally falling from my eyes when i couldn’t find it. the whole night i was crying and couldn’t think about anything else. it was just a water bottle that i could just buy again.

This is a repost, only because the last post had no responses lol. Please if you have any advice share. I’ve been trying hard to sit with the feeling of anxiety. Actually that’s the problem, recently I’ve been trying to sit with the thought (and I’m able to for a few hours or until the next morning) and then my anxiety comes back so strong and it’s like I need to clean everything off. I see images of gross laundry getting on everything or my hand and then I need to clean everything off to un contaminate it. Sometimes the thought happens later at night so I just sleep through and the next morning I will wake up with intense anxiety about contamination. That happened yesterday and I had to clean everything off and since then I’ve been traumatized so I’ve been doing compulsions like avoiding the bathroom and being around people so I know I couldn’t have done anything wrong. Actually recently my biggest compulsion has been recording every time I get up to go eat, etc so that I know I couldn’t have done anything. Any advice or help???

I’m trying to get in with therapy right now, but I’m most concerned on having issues with not eating. Intrusive thoughts and anxiety make me nauseous and distracted from eating. It took me an hour last night to eat instant ramen. Does anyone know what I could do about this? I’m only eating around 1 meal a day and I’m afraid of how this could affect me medically.